As I move toward feeling better I am looking closely at my life. I’m trying to be very aware of what is good and anything not so good I am trying to see if I can change it or else change my attitude toward it (the not so good things would be things related to my job, not Nick and me.)
There has never been a time in my life when things were horrible but when I found blogs and came out to Nick and found so many spanko friends things seemed to go from fine to fantastic. The friends I met here certainly played a huge part in that. It’s surprising, and maybe even silly, but our exploits took on an added bit of excitement by having friends out here to share them with.
But on blogs just like in real life friends move in and out of your life. I feel I have been luckier than most in that some of my friends who no longer want to blog are still very much in my life but it’s not always the same. There are many people that have begun blogging in the past few years that I really would like to get to know better. But lately I hesitate to reach out and the reasons are complicated.
I’m really trying to understand what it is I’m looking for these days and where I need to do my looking. I’ve been thinking a lot (Nick often says I think too much, LOL!). But it’s all good, I’m just feeling curious. And I’m sure I’ll be posting whatever I figure out. Shoot you know me, I post about everything.