I have been a wife and mother for over twenty years. Now I am becoming my husband's lover, too.
We owe it all to my fellow bloggers who gave me the courage to come out to my husband as a spanko.
I do feel like this is a New Beginning for us.

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Thursday, November 10, 2011

If you don't talk to me I could get a complex

Happy Love our Lurkers day to all! I'm happy to say I've been here for all six. What can I quickly say that everyone else hasn’t already said? I see you out there looking a little panicked and overwhelmed. I mean there you are quietly tucked away in your home reading a few blog anonymously and suddenly,


Everyone is trying to drag you out of your comfort zone and trying to get you to start commenting. Come on now, don’t hide, yes, we’re talking to you!

I didn’t comment at first because I was really uncertain about this form of communication and I was worried about someone finding out who I was and ‘outting me’. If that is a fear, please – don’t worry. More than anywhere else in my life I know that here we are all in this together. You have an interest in spanking or you wouldn’t be here. If you’re like most of us it is a really big secret in your life. Here you can talk about that desire, ask question, compare experiences and you can be sure you’re talking to friends.

No one’s going back to read the beginning of a 5 year old blog so here’s a brief introduction. I’m in my mid-50’s. I’ve been married for 28 years to my wonderful Nick. I have two kids – LJ is 23 and lives in New York City (how that little southern country boy got there I’ll never know). LJ is gay and lives with his boyfriend, they have been together for more than 6 years and they are two of the finest men I know. Mollie is my daughter, 19, and a freshman in college studying to be a teacher (that’s as crazy as wanting to live in NY.) I say that because I am a teacher and I know. I also teach my Sunday school class once a month, we eat lunch at Nick’s parents with his brothers and sisters and family every Sunday. I’m a lousy housekeeper, worse cook and spend way too much time blogging. In other words - I’m NORMAL! Oh and there’s one more thing – I love to be spanked, both for fun and for discipline (although Nick rarely disciplines, guess I’m too prefect!)

Spanking fiction is another true love of mine. I love hosting Fantasy Friday. Each week I ask my readers to think about writing a piece of spanking fiction and sharing it with us. I won’t even ask that today – I’d be happy with just one little comment. I do like to talk to new people. Feel free to ask any questions you may have, and if you feel more comfortable emailing I would love to hear from you at elisspeaks@yahoo.com And of course there is the real writer in the family – my alter ego, Cassie. If you haven’t ever been to Cassie’s Space please go read a story or two and let her know what you think.

One last thing then I’ll promise to hush. If you leave me a comment I WILL answer it. What you have to say is important to me. I’m here for the back and forth and getting to know people. If you are taking the time to read what I’ve written and then taken the time to comment to me, I’ll answer you in the comments. That’s a promise. Dear Lurkers, and all my readers, I hope that this is a special day for you. We’re thinking of you.


  1. I'll bite. I've read many of your posts without saying a single word.

    I always enjoy them!

  2. I'm game. I am now a commenter and I have a lot to say. I guess it's my coming out day. I just posted my first post on my new blog and I am crazy scared.

  3. I have been a visitor for a while. I read here, FF, andover at Cassies Space. Hugs

  4. How can I not leave a comment after your words of understanding and kindness. I am a happy follower of your adventures, and wish I had more to offer but my fantasies and little family life.

  5. Jamie4:24 AM

    Hi PK, Happy LOL day, so happy that I found your wonderful site, thanks for sharing your thoughts and kind words with all of us.

  6. A lovely introduction to new readers PK.

    As you know I'm not a lurker, I couldn't keep quiet if I wanted to:)


  7. PK, I fear that your little world would collapse in I didn't comment. lol.
    Love you girl.

  8. PK...Without you I might not be a part of this community. Pk was very encouraging...and helpful when I was thinking of taking the plunge into blogging. Thank you again! abby

  9. Anonymous9:31 AM

    Hey PK,
    I'm always here reading although only comment once in a while. I really should step out of the shadows and say hello more. I've been reading your blog for a long time now. :)
    Happy LOL day!

  10. We can't have you developing a complex! I lurked here before I de-lurked as well! I love your Fantasy Friday and the colours on your blog - you're so unique!! Happy LOL Day!

  11. No complex needed.I have been a visitor and a commenter but I lurked for months before then. Love your blog.

  12. PK: This day is special to me because if I hadn't followed Bonnie's advice and started community, we wouldn't have met. You are a dear friend. Thanks for everything.


  13. You were the first person I communicated with, PK! And a wonderful friendship was born... :)

  14. PK, I'm the nobody that went back and read 5 yrs of posts and I'm so glad I did. Did I forget to tell you I'm a little off? LOL. Be well friend.

  15. That was a nice post PK. Happy LOL day!

  16. Just stoppin' by ! Surprised!

  17. Im deffinately no lurker here - in fact i think you were one of teh first blogs i read - love it, and comment all the time - probably way too much LOL
    happy LOL day my friend
    love and hugs kiwi xxx

  18. Hello. :) I've lurked here a while but wouldn't want you to get a complex. So this is me, delurking.

  19. Alice5:37 PM

    Have been reading here for a long time, I particularly enjoy looking out for the fantasy fridays, happy LOL day

  20. Anonymous6:36 PM

    I love "Cassie" . I did not know you and she were the same. Thanks for the great stories.

  21. Happy LOL Day! We are long-long time readers, but don't comment nearly enough. Always enjoy your blog... especially FF and you spanking diet posts.

    ~Todd and Suzy

  22. Conina,
    Yeah for you! You’re my first former lurker of the day. I hope you’ll be back often.

    Composing Us,
    I went by your place this morning. I’m glad you have things to say and now you have a place to say them – but please come by and comment here too. I love company!

    Thanks for coming by. I’m glad you read here and like FF and I love that you read over at Cassie’s!

    Mistress 160,
    Thanks for coming by.

    I love people dropping by! I don’t think of my life as very adventurous but I love sharing it here anyway. Please come back and comment again.

    You are always welcomed. As a mother and a teacher it’s great to know someone wants to hear my thought! LOL, not always the case at work and home.

    No we can’t call each other lurkers, if we were in the same country we would be sitting in one another’s living room. Maybe someday.

    I fear it would too. Although I am still friends with some of my original blogging buddies, you are the only one who still comments. Your loyalty means a lot to me.

    I’m so glad I was able to encourage you to join us. It’s a wonderful neighborhood.

    We’ve both been around here a long time. I guess if we commented everywhere we really wanted to we wouldn’t have time to do anything else.

    Thank you! I have neither the time nor the money to treat a complex! Don’t know if you know about my background. It’s some of my original art work. I doodle to a great extent drawing designs and coloring them. I often make them into bookmarks to give to my students. I sent some to my good friend CeeCi years ago and she used them when she designed my site. She also did design on Cassie’s Space – which I still think it so beautiful.

    Love seeing you here and I hope you’ll be here often.

    We would both have lost out if you hadn’t started commenting. Not to mention all your readers. Blogging brings people together!

    I’m so glad you contacted me and we were able to begin our friendship. Commenting is great but I enjoy our emails even more.

    Wow! That definitely makes you a ‘somebody’ to me. Thank you, I’m honored. I’m so happy you started your own site. This is a good place to be.

    Thanks. Please come by anytime.

    Hey sister!!
    This is a surprise. We may email daily but I don’t see you here often. Nice to have you drop by.

    You could never comment too much! I love it every time you stop by. I’m glad it’s often.

    Thanks for worrying about my mental healthy! I appreciate it. Hope you’ll come by often.

    Fantasy Friday is one of my favorite features! I’m glad you enjoy then – ever thought of writing one??

    Thank you! I love Cassie myself. She seems as real to me as anyone else out here. The fact that she lives in my head doesn’t change that.

    Todd and Susie,
    Thanks for coming by. I'm at your place often too. I enjoy reading about the parties you have been to.

  23. Anonymous11:14 PM

    Lots of Love Kay

  24. Thanks Kay, you are in my thoughts.

  25. You have a great blog, happy LOL day!

  26. I often read, seldom comment (due to laziness, and I'm usually reading on my iPad). Bit late, but happy LOL day!

    I so identify with your story of growing up in the 70s, learning to be self reliant, and the joy of admitting/ opening up to my submissive side.

    From a fellow 50+ spanko with a laid back sweetie.


  27. Lea,
    Thanks! I've enjoyed being here for many years.

    It sounds like we have a lot in common. I'm glad you read here. Pop in and say hey when you can.