Here are some of the thing that came to mind as I thought about things I'm grateful for today...
Paul – My kind friend who has supported me since I began my journey here.
Playtime – This is the best. To have the time, the privacy, the desire, the energy and all the toys to go with it makes playtime for TTWD the very best.
Pancakes – I haven’t had them in a while and I’ve been thinking about them later. Blueberry would be the best.
Pals – I love my internet pals! I have loved talking to folks our here for 3 years now. I have friends in my real life of course and I see them often, but I am most comfortable with my pals here.
Picnic – we have wonderful picnics in our mountains each summer. Sometimes we go up for breakfast, there is nothing like eggs, bacon, sausage, biscuits and gravy, hash browns, donuts and muffins eaten in the crisp cool of a mountain morning. And if we stay long enough we make hot dogs for lunch!
Pool – I love our pool. I am not in it all that much but I love looking at it and sitting around it with friends at a gathering. I am hoping to have some very special friends sitting around it this summer. Of course when Nick and I do get in it late at night we don’t have to worry about what we will wear.
Popcorn – another snack that I really like. I just wish I liked it without the butter and extra salt.
Phone – My phone is my constant companion. For something none of us had or ever thought we wanted as little as 10 years ago it has become indispensable to me. I can go anywhere, do anything and still know that Nick and the kids (where ever they may be on the planet) can get in touch with me if they need me. As a mother especially that is a great comfort.
On to the diet. As Nick predicted this wasn’t a good week. I have gained 3 pounds in two weeks. Not the best news. I know what’s going on but stopping the slide it hard.
I didn’t share my weight with Nick before he left Friday. And I thought we would just let it slide one more week but this morning I jumped on the scale for a quick check. As Nick came in the bathroom I quickly hit the clear button, not that it did me any good. Nick asked me what I weighed. When I told him he just nodded and bent me over the counter. He talked as he spanked. He said we had both had a little vacation but vacation was over now and it was time go get back to work.
It was just a start but I truly felt better all day – and it was a rough day. But I felt centered and connected to Nick. Part of it was the spanking and part of it was taking the time to write Nick what I have been feeling lately. Getting it all out helped. It wasn’t anything major, it was mostly rambling, but I just hadn’t felt really close lately and writing helped.
I was careful with what I ate today and I made it to the gym. I’m hoping I can get back in the groove quickly. I have a feeling Nick that is going to insist on it!