Meme

I found this meme over at Snow’s and I thought it was a good one!


1. What was the first blog that you regularly read?


I found Bonnie first. I felt like a kid who had just walked into her first candy shop and was encouraged to take all I could carry and come back for more!



2. Do you remember the first" blogger" that you had an E-Mail Relationship with?


That one is easy to remember! Before I began my blog I left a comment on my twin Eva’s site. Little did I know that one comment would find me the best friend I have ever had! She emailed me that day and with rare exceptions when one of us could not get to a computer we have talked every day since!


3. Why did you create your blog?


Once I found spanking blogs I just could not keep my mouth shut. I realized quickly that commenting would not be enough! I was beginning my first free summer in 20 years so I jumped in with both feet. My blog was a place I could ask questions and explore the ways I had felt all my life. Having a place where I could discuss spanking with others just like me has meant the world to me!



4. When was your first post, and who was your first commenter?


I first posted on Saturday July 22, 2006. My first visitors? As far as I am concerned that post brought out those that I felt were blogger royalty! There was Bonnie, Eva, Cassie, Paul, CeeCi and Theresa! I mean really folks, could I have been given any better start??


5. Are there blogs that you absolutely have to visit daily?


That would be a resounding YES! There are between 15 and 20 that I check daily. Some folks who post infrequently I might check every other day or so. I love that Blogger got its act together and the little heartbeats are back. It sure does make things easier. I also have several friends who read out here but do not have their own blogs. We try to touch base several times a week too.


6. Is your Blog categorized?..(I.E. Comedy, Literary, Personal Angst, Etc.)


Well… it was a spanko/sex blog to begin with and that is something I am proud of. In my mind I like thinking of myself as a spanko/sex blogger. I feel that most of the people I see and talk to in real life couldn’t say that. So in my mind I am keeping the label. But just because there is no spanking or sex going on at a given time does not mean I am going to shut up!! In addition to spanking and sex I talk about my kids, my job, my pets, my friends, trying to lose weight, being happy, being depressed, and being confused. I write about anything that interests me. And I love reading about the same things when my friends here write about their lives.

7. Do you see an end to your blogging some day?


Well sure, nothing lasts forever. But I do not anticipate it for quite some time. I enjoy it, it relaxes me, it keeps me in touch with my friends, it provided the catalyst to vastly improve my marriage and continues to bring me closer to Nick. And even when the blog ends the friendships I have made here won’t!



8. What are you wearing right this very minute?


I have to say this question seemed random but okay. I am wearing jean shorts and a tank top. So what were you expecting a black corset with red lace and fishnet? Haven’t been reading my blog very long have you?

Just stuff

It is official. My husband has left me for bunch of middle-age men with golf clubs. For the past 10 years he has gone off twice a year with the guys. It used to be something I really looked forward to. As soon as I knew the date I would make plans to farm out the kids and have the house all to myself for the whole weekend. A wonderful thing for the mother of two who spends her days with a room full of 11 year-olds! It’s still a nice weekend but I miss Nick a lot more than I used to.

This will be a rambling post, no real point, so be warned. Nick emailed me yesterday and told me he was expecting my assignment this week. I really hadn’t been planning to write one. So I wrote him and I was pretty honest. Nothing really new or earth shattering, but I did tell him what I had said in my other post that I was feeling lonely. I got a real sweet email back from him and I do feel better. I will keep talking to Nick; I have too many friends out here that get on my case when stop. And I am grateful folks. I know me pretty well and without being pushed I know I just shut up and shut down. Thanks for hanging in there with me.

My baby is in high school! Mollie seems to be adjusting pretty well. I fact she has been in a better mood than usual lately. LJ is settling in at school. We got him another car, he doesn’t know yet. Nothing fancy or sporty but hopefully it will be dependable and safe. Of course LJ wouldn’t know one type of car from another. He just never cared. Mollie can tell you what each car that goes by is and let you know in great detail what kind she wants. Very different children!

My school year has gotten off to a good start. Much better than last year! By this time last year I have even had a death threat. Now out of my 75 students I am only having a problem with one! And he is only having a problem with me, not the 2 male teachers. He doesn’t like doing what women tell him to. There is no mom in the house. He wants to talk back and argue. But I feel sorry for him. Maybe I can show him that some women can be calm, consistent. I am trying to be kind and I have told him I will always treat him with respect but I will expect to be treated with respect also! Now if I can keep my cool!! Having a kid flare up in my face tends to piss me off. But he needs me so I am really going to try with him.

Okay I have rambled long enough. I hope everyone has a great Labor Day weekend. If you don’t have anything to do this weekend you could always write a Fantasy Friday story!! I have a few folks and they are HOT! But if we are going to be able to start this up again I am going to need more!! Anyone – everyone please give it a try and email me a story. I am hoping to get it started by October, so please let me hear from you! I am talking to YOU, fellow bloggers, friends without blogs, and you silent readers who may not even comment. Come on you know you have a story to share!! Real or fiction, trust me we don’t care! Send it to elisspeaks@yahoo.com

Erotic Personality Quiz

I took Sage Vivant's Erotic Personality Quiz and discovered I'm an Escapist!

What is your Erotic Personality? Find out now.

Reality is The Escapist’s least favorite place. Sex in another era or galaxy with other people would be ideal for this erotic personality—or so they believe. They also like to revise their own history and think about how great a certain sexual encounter or partner would have been if only this or that had happened. An Escapist’s fantasy life is active and rich, but it is characterized by fantasies that they’ve nurtured and cultivated to perfection. This is the mother of all erotic types and almost everyone has a bit of The Escapist in them. What makes this type a person’s dominant erotic personality, however, is how necessary the fantasies are for erotic fulfillment.

I know this is all in fun but this really hit home to me. I remember being about 4 or 5 and wandering off into my mind in an early form of mind blogging. Now honest to goodness I had a great childhood, I wasn’t trying to escape anything. But I often just preferred the reality I made for myself. All this is well and good except that it is hard for reality to live up to the perfection I can create in my mind. It can be a form of a drug. There have been times in the past that I have had to struggle to stay ‘here’. It is much better now. I think blogging give me my ‘fix’ while you folks all help keep me in the here and now.

New year, old me

Am alive and well and teaching school. Today was the first day with the kid. All went well but I am more tired than I care to admit. I am teamed this year with two men. One I have teamed with for about 5 years and the other is new to our school. I don’t mind being teamed with 2 guys and I am sure there will be advantages but they are being too accommodating!! As I told Eva I want to snap at them “I am a spanko for heaven sake!! I want someone to tell me what to do! Make me! I shouldn’t have to make so many decisions!” Plus this new guy has two paddles in his room. I have thought of asking him if his wife prefers wood or leather!

Now if I may rant for a minute. Starting nearly a month ago my life got busy, hosting a family reunion, taking teenagers to the beach, visiting with Eva and Adam, getting LJ back to school and getting Mollie ready for high school and getting my room and myself ready for the kids. Now I loved the reunion and the visit with Eva and Adam was fantastic!! I really didn’t mind any of the rest but I am stressed, I have had bouts of sadness, I sometimes feel teary. Anyone out there have any idea what might help me feel better? Okay EVERYONE out there have an idea of what might help me? Everyone but Nick!

Nick is the sweetest man in the world. Really he is, but just as sure as I was born a spanko the man was born vanilla! At times like this when I am busy and tired he seems to ‘not want to bother me'. When I need spanking the most it seems nowhere to be seen!

Adam had given Nick and me a love lovely wooded spatula when I was up there. Mollie has taken to it, using it to flip a golf ball and catch it. She keeps trying to get her dad to do it. He often tosses the ball and catches it but last night Mollie kept saying “Use the spatula Daddy, use the spatula!” I finally looked over and said “Yes, Nick, would you just use the durn spatula!!” Is he getting the message? Who know? I am not ever sure he is reading the blog anymore. I hope this is just a natural dry spell that we all experience because I feel that Nick and I are drifting a little. There is no problem - we just need to talk more, hopefully spank more. I am feeling a little disconnected and lonely.

Here goes...

I am still around folks but before Monday I have to: work today getting my class ready, take Mollie clothes shopping, shop for LJ a new car, shop with LJ for apartment furniture, get ready to teach my Sunday School class Sunday morning, drive the boy back to college Sunday afternoon (5 hour round trip) and get some lesson plans for Monday when the kids actually come back. Of course Nick will be helping with most of this stuff but I am still tired just thinking about it. Starting school on a Monday may seem logical to some of you but it is hell on teachers! So if I am quiet next week it will be from exhaustion not lack of interest!! Don’t worry I will quickly get into the swing of thing and I am sure I will be reading each evening – that’s how I relax each day!!

Willing to try again?

School is starting soon. There I said it. Our kids go back next Monday. Sigh… I really do like teaching but I am not ready to give up the lazy days of summer. And those of you who know me know that I am not kidding about the lazy part.

So in order to cheer myself up, and maybe some of you, I have decided to try to bring back a well loved feature out here in blogland. With Tiggr’s blessing I am going to try bringing back Fantasy Friday! Tig offered this feature to me when she stopped and I originally said no, but now I think I want to. I loved this idea of Tig’s for many reasons. First it was nice to look forward to a new story every Friday morning. Let’s face it folks there is not a ton of real life spanking going on out here. I have every confidence that this will improve. But I still think we would all be cheered by a few good stories!

Second I thought it was fun trying to guess who had written the story. I was usually dead wrong but I always though it was fun! I am looking for two groups of people to help me out here. First are the wonderful people who either have blogs of their own or comment and write stores regularly. My ultimate wish would, of course, would be that Paul might write for us! When any of these folks send stories we will have a contest just as Tig did.

Third I am hoping to reach some new writers. Now this is where Fantasy Friday Revisited is going to be bit different. I want everyone to participate! Yes I am talking to you! Any silent reader who has no intentions of starting a blog. Maybe you have never even left a comment. You are just out here looking to read some spanking experiences. I want you to join in. What is YOUR fantasy? Want scenario plays around in your mind? Come on, you know you have a spanking story in you. Write it down and send it to me. I will publish it with as much or as little information about you as you are comfortable with. You can remain completely anonymous while reading all the comments other will leave you! And trust me this is an encouraging bunch out here. When I publish one from these folks it won’t be in contest form obviously but just as a guest post. Come on folks, think about it. Still worried about remaining anonymous? Go to yahoo or somewhere and get an alternate email address to use. Most of us did. Other than that I can only give you my word that no one will know who you are.

If you are willing to help start writing and send your stories to

elisspeaks@yahoo.com

Only thing I want to remind you of is that all participants in the story must be consenting adults. Well I know the spankee may not be consenting at that very moment but… you get the idea!

I am trying to put up a survey that works. I don't think this one does so as far as voting we will have to wait until Eva has time to work on it. But leave a comment letting me know what you think.


Hi Everyone. Eva here. PK asked me to break in and fix her poll. I let out a major sigh at that because I know from experience what a booger it can be to work with sparklit. At first not only could I not get it to go to her second question, I lost her side bar in the process. Just when I was about to give up and email CeeCi, I got it back. As for the poll though, I finally had to settle for two individual polls so after you answer the first one, COME BACK HERE and scroll down for the second question. Sorry it's so inconvenient but some things just don't always work well.

Hugs~
Eva

Fantasy Friday Revisited 1

Do you want to try Fantasy Friday again? Yes it was fun. Let's try again. No, we don't need to start again. Current Results

Don't forget to return to answer this question!!! Sparklit was not cooperative I had to create 2 individual polls for PK. If anyone knows a solution other than kicking sparklit in the arse, let me know.

Fantasy Friday Revisited 2

Will you write a story for us? Sure. I can't wait. I will if I can find the time. I'm not sure I can but I'll try one. I'll read but I can't write. Current Results

What a visit!

Eva and Adam you don’t need to read this, you know what all went on during the visit this is mostly to let Nick know how I spent my time away. Being the domestic goddess I am I spent most of my time cooking and cleaning, nursing Eva and doing other odd jobs they needed done around the house. I washed and waxed the cars, changed the oil, painted the outside of the house, shampooed all the carpets and cleaned the chimney. But I don’t mean to say I did more than Adam. After all he was in charge of writing down every time Eva rolled her eyes or gave us a dirty look. And let me tell you that kept him hopping!

Okay no not really! The visit was wonderful! I did what I could but Eva was pretty much able to take care of herself and Adam handled everything else. Had I eaten every time they offered me something I would have gained all the weight that Eva has lost so far. Folks from their church are bringing meals for Adam and Saturday night daughter #2 made some fantastic spaghetti. After supper we sat on the deck around the fire and I just loved it. There was Eva, Adam and I, their daughter and son-in-law, their friend (a bit crazy but very nice) and a friend of Eva’s and her daughter. What an interesting conversation! Mostly I just sat back and listened. What fun!!

There are so many highlights from the trip. I did like sitting around the fire with everyone, but I really enjoyed just sitting and visiting with Eva and Adam. I enjoyed walking the pup. I liked riding around and seeing where everything is. Seeing the town, her school and some of their friends really helps out an old detail whore like me. And I really enjoyed listening to Adam sing in church – he’s good!

These guys even gave me a gift a beautiful basket of different jams and jellies and candles and other neat stuff! Of course the wooden spatula tied up with this pretty basket was really above and beyond what was necessary but when Adam told me he had gotten a twin one for Eva I guess it was alright!

The trip was wonderful! I am so glad I came!! And I would do it again in a heartbeat!

Friday

Folks, I have to tell you this is fun! I love being here with Eva and Adam! You would barely know that Eva has had surgery. She is doing so great! It is very much like visiting a real sister; I don’t feel like a guest. I go into the cabinets or frige just like I owned the place. And I am not the one making her laugh. Adam and I are just talking to her; it’s not our fault if she thinks things are funny. She is just as guilty as we are!

Supper plans were changed. While Adam and I ate our chicken, coleslaw and bread we gave her a Flintstone’s vitamin! And after that she whined so much about the broth we forced down her throat at lunch we gave in and let her have sugar free chocolate pudding with her calcium mixed in. It seems strange to have someone look at 3 oz of pudding in a bowl as if it were a gigantic feast that could not possibly be consume in one setting!

I have been getting to meet many of the people I have been hearing about. Eva’s daughter, son-in-law and their friend were here tonight. They are wonderful they were so funny we should have sent Eva from the room! I also got to see some of the town. I have seen their neighborhood (we took the pup on a pretty good walk) and I have seen their bank, their church and their Wal-Mart! It didn’t seem like a good idea to have Eva walking all over Wally World so she got to drive one of the little scooters. Adam and I stayed behind her for fear of being run down and it made it easier to make fun of her driving from a safe distance!

One other thing I have noticed is the power of suggestion. Eva evidently told everyone that I have an accent! Because everyone I met seems to mention it. Eva has obviously swayed them because I think Theresa, Tiggr, Reesa, Suzy and Cassie have all agreed that that is simply not true.

Now let me tell you about the pup. He is a doll! He is so sweet and cuddly. He does love his mommy! I was more worried about him liking me that their daughter. If the pup had said ‘no’ I think I would be sleeping in the car! Well not really but they do like him and it is easy to see why!

It has been a good day. Eve is feeling well enough to flash me and really when you feel that good how much better could it get?

I'm Off

I should be on my way to Eva's by the time most of you read this. I talked to her tonight and now I realize that this trip is going to be a bit harder than I thought. I love Eva, I think you guys know this and the last thing I want to do is cause her pain. Trouble is, it hurts her to laugh. What?? That was all we did when she was here. How can I be with Eva without making her laugh?? Okay, okay I will work on it, but it is going to be tough!

Today

Nice quiet day here. I got to visit with Eva by Internet a little on and off and she seems to be doing fine still. We just talked on the phone a little while ago and I am very impressed! She has been up and walking several times and has gone farther and farther each time. She said getting up and down is a little on the painful side but she is holding up beautifully!

There was one very nice part of the day here that came unexpectedly. As I told Eva in lieu of flowers a crop was used in her honor today! Nick said if I was going off and leaving him to see Eva it was only fair!

Tomorrow I will be taking LJ to do a little shopping before he heads back to college this weekend. Theresa is right; it does make you feel better to spend money on them. Not that I have told LJ that. After all we will probably be getting him another car before long. Sigh… Grace, I hate to tell you money wise it’s not going to get any better after this year.

I think I'm ready, hope Eva is...

August 14 (Tuesday)
Okay a general update and I will put up a new post later. All went well during the night. Eva emailed me about 1:00 AM (no I wasn’t up). This morning she walked to the nurse’s station which was at the other end of the hall. Adam says he is so impressed with her attitude and strength, me too. He left a sweet comment this morning and was on his way back to the hospital. Talk to you guys later.

Best update yet! 7:15 PM

Adam called around 5:00 to tell me Eva was doing really well, talking with them, teasing a bit. He said they plan to have her up walking sometime between 8:00 and 9:00. He caught me while I was at the gym. When I was leaving the gym my phone rang again and it was Eva herself! She sounded great! A little groggy still but he was definitely her old self! She has her little pain button to push that she really likes.

Just a little while ago I got an email from Eva, remember wireless connection in her room! She said to thank everyone for their emails and good wishes and to keep them coming. She said she would answer everyone as soon as she didn’t have an IV needle in each hand!

Update 2:00 PM:

Just heard from Adam again, Eva is back in her room and although she is still groggy she has talked with him and the girls a little. She has had her one ounce of ice chips and can have another ounce of chips abut an hour later. He said there some pain but it seem manageable. He says he is letting her sleep now and that this evening he will call after they get her up to walk.

Update 11:00:
I just talked to Adam! The surgery is over and the doctor said she did great! She is in recovery now and will be in her room sometime after noon. Adam and the girls are just waiting to see her now and Adam mostly seems to dread seeing her in pain. Hopefully that won’t be the case and the drugs will take care of all that. He said the plan is to have her up and walking this evening!

I asked him to call again this afternoon and he laughed and said he already had his orders from Eva to call often and he wasn’t about to get in trouble with her!

More later…

Update: I got a text message at 5:15 that they were leaving the house. And then I got a call from Adam about 7:15 letting me know that they had taken her back for the surgery. He also gave me the room number and phone number and told me that she has internet in the room. He said she liked that!! So she may even be on in a day or so! More later.

I told my boss that I would miss the first few teacher work days. His response, “I hope you are planning on doing something fun and not something you have to do.” I have a pretty good boss. Is it going to be fun? I guess Eva can’t call surgery fun, but in truth, I just can’t wait to get up there to see them again! I expect to wait on her, bring her wonderful protein shakes, fluff her pillow, hand her her laptop, walk with her, hold her hand, talk to her, and watch her sleep – anything she wants. So yes I get to do something fun for me that I am doing just because I want to!

I also get to meet one of her daughters and maybe some of the friends that I have been hearing about this past year. I just hope I can understand Yankee enough to get by!

As Theresa and Suzy said – what a difference a year makes. Last year at this time I felt much like Theresa does now. My first born, my only son was leaving me to begin his college career. I was losing the person I was closest to in the house but also like Theresa I was looking forward to the new relationship I was forming with the wonderful man in my life. Now a year has gone by. LJ will actually be headed back to college while I am at Eva’s. He knows the way and thank heavens he knows the way home too. Because of email and cell phones I will get to talk to him as much as I do when he is supposedly ‘at home’.

Deep breath – surgery is in the morning and I have been assured that Adam will keep me well informed about all that is going on and I will post updates as I get news. I, of course, am mostly worried for Adam and me. After all Eva gets to sleep through the whole thing! Adam and her girls and I get to do the pacing!

Break –

I just got to talk to Eva! I am glad she called, it always calm me down. Gee I hope it does the same for her. I will give you all a report tomorrow.

Home!

I am so happy to be home! I have been with extended family since last Friday. I LOVE my extended family – but enough is enough! I want to crawl in to my own bed and have Nick curl around my back. I am tired of wearing a nightgown!! I want to sleep in the nude again. That was something I didn’t think Mollie would appreciate!

The hotel SAID it would have wireless internet in the rooms and it did – for about 10 minutes every 3 to 4 hours or so, maybe! Enough to keep me extremely frustrated!! I don’t like to be so out of contact with everyone. One of the most annoying things was when it would let me get far enough to see that I had email, even sometimes from who but then wouldn’t let me open it!

But the hardest part of the week was Thursday. First LJ is fine. But he was headed to his house in his college town with another load of stuff and wrecked his car. This was the picture he sent to my cell phone –




No one was hurt!! As a mother that is as far as my thinking goes, Nick has to also be concerned with insurance, can it be repaired, if not how can we replace it, should we replace it and all that other stuff. Having him two hours from home and about six hours from me was very traumatic for me. Thank God for cell phones and also for by sister that works at his college. She was there to be the surrogate mom. Fair trade I guess, her daughter was at the beach with me. This parenthood thing is very, very stressful. Should anyone doubt me take another look and Grace’s site!

Okay so I am home long enough to wash my clothes and pack again. I hope to be at Eva’s by the end of next week. More about that soon!

Hang in there folks!

I am at the beach and I am missing all of you, mostly Nick of course but all of you too. We have a lot going on in blogland, I mean with all of us. I know many are being attacked by real life. And it certainly cuts into our time out here to write. And it is okay because we all understand and we are all pulling for each other. I hope everyone understands this and realizes that yes we are all out here for each other even when we don’t have the time to blog, comment or email every day. I am not kidding when I said I missed everyone. I like to talk and I like to know what is going on in your lives. And remember it is not just because I am a detail whore, it’s because I love you guys! Everyone, be in touch when you can!

Trying to relax!

Quick post! The reunion was wonderful. My family is great. We had 28 folks here including LJ’s friend Collin. All the younger folks, who don’t know each other as well as we adults do, seemed to really bond. They were playing interesting games and talking and swimming all weekend. They ranged in age from 14 – 26 and it was a cool group to watch.

I cooked! And it was good! Chicken pot pie, ham, green beans, corn, fruit salad, rolls, ambrosia (now that took all of 3 minutes to make and was gone on the first wave), banana pudding and death by chocolate! And that was only what I made on Sunday my cousin cooked Saturday and it was even better. London broil, delicious mashed potatoes, asparagus (yuck), cantaloupe, bread, brownies, white chocolate cake. Can you say eat-fest! Don’t ask about the diet after all I am a work in progress!

In the morning I am headed to the lake for more time with the cousins and I must really like my cousins because there is no internet there! But that is only for one night. Then I am taking Mollie and my niece on to the beach until Friday. I should be able to be on line at the beach. So email me already!! I am going to be missing Nick and I will be spending all this time with 2 teenage girls!! Help!

I also don’t like not being on line back and forth with Eva for long periods of time. I just know I am more relaxed when we are in touch especially this week. I probably should have gone on to her house where I could hover in person. I would probably be more relaxed, of course I would probably be driving her and Adam crazy. So I will try to relax and I hope Eva will be doing the same.

Be in touch folks and I will be too!

Nice day

I have had a busy 24 hours! Last night around 9:00 I had a phone call from a blogger friend. We had never actually gotten to talk before. I will let you all figure out who the mysterious caller was. (She may tell or keep it a secret. I don’t mind if you know but I forgot to ask if she did.) It was just great! We talked about everything; we talked about all our blogger friends, we talked about boys, we talked about spanking, and we talked about family. I felt like I have received a wonderful gift.

Mollie on the other hand was not so sure. I had gone back to the bedroom to have some privacy. We talked nearly an hour and a half and Mollie had stuck her head in several times seeming to become more and more annoyed with me each time. She can usually care less if I am on the phone so I wasn’t sure what her problem was.

It didn’t take me long to find our when I got off. Her first question

“Who was that?”

I told her it was one of my computer friends. Next question,

“Was it Eva?”

I told her no and gave her a name. She sat with a total look of disapproval on her face and finally said,

“Well does Eva know? Are you going to tell her? I am not sure you should be talking to other people out there!”

Heaven help me if I ever wanted to cheat on Nick! Mollie has her own brand of loyalty! I did explain that as we get older we get to have lots and lots of friends and that there wasn’t one of my friends out here I wouldn’t love to talk to.

That wonderful evening became an even more wonderful morning. Mollie went off to driving school and LJ packed his car and headed off to sign the lease for the house he will be living in at school this year. What was this?? An empty houses? Hmmmm… would we even remember what to do. Yes! As a matter of fact we did remember, at least Nick did! He asked me to put away my laundry and when I took it to the bedroom the toy box was on the bed!

After I put the laundry away he handed me the blindfold – that always means a good time will follow. And it did! He went through nearly every toy in the box! He took breaks which were fun and allow my brain to fly to wonderful places.

One scary point came when he asked me if I should have snacked so much during my Harry Potter weekend. Well no but… he gave me a break from weighing this week but during all this wonderful spanking he lead me, still blindfolded to the bath room and had me get on the scale. I knew it wasn’t good but he didn’t tell me he just said “Hmmm… I think we will have to discuss this later.” We discussed it alright and without too many words being used!

The rest of the morning went just as nicely as you might expect! We really have to get the kids out of the house more often! Very, very nice day!

Now the one fly in the ointment was a call from LJ on his way back this evening. His car died on the interstate and he called from the side of the road. We are not sure how much this is going to cost but I still feel very lucky. One I had just signed him up for AAA last week and two, he was only about 30 miles from home on his 220 mile round trip.

All and all a very nice 24 hours!

I'm going to get to it.

I am in a hurry up and wait mode and I hate it! Lots of things are on my plate and they pick at my mind and worry me but I can’t do anything about them just yet.

Cleaning – Trust me, at my house there I no need to clean early it will only get trashed again.

Cooking – All the stuff I am cooking will have to be done that day or the day before.

Packing – I am going on vacation right after the reunion for 5 days. Between the weight loss and being too cheap to buy lots of clothes I can’t wash and pack everything now.

Being with Eva after surgery – Well that is really going to have to wait until she has the surgery. It’s always something!

Really what can I do but blog? Sadly Nick sees it differently. He doesn’t see the waste in cleaning when it might have to be done again. I mean this is the kind of man who sees value in making a bed when you are just going to get back into it that night. Geeze! Please friends email me! Then I can honestly say “I’m not blogging, I am answering emails.” He may not see the distinction but he might. It’s worth a try!

This and That

Just a bit of rambling here. Next week I will be hosting our family reunion. This will be the 23 year of the ‘cousin’s reunion’ and 22 of them have been at my house. I do love it. We can have anywhere from 25 to 40 which is really only a small portion of the family but different ones come each year. This year they will be coming from Florida, Georgia, North Carolina, and California. We lost a beloved uncle this past week, so many of the family came in for that. Our family is very close and we all agreed with one thing said at the funeral. The minister said it was so unusual that such a large family, 8 siblings, had not only stayed in touch through out their lives but had been close friends too. That was certainly the case. I only have 2 uncles left on that side now and the 26 cousins feel that it is very important to stay close.

So with the reunion on the way there is much cleaning and cooking to do and we all know that is two of my strong points! Mollie won’t even be here to help. Next week she is taking drivers training! This child is 14! Just imagine how thrilled I am. I know it has to come but why so soon??

There is one more thing I forgot to tell you about my Potter weekend. I met Cassie and Tom! Look it’s not impossible, I may have! After all Paul goes to my gym and I get to watch him when I go, I know he claims to live in The UK but he sure looks like I know Paul looks. Now Cassie and Tom were at my mountain resort. Seriously I did meet and talk with the lovely older couple. I noticed that they always held hands and he seemed to always be looking at her. I couldn’t help but think of Cassie and Tom but it was just a funny notion until I looked up from my reading and saw a little convertible pulling out. I did seriously wonder after that but I did not see them or the car again. Come on Cassie, I know you guys were on a trip too, was it really you?

Potter weekend

My Harry Potter weekend was wonderful. I could not have asked for anything more. As you can see from the picture above I knew I had gone to the right place when I passed what appeared to be Dumbledore and an owl just a few doors from where I was staying. I am adding some of the pictures that I took because the look of the place added to the magic.

When I arrived just after lunch time Sunday I checked in and spoke with the owner and found out that she and her mother were the gardeners. I was telling her why I was there and she said my room would be ready soon and I was welcomed to settle in the garden to read. The garden was not too large but just look at how pretty everything was. Comfortable chairs were scattered about and I soon settled down to some serious reading.

A hundred pages later I decided to check out my room. Remember I wasn’t going for a speed record I really wanted to make the book last as long as possible. So I took frequent breaks to walk to the little town or just nap. But I really liked my room! Remember I was in the mountains the temperature was wonderful. Low 70’s with a slight breeze. One thing I loved about this little motel was that each room had a screen door that let in this wonderful breeze. Each room also had a ceiling fan so that I only turned on the A/C once. As you can see in the picture I had a nice rocking chair with an ottoman and a perfect reading light too. The second picture here is the flower box at my window.

I read late into the night Sunday. For me, an old TV fanatic I only turned it on once. That was to watch Big Brother – sorry I am hooked (Grace understands). The next morning I woke up at my own pace and walked to a dinner for a reading breakfast. Then back to the garden for a few more hours. I got to the point where I was dying to finish – about 4 chapters to go and I made myself stop again so I could finish during the evening. I laid down for a nap and left the door opened. I watched as a quick storm passed through and I loved listening to the thunder rumble through the mountains.

As a wife and mother of two teenagers and a teacher solitude is something hard to come by. The being alone with my book and my thoughts was wonderful. I really like spending some time alone. Only one thing could have made it better. I had a date. Nick drove up to take me to supper! He liked my little hide away and after a quick paddling for running out on my family we created enough heat to finally need the A/C!

After our afternoon delight we headed out to supper and a good by kiss and he was gone and I settled down to finish my book. The book was intense, detailed and in the end satisfying. I felt it was a fitting ending to the little story I had gotten in paperback and become so involved in over 9 years ago.

The weekend was prefect. The weather was fantastic, the setting gorgeous, the solitude delicious, the date loving, and the book superb. The sign beside where I stayed also caught my interest as I was leaving so here is one last picture.

Some things are not fair!

I’m back and I am looking forward to telling you about my weekend with Harry. But don’t worry I will be telling nothing about the book so don’t be afraid to come by if you haven’t read it yet.

I just needed to post a quick rant before I do anything else! I am mad that CeeCi has to take a break for any reason other that if she just wants to. How unfair is this. Now let’s think about this. If she was going out kicking puppies and her knee started hurting – okay that’s fair! If she was sneaking into old folk’s homes and waxing the floors and getting a bad back for her troubles – I’d buy that. If she spilled the end of the last Harry Potter book to someone who was trying to finish the book and was struck by lightening – well I would understand. But what is she doing that should cause her pain?

She is just setting calmly at home or in her shop sharing her thought with her friends, working on her fantastic pictures, tweaking her template and helping anyone with a computer problem that asks. It ain’t right I tell you, it just ain’t right! Sigh… I am sure not annoyed with CeeCi, it’s not her fault her shoulder is bothering her. But I have to complain to someone. Do you think writing my congressman would help?? I guess it’s worth a try.

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Happy Birthday!

Mthc it looks like you are going to be forced to stay home and eat birthday cake, get attention from your family, presents, a spanking with at least 48 licks (plus however many David wants to give you to grow on) and after that some hot monkey sex!




Gee sorry you don’t have a good book to read. Better luck next year!

I have to do it.

I imagine many of you are going to be shocked by what I have to say but those very close to me already know. I am leaving Nick for another man. Don’t pitch a fit. Nick has known this was coming, we have discussed many times. Eva knows and even though she might not completely agree she understands that it is something I really need to do. Of all my friends out here I am afraid Paul is going to be the most disappointed in me. I’m sorry Paul!

This weekend Harry Potter and I are headed off to the mountains so we can have some time alone. I did this when the last book came out and this time it is even more important. With all the hype surrounding the book, I need to complete it with in the first few days or someone on TV or the internet is going to try to tell me something that happens or how it ends. After all this time I am going to read it on my own!

So I don’t expect to be on from sometime Saturday until I finish the book, hopefully by Tuesday afternoon. At least that’s how long I have the hotel room for! The way spoilers pop up it will just be too dangerous to get online. After I finish I will be happy to discuss the book on email but I would never post anything that might actually give anything away. To all those who have been looking forward to this for years – happy reading!

Since you asked...

Todd and Suzy asked a question that you would think had a fairly simple answer–

How much do you think the spanking element of your diet has helped? Does it actually impact food/gym decisions you make?

When I started to answer I realized that for me the answer was not so simple after all. Strangely enough it made me thing of something our preacher said Sunday. It spoke to the underlying feelings that I think many spanko have. He said the opposite of love is not hate; the opposite of love is indifference. Hate takes caring, it takes energy, and it takes emotion. Indifference is much sadder.

This ‘spanking diet’ has been the constant since I came out to Nick about spanking. Stepping on the scale each Friday I had three huge questions in my mind. 1) Have I gained or lost? 2) If I have gained is Nick going to spank? Or 3) is Nick just going to let it go. And of the three the last one was the one that I worried about the most. Indifference. It scares me, it makes my chest hurt. This is something that Carye and I often discuss. Although we often worry about how bad the spanking might be the worry about the chance he might just blow it off or forget the whole thing is much more painful.

Nick has not done that. On reason I tried so hard at the beginning of the diet was that I didn’t want him to think I was ‘testing’ him, trying to force him to spank if he didn’t want to. I was afraid he would say ‘You are not even trying, let’s just forget the whole thing.’ At first I was more worried about that than the spanking. It has taken about a year to begin to let go of this fear (okay, I’m slow). And yes even now when we go a long period and there is no spanking I still worry.

So spankers I may just be speaking for myself, but I have a feeling I am speaking for a lot more of us – when we finally get up the courage to tell you that we want you to spank we often don’t make it clear to you what we are really saying. That is to us – spanking equals caring. When you spank you show us you care. If it is all in fun and erotic it shows that you listened and cared about what we want. If you spank because of discipline you show you care about us, our safety, our well being, everything. I think that is what we really want, to know that you care.

Well Todd, Suzy I bet you won’t ask me another question! You got the long version. The short version is now that I am more secure that he is not going to ignore a gain, now that I am more secure in the knowledge that he really cares, now that I got that damn hairbrush – the answer is yes, knowing he is going to spank my butt with that brush is one reason I go to the gym when I don’t really want to go and I will eat a Hershey’s kiss instead of a huge candy bar. The other way spanking effects the diet is that Nick’s willingness to spank shows me he cares for me; I work hard to loss every week to show that I care for him.

Happy New Year

The power of a year! My past year has been unbelievable.
Give or take a month the following things happened one year ago.

I began reading blogs.

I came out to Nick.

Nick started spanking.

Before last July we averaged having sex twice a month.

Last July we made love 21 times. (Yes I kept track!)

I began sleeping in the nude, kept that up year round.

July 16, 2006 I left my first comment on a new blog that I really liked. Some of you may read that site Nothing Random About a Spanking.

Later that day Eva emailed me. I don’t think we have missed talking in one way or another more than 4 or 5 days since then.

I began my own blog.

I ‘met’ and became friends with many, many wonderful people through my blog.

My friend here in town has gastric bypass surgery. Today she is 122 pounds lighter.

I have lost approximately 25 pounds.

I have a totally different hair style.

My beloved son left home to attend college. He was accepted into the Bachelor of Fine Arts program (one of 12). He made the Dean’s list for his freshman year. He is still my son and still loves me. I survived.

Who would have thought a middle age women would end up finding a best friend and twin on the Internet?

Who would have thought that at the age of 49/50 you would suddenly fall madly in love with your husband of 23 years? That I could go from someone who avoid touching to someone who craves her husbands touch anytime, anywhere. Who would have thought my sexual expectations would go from ‘Man on top, woman on bottom, get it over with quick’ to anything goes, oral, anal, toys, vibrators, plugs and as many position as our minds can think of and our bodies can still handle!

Who'd thunk it??

LISTEN!

I have been working on another post all morning its important and I need to complete it but this just couldn’t wait.

This post, as well as Eva’s, is a direct answer to C. Well actually not as much C as her husband and to all you husbands and significant others who just WON’T LISTEN!!

Guys – snap out of it! What do you want? Do you want a happy, close relationship with your wife? Do you want a woman with an entirely new attitude on sex? Do you want a woman who feels such love for you for allowing her to open up to you about something that means so much to her? You can have it!! It’s right there; she is begging you to understand!! Can’t you hear her screaming? Of course not, she is doing her begging and screaming in her head. She had tried to tell you and you blow her off, laugh a little, shake your head at her ridiculous request. After that happens we learn to shut up. But the longing doesn’t go away. It just keeps getting deeper and deeper along with all the rest of her feelings and emotions.

And then you have the gall to wonder why she lacks interest in sex? Well let’s see how you would feel if your wife says “Sure I will have sex with you but let’s don’t involve your penis. I won’t touch it and don’t let it touch me, but sure let’s have sex.” I know this is ridiculous but for some of us women the desire to be spanked is a central and overwhelming part of our sexuality. And you are asking her to engage in sex but denying her the one thing that she knows will turn her on.

I was so lucky and trust me I do know it! I didn’t have the courage to come out to my husband for 23 years. I robbed us both of those years when we could have been so close. But once I got up my courage he did listen! No he did not fully understand, probably still doesn’t but his willingness to hear what I was saying and try my ideas allowed me to change from a sexual frigid repressed woman to a warm sexual being happy and anxious to experiment sexually anyway either of us can think of.

I know that husbands that don’t want to hear this are also not reading here. I know I am preaching to the choir but please, please girls give it one more chance! They have to be willing to try! If they give it a fair chance and they just don’t like it well, I guess we can’t ask more. But fellows if the love of your life hands you this to read and you won’t even talk about it, if you are not even willing to try, well then maybe you don’t deserve this wonderfully brave women!

Summer Camp

Last week was interesting. We had a week mostly on our own. Mollie was at camp all week and LJ only shows up occasionally. The down side, Nick was sick. Not terribly sick but a sore throat and ear problems. I began to realize this might not ruin the week when he got back from Monday. He told me the doctor said that the best think for his throat and ears would probably be a full body massage. I want my husband well so we decided to try it right away. I slowly massaged hands, neck, feet and everything in between! He said that the doctor was right he did feel much better I know it really made me feel a lot better! Nick also said that his doctor gave him at least 3 refills!

Now the next day I went to pick up my new glasses. Upon arriving home I told Nick that the eye doctor told me that he thought my vision could be improved by a vigorous application of alternating sharp pressure to my gluteus muscle. I am not sure he completely believed me but he was willing to give it a shot as he said to improve “my focus”. I’ll be damned it worked; I was much more focused after he gave it a try! He used several nice implements including the ‘wrong’ end of the tawse! Now that leaves an impression! But he also used his belt and I quickly remembered why that is one of my favorites!

I told my twin about the advice the doctors had given us. Eva said we were a couple of medical liars! I don’t know where in the world she would have come up with that!

LJ was around for some of the week but we managed quite nicely. We even decided to go toy shopping. This was the store in the next little toy over, actually one we had not gone to before. It was very nice, much bigger than the other one there. There were a few other couples there they were around our age and looked like they had no more business in this store than we did! But I wasn’t bothered at all this time. We looked for a long time and saw lots of nice things. I am not sure about our final purchases. They are pretty much selfish for me. I don’t know…

We went Saturday and picked up our baby. But that did not put an end to the fun and games of the week it just quieted them down a bit. Saturday was Nick’s birthday. And I know I enjoyed his gift, I sure hope he did!

Update

I have done pretty well on my weight loss this year. I have lost about half of what I would like to. One more year might just do it. I have done it the way that I wanted to do it. I wanted to lose weight slow and steady, the way it went on. I hope that way I have a better chance of keeping it off. I am not great at eating right. I like meat and starches and sweets. Not the best diet for losing. I have changed my eating habits some. I watch my portion size a lot more than I used to. I don’t snack as much and I try to get more fiber.

Nick has been the constant through all this. Wanting to lose weight was the way I approached him on spanking in the first place. I knew how much he wanted me to be healthy (not skinny) and his agreeing to help in this way and then, wow, sticking to it! That is what has truly kept this going for over a year. Never have I stayed on a weight loss program this long. Of course I wanted to lose for many long term reasons. Avoiding health problems, increasing mobility, looking better but none of these things is as strong an immediate motivator as knowing when you step off the scales to an annoyed, disappointed husband with a hairbrush is waiting for you!

But like I said I have been doing really well and I think I have only been spanked for gaining 4 or 5 times during the year. I’ve been sweating it many more times and yes, knowing a serious spanking could be in my future does make a difference when I am standing in front of the candy machine!

The diet group that Todd and Suzy began is also a big help. I like knowing others have the same struggles – and the same penalties to deal with.I like having place where I can report my progress or problems each week.

It’s not like you can go to work and say “If I eat that Nick will blister my butt!” But it is nice to able to share with others that understand.

And lastly in this challenge is my friend the gym! I like going to the gym. I don’t love it – but I like it okay. The exercise I get there of course is great and is really helping the weight loss but there is something about the people there that really helps. One side of the gym is the rehabilitation center. I watch some of the folks there. I am sure some have been in accidents; some have had strokes or are recovering from broken hips.

I am fully aware that losing weight and exercising won’t prevent these problems but as I look at many of them and I can’t help but think how much easier their recovery would be if they were in the best shape they could have been before there were problems. I just want to go into the rest of my life at a reasonable weigh and with stronger muscles and bones. I will never be thin again; I think bikinis are a thing of the past. I don’t want to be a fashion model. But I am very happy with my life now. The children are growing up and healthy and Nick and I have the rest of our lives together. I want to make the most of it!

Now Hear This ...

I want to tell you about a foolish mistake I made that could have cost one of my beloved pets his life. Consider this my Public Service Announcement! Monday morning Nick found that one of the cats had caught and killed a bat and of course brought it in. Now had it been a mouse or a mole, big deal. But this was a bat. It is unusual for a healthy bat to be some where that a cat can catch it. Of course rabies was the first thing on our minds!

My first call was to the vet to check to be sure all vaccinations were up to date. My heart sank when I heard that one of the cats, the one who hunts the most, was past due on the rabies vaccine. My fault I am supposed to keep up with such thing but not really being worried about rabies I had put it on the back burner.

Next I called animal control. They said our other pets should have boosters but that the unvaccinated one had to be turned over to animal control until the bat could be checked for rabies. If the bat came back positive for rabies our sweet, loving, little pet would have to be put down. I felt sick to my stomach at the thought.

The animal control folks were very nice. They told me I could come visit him any time I like and I did. They stayed with me as I held and tried to comfort my confused kitty. I thought they were just being kind and trying to comfort me but I also realized they were probably making sure I didn’t grab him and run!

Gratefully the good word came on Wednesday! The bat tested negative for rabies!!!! LJ and I went to pick up our baby. He was sooooo happy to be home. He sniffed everything and every one. He ate, just in two days Nick and I both could tell he had lost weight.

Guys we really dodged a bullet. If you have pets check now to make SURE all vaccines are up to date. You never know when your pet could come in contact with wildlife. I would have been devastated if we had been forced to put down this loving pet. Believe me from now on I will always keep all my pet vaccinations up to date!!