I have been a wife and mother for over twenty years. Now I am becoming my husband's lover, too.
We owe it all to my fellow bloggers who gave me the courage to come out to my husband as a spanko.
I do feel like this is a New Beginning for us.

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Saturday, December 15, 2007

My Fiftieth Year

I am turning 51 today!! Good for me! But before you read my thought on my 50th year go check out this weeks Fantasy Friday, vote and leave a comment letting the author know what you thing of the story.

I don’t know what I though it would be like to turn 50. I am sure I gave it some thought during my 40’s but I can say that the reality far exceeded anything I would have expected.

I know that Nick and I have had more sex this year than any year of my life – including the honeymoon years. And it has been FUN!! I have been spanked often (well not often enough, but you know). I have been spanked lovingly, romantically, erotically and on rare occasions (diet lapses) quite sternly and seriously. Yes, it’s been a wonderful year!

But there have been real changes in me. I don’t worry about what other people think. If I don’t want to do something I say no. I have been more opened with Nick about my feelings and I think I am finally realizing what is important in life.

I have always known that the kids were important but as they were growing up I think I forgot how important Nick was. Now I really do know and I hope he knows how important he is to me. The place where Nick used to work shut down and he has been out of work for a while. He has been looking hard and one job finally opened that it looked like he was going to be able to get. He really wants a job. There was a snag. The hours were from 3:00 in the afternoon until 9:00 at night and most of the day Saturday. What horrible hours!! I knew I would never, ever get to see him and for me our having time to be together is the most important thing I can think of. I told him I really did not want him to take it and he didn’t. I really hope he is as happy with that decision as I am.

Whether she knows it or not Eva triggered another big change. You know how much we talk – more than a dozen times a day. We farble along, silly – serious it doesn’t matter, and somewhere as we were talking she said I should plan on coming and staying with her when she had surgery. I didn’t pay much attention; I mean who wants guest right after surgery? But then it began to sound like they really wanted me to come.


It was beginning to play around in my mind and then Eva got the surgery date and I realized that if I went I would miss the first two day of work. In the past that would have decided for me – you can’t miss work! But gradually (I’m slow) it dawned on me that going and being with Eva at that time was way more important than a work day or two. No contest. Nick understood and I went with his blessing. I don’t know how much help I really was – Adam could probably have gotten the laundry in without me but I loved being there. I swear I would not have been smart enough to go a few years ago.

My 50th year was full of wonderful people – Nick, my kids, my twin, my friends in RL and in blog land and wonderful activities – travel, sex, and spanking. All and all an incredible year and I can’t wait to see what this next year will bring.


  1. Your fiftieth year. You really are not getting older, just getting better. It has been a blast my friend. May your 51st year be filled with great good girls from Nick and life even greater. A great big Birthday Hug from me to you.

    Love, hugs and grins

  2. Anonymous3:24 AM

    Dear PK. Happy birthday, how wonderful. What an incredible 50th year you have had and, yes, I agree it can only get better.

    Thank you for showing us all the highlights of the last year and I know heading into my 40's how much more confident I am, so I understand what you mean by that.

    All the best wishes to you and Nick and your family and have a wonderful birthday.

    Still thinking of you and I will get an FF to you someday, promise.


  3. Anonymous7:09 AM


    Happy Birthday! I have been reading your blog for a while and want to say thank you, I have really enjoyed it. Your 50th year sounds like a dream! I wish you many more years of discovery and happiness with the ones you love.


  4. Dearest PK, yes your last year was a wonderful year.
    Shall I let you into a secret, the year coming will be even better.
    Why, because this is the way you want it.
    We make our own happiness and you are doing a damn good job.
    Dear friend, have a wonderful day with family and friends.
    Love and warm birthday hugs,

  5. Happy 51st...don't do anything we wouldn't do so that pretty much leaves the door wide open.
    We've enjoyed your journey so far.Enjoy your day!!

  6. Anonymous10:28 AM

    PK, How wonderful...both your past year and the telling of it! Happy 51st Birthday! Sara

  7. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIG SIS!!!! YOU ARE ALWAYS A HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAY!!! I HOPE YOUR BIRTHDAY IS PERFECT IN EVERY WAY!!! And you get LOTS OF Wonderful Birthday spankings on such a very very special day!



  8. PK,

    Who indeed thought fifty could be so fine? I guess we'll just have to tell the next generation so they can look forward to it instead of being freaked out. But let's not tell them everything...

    I hope your birthday is wonderful and memorable!


  9. Happy Fiftieh Year. Now enjoy the Fifty First. You make it sound so good, I can't wait.

    OK I'll wait!

    Love you

  10. Many happy returns, PK. And this is just the beginning. It gets better and better!


  11. Anonymous3:59 PM

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY, PK!! An amzing year indeed - thank you so much for sharing it with us! You are right! It keeps getting better and better! Lots of birthday cheer, festive thoughts and warm wishes to you! And of course, may you have a wonderful b-day spanking to match the wonder of you!! Hugs! Lilly

  12. Happy Birthday, PK!!! A very good year indeed, and many more to come! I hope you got an extraordinary birthday spanking!
    Big birthday hugs,

  13. Anonymous7:13 PM

    Happy Birthday, my Friend!

    May the next 51 bring as much contentment, excitement and joy.

    Thank you for sharing your adventures and well-won wisdom with us.


  14. Anonymous1:18 AM

    Happy Birthday! We've really enjoyed getting to know you over this last year. We hope you enjoyed your special day.

    Todd and Suzy

  15. Anonymous3:17 AM

    Happy Birthday,
    I wish you a year of happiness, health and of course spankings!!

  16. Anonymous10:08 AM

    Happy belated birthday, PK. Here's hoping that all of your birthday wishes have been fulfilled!


  17. Happiest Birthday to You!

    My wish for you is that you find more joy and happiness this coming year!

  18. Very Happy Birthday To You :)

  19. David,
    You are a great friend! Thank you for my birthday hug.

    So good to hear from you!! I have missed you. Yes don’t worry one bit about getting older because IT’S FUN! I am looking forward to getting your story! Email me some time!

    I am so glad you read here! Come by anytime I would love hearing from you.

    We are right! I like being happy and I intend to stay that way as long as I can. With friends like you and the rest out here I have a big head start!!

    I did not do anything you wouldn’t do - we probably didn’t even come close to the edge!! LOL!

    Thank you, it’s been great!

    Thanks, Carye, it was a great birthday!

    It is great but let’s not tell the kids. If we tell them how good it is everyone will want to be 50!

    You’re going to love it!

    Thanks it does seem to get better all the time.

    Thank you for your birthday wishes! You are a good friend!

    I did have a great spanking! I will be telling about it next week.

    I am planning on the next 51 being great and I can’t wait.

    Todd and Suzy,
    I have enjoyed getting to know you guys too. And the diet group has really helped.

    Thanks! Happy to know you are still out here! I plan on a spanking good year!

    Thanks! Nick fulfills most all my wishes.

    I have the very best friends in the world! So I expect a wonderful year.

    Thanks Emily!

  20. Anonymous2:35 PM

    I agree it has been a great year for the two of us, and should I be the one to point out that PK is actually starting her 52nd year.


  21. Dear PK,
    Happy Belated Birthday. I can only hope my 50th year is as good as yours.
    P.S. Love your blog :)