There is something wrong with me. I keep waiting to get over it, but it’s been going on a long time. Some things are still normal. I still think about spanking a lot. I still want Nick to spank me, often. Spanking has always been a turn on for me. In the past spanking was the easiest way for me to get in the mood. But now… now… spanking hurts!! Yes, yes, I know what you’re going to say.
I feel like such a wimp! I think Nick finds it amusing. We decided to take full use of our empty next last Friday night. Mollie will be home for about a month soon, so it was time to take advantage. He first invited me for a shower – now that was fun. Then on to the bedroom, a little spanking and geeze it hurt! I was encouraging him to use his hand rather than an implement. He did, but will his wicked sense of humor he was still spanking hard and teasing me about my squirming and owww…ing. “I thought you used to say I hit like a girl?” he reminded me. Damn, he has a long memory that was six years ago.
Nick had been thinking ahead and he had gotten me a surprise – ginger! Figging is something we’ve tried a time or two and I like it. Wimping might me taking over the spanking these days, but Badass is around for some wild hot sex. It’s really not a bad arrangement. But I still wish I knew what was going on with the spanking. Why do I sometimes want it so hard that I think I worry Nick and then a month or so later even a minor spanking hurts like hell? Someone explain all this to me, I’m confused.