I have been a wife and mother for over twenty years. Now I am becoming my husband's lover, too.
We owe it all to my fellow bloggers who gave me the courage to come out to my husband as a spanko.
I do feel like this is a New Beginning for us.

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Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Going a little nuts here folks

You get used to having an empty nest and when it's not empty anymore things get off kilter. Mollie’s home – I love that! But where I don’t really worry much about her when she’s at school I do when she is staying here.  She was driving 2 hours Sunday night while it was dark, foggy and rainy.  She did just fine, but that doesn’t mean I could sleep until she got home.
School is understandable strange this week.  Safety is on everyone’s mind but my school was built in the 1950’s.  No one thought of the type of safety we have to think about today. It’s a sprawling campus for 900 people.  We’re very aware and looking for ways to make changes.
We’re going to have a small party here at the house Friday night.  I have to work through half day Friday.  Mollie is using Pinterst to help decorate and maybe even make some of the food.  She is fantastic with ideas, not quite as good with follow through.  So I’m stressing a bit over that.
Do I need a spanking to relieve some of this stress and worry?
I have no desire for a spanking at all.  Gone, completely gone, no desire what so ever.  Spanko? What’s that?  Why would anyone want to be spanked?  It hurts!
Am I being serious? Yes, completely.  That’s exactly how I feel.  But don’t worry. I am still most definitely a spanko – I could no more change that than I could change my species!  But the desire has fled completely at the moment. I’m blaming a large part of it on being in ‘mommie mode’ with Mollie here.
Why am I telling you all this?  I just want newbies, well everyone, to know that sometimes that desire just goes away.  Maybe Badass, Wimpy and PK all decided to go away for Christmas, they will be back, they always come back.
Now Nick did insist on a birthday spanking – but he gave a really strange reason.  I’ll be back soon to tell you how he explained it to me! LOL, he’s a good fellow.



  1. Hi PK,

    Sounds like a busy time and you probably are in Mommy mode at the moment. I'm sure the spanko will return soon :)


  2. PK, just enjoy the holidays and Mollie's company. Have a great time!
    And it'll be early enough next year to get spanked.

    Hugs, Julia

  3. Yea it hurts, but the desire for it is always present! Being mom is always there, but sometimes being 'us' takes a hiatus.
    Our school is all about safety now! It really makes you think. We were conscious before, now more so,
    Don't worry Mollie will pull it all together for you and in time!

  4. PK,
    don't worry, you can no more stop being a spanko then I can stop being a top, even though I haven't pinked a bottom in a very long time.
    Love and warm hugs,

  5. PK,
    I've had some experience with kids returning to the empty nest and it is disastrous. Son is coming home from Norway, coming Friday and he will stay till New-years day. Adieu Blogland! Adieu Spanking! Probably also Adieu TTWD.

    You think you are going nuts. What do you think about poor Nick?
    Daily question: does she want to be spanked?
    Answer: Yes / No /Yes but still No / No but still Yes / Maybe / Tomorrow / Yesterday / Next Year
    (Please circle what is applicable today).
    Oh well, I, m sure you'll have an invasion from Badass and friends before the year ends. That'll clear things up.

  6. Everything will be fine for Friday, stop stressing, enjoy Mollie being home. Spankings can wait.


  7. I go throught that also. Just think how many years we did w/o and it always came back as strong as ever.

    The party is to enjoy the people you've invited. Can I come? The food and decorations will be fine, it's you they're coming for. Just sit back and enjoy.

    Don't be adding any more stress. By Friday you'll be a bowl of jelly anyway because you'll be on Christmas break. How great is that.

  8. Roz,
    Really in mommy mode now - Mollie has the stomach bug!

    Next year it it!

    My desire left with Badass, but that girl always finds her way home eventually.

    You are certainly right about that!

    Yeah, those kids do change things. Honestly Nick doesn't seem as confused as I am. He is still stepping right up whether I want it or not!

    Now if I can just get Mollie well and keep Nick and I from getting it.

    You are more than welcomed! If you're going to be on this side of the country let me know and I'll send the address!