I have been a wife and mother for over twenty years. Now I am becoming my husband's lover, too.
We owe it all to my fellow bloggers who gave me the courage to come out to my husband as a spanko.
I do feel like this is a New Beginning for us.

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Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Another empty nest week

Mollie spent the last week in New York. It was a last minute trip with a friend and her mom and she had a wonderful time! We were left home alone again – so you might say a good time was had by all! We had such a good time I didn’t have time to write about it until now.

Nick spent much time during this past week making sure that I had as much fun in bed as a person can have. One day it began with a luxurious shave – that was fun and sexy! To be honest the week was such a blur I don’t remember all the details. I remember there were cuff involved, paddles of all varieties, plugs and all that was just the first part of the week. I do remember when I was returning the favor for all the fun I was having I had Nick in the cuffs once. He was at my mercy but he didn’t seem to be trying too hard to get away!

Now the last part of the week is clearer. We had been busy and had skipped a day or two when Nick, out of the blue, came to me one afternoon with my ben-wah balls. I had no idea he knew I had any, I had almost forgotten. He told me I needed to get in the right frame of mind he told me to wear them and a plug until he called me to the bedroom. Well this was new. Nothing turns me on quicker than being ordered around like this!

Soon he called me and told me to take a quick shower. I removed all devices and came to the bedroom after my shower where I got my first spanking of the afternoon for removing everything without permission! Does it get any better that that??

Nick pampered me no end. He had taken CeeCi suggestion from LA Kink about withholding – he wasn’t 100 % convinced but he is most willing to try suggestions – especially from CeeCi. Obviously the lady knows what she is talking about! But being uncertain of how he would like the whole idea I readily promised to play again the next day. Meanwhile he gave me the assignment of writing up the afternoon, what I had liked, what could improve it – just an overview, my take of the whole afternoon.

Who could help but love a man who not only spends the afternoon giving you every pleasure know to women but then gives you an opportunity to tell him exactly how it was for you and lets you ask for more!! With as much as he is giving me I wanted to be very honest with him and you in the hopes that other might relate to this and have suggestions. Here is part of what I wrote –

Making love is so good now! Good as it is the big O is still sometimes difficult for me to achieve I want to tell you why I think this is. For the past 30 years (not counting the last 2) felt embarrassed, for lack of a better way to say it, to let go for an orgasm in front of another person. It was something I only did alone. (It you are ever looking for a reason to spank me from now to next week, this should do it!). I don’t feel that way any more. I want to completely let go, yell, scream, squirt – my mind is opened to the idea and I want it. But this is a case of the mind being willing but the body is not on board yet. I am afraid my body is not trained to let go. Sometimes I still like to relax alone with the vibrator but that is not exactly practicing what I want us to experience.

I have withheld my thought and feelings from him so long I am trying to be as opened and honest as I can these days so I went on to add –

And I also know that while we are doing everything right physically, for me mental is a big key. The basic fantasy I have always had is of being truly dominated. If everything is out of my control, if I have no say in what is happening to me then that is the time I can most completely let go. I like being threatened, sexually tormented, teased, the hot creams, the spanking, the bondage (we need another pair of cuffs) it all works together to throw me into state of mind where I can let go! I can try to squirm away, resist and just sink into the whole experience.

Let me tell you by the next afternoon he had read this and was acting on it.


What an afternoon! He is working to retrain my body to be fully involved and damn he is doing a fantastic job! So that is how we spent our long, lazy, lonely afternoons while we had an empty nest.

And GRACE wants school to start back!!!!!!!!


  1. Damn right I want school to start again! It's the only free time I can get with my husband!

    But I do feel for you. I have the worlds smallest violin playing, my heart bleeds for you, right now!

    In between all this feeling for you, another feeling I have is jealousy!

    So, yeah, can't wait for school!

    But I'm very very very happy for you and Nick! Who wouldn't be happy for two people that are so very happy and in love? Even if I am jealous!

    Love you and Nick!


    (Of course, having Eva and Adam there with you....well...do I even have to tell you how I feel about THAT?

    I didn't think so)

  2. PK, I'm so happy for you both, to misquote My Fair Lady, "by Jove he's got it".
    May it long continue, but watch out ears teen and other, parents don't have sex, and if they do, they shouldn't enjoy it. Chuckle.
    Love and warm hugs,

  3. PK, that is so awesome! You wrote exactly what was on your mind, told him exactly what your roadblocks are, and how you felt. I do understand about not wanting to let go in front of another person, but remember, he does the same in front of you, right? I think it would make him happy to see how he has pleased you.

    I have those balls too. I bought them while I was out of town, wore them for a couple of days, then put them in my suitcase, and I can't find them now!!

    Nick in cuffs? That is so cool!

    Maybe you can take a year's sabbatical?


  4. PK-

    I am so glad for you and sooo jealous at the same time *sigh* Maybe when Hubs and I have been at this for 2 years we will be where you are. Heres hoping...

    Paul - You are so funny, and so right! I think that the first thought that flashed through my mind when I found out what sex was all about was - "Oh God, Not MY parents!! Can't be possible!!"

    Have fun this weekend ladies.

  5. So very cool, PK! Keep up your quest. I know exactly what you mean about wanting to feel like you have no choice. Use that as a mental tool too---along with the cuffs, etc---and let Nick wring those orgasms right out of you! Maybe look at it also, as a gift to Nick as well as to yourself....

    Big hugs,

  6. It sounds like you are on a second honeymoon!

  7. Alright Grace I guess we will have to agree to disagree on the school thing.

    I don't know it Eva is having a good time or not. She got a little mouthy and I got to see her hubby spank her butt down by the pool. He is very good at what he does.

    Mollie may have to accept that the only parents that never had sex were mine!

    I think the idea of a sabbatical is fantastic. But although great sex and spanking are wonderful things I also like having electricity in the house, water, groceries, etc.

    You said it!

    You will get there. We are still learning everyday!

    About parents and sex. My sister and I realize that there is a possibility our parents may have had sex twice - but we doubt it.

    I do feel like we are giving to one another. This whole process is fun!

    This second honeymoon is soooooo much more fun than the first!


  8. Wow! That sounds like an amazing time! :-) So happy for you both

    P.S. what are Ben-Wah Balls???