I have been a wife and mother for over twenty years. Now I am becoming my husband's lover, too.
We owe it all to my fellow bloggers who gave me the courage to come out to my husband as a spanko.
I do feel like this is a New Beginning for us.

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Monday, September 12, 2011


This post is just for me. I’m rambling. No good sexy spanking is coming up in this one. I just feel like writing about how things are with me at the moment, and to sum it up – pretty good. I am writing this on Saturday morning. Nick’s golfing; I’ve been out walking already. The weather and the temp both are beautiful. Molly stayed at school this weekend. I love seeing her, but I don’t want her home every weekend. I want her to become a part of her college and enjoy being with her friends on the weekends. We’ll drive over sometime next week to take her to supper but I’m glad she is happy and becoming involved there.

Right now I’m in my writing room. This is my sanctuary; it overlooks the pool and the back yard. I have a comfortable chair, the ceiling fan, the little gas fire place for the winter and no TV. I haven’t been out here much lately. As Molly was getting ready to leave there was much to be done and I didn’t want to hide myself away. Now that she is gone, I don’t want Nick to think I’m abandoning him in the evening to come out here, so it’s been a while. I love writing fiction. I have several stories in my head now (none, of course, over the summer when I had nothing to do!) There are several Fantasy Fridays that I’ve written that have a ‘next part’ should I ever get around to actually typing them. Cassie has several stories she has been bugging me to write and yet little writing has been done.

Maybe I can write next weekend. Nick is going on one of his golf weekend and with Molly planning to stay at school I really will have a weekend to do exactly as I please. I miss Nick when he’s gone, but he only goes off a couple of times a year and that’s about right. I do like my time alone. I’m not one to get bored with my own company, at least for the weekend. Eva used to tell me that that was because I had so many people living in my head. Maybe she was right. My imaginary friends didn’t leave when I grew up; they just hung around waiting for me to begin writing.

All isn’t perfect right now thought. I’ve mentioned Hank several time since Molly rescued him from a busy intersection. I have never known a cat with a sweeter nature. Where our other cats have always run to hide if any one came over, Hank assumed anyone that showed up had come to visit him and he was delighted – he love people. He was so gentle, would stand up on his hind legs like a dog to be picked up. He love to play but never used his claw with us. He also loved to watch Nick shave, sometimes putting his feet on Nick's chest to get a better view. Sometimes came away with shaving cream on his nose. Last Thursday Hank was hit and killed in front of the house. His loss hit me hard – we had only had him for 4 months, but he was special. Maybe part of it was Molly bring him into our home as she was leaving – something for me to ‘mother’. I’m grateful she rescued him and for the joy he brought us. I can say with no regrets we gave him a wonderful time in his short life. Three humans who love and doted on him, a couple of other cats who played with him, toys, attention, all he could eat, full run of the house and a soft bed to sleep on, ours. This little guy will be missed.

As I continue to ramble here, except for this sad loss, my life is going well. My job has been extremely hard in the past few years. Frustration surrounded me. Everyone who has a degree in education (who doesn't really want to teach school) wants to develop a ‘new program’ to tell me how to do it. Hey if they’re not in the classroom they have to justify their salary (which is larger than mine) somehow. But while this is still going on I’ve managed to rise above it so far this year. I only have 5 years to go. I know what I’m doing. My scores remain the highest in my grade level and I’m going to continue teaching my way. I’ll listen to all their new idea, and should I ever hear a good one that I think would work, I’ll be more than happy to give it a try. I’ve learned to SNI, that’s smile, nod and ignore all the stupid stuff that they are trying to shove down our throats. I am most grateful to be at a place in my life that, should they decide that loving my students, teaching my students and producing students with high test scores isn’t enough, then they can fire me and I’ll have plenty of time to write. I refuse to let it stress me as it has in the past. Ok, in truth it will probably stress me on occasion and I’ll come here and vent but I’m doing MUCH better than over the past few years.

I wanted to tell you that weekend after next something is happening that I think will interest you. I have plans to meet a fellow blogger for lunch. Although we’ve been friends for years now we’ve never met in person and I’m excited. I’ll be blogging about it for sure, but I’ll wait until after the fact to give you the details, maybe we’ll both be blogging about it.

I’ll stop now and get ready to enjoy the rest of my Saturday. As Nick left for golf he said “Maybe we can find time for a little mischief this afternoon. I lost weight this week; Nick sent me an email congratulating me and telling me he’ll have to look for another excuse for TTWD and mentioned the several pair of socks and shoes I’d left by my chair. Hmm…

I’ll let you know.


  1. PK, all good, except for poor old Hank.
    Tiggi, my cat, won't go out the front door, it's a busy road, and the noise frightens her.
    I like your rambling posts. they give me a much better feel for how you are doing.
    Love and warm hugs,

  2. Congrats on losing weight and for the SNI philosophy. You come across as being very content with your life, which is so nice. Sounds like the empty nest years are getting off to a great start.


  3. A nice post to read on a MOnday morning. I like SNI, I know from personal expereince it is easier said than done! Can't wait to read more of your stories. abby

  4. Makes me smile to read this post PK, expect of course about Hank. You seem in a happy place right now.

    Look forward to reading more from Cassie and can't wait to hear about your meet with a fellow blogger.


  5. Sorry about Hank! Thanks for the SNI reminder. It can come in handy for anyone. Congrats on the weight loss. And there's always an excuse for ttwd!

  6. except for your sad sad loss, and my sympathy goes out to you PK i know what is like to lose a beloved cat - big hugs - you sound very much at peace and content :) and that makes me smile - am looking forward to reading more of your stories
    love and hugs kiwi xx

  7. Guess I’m pretty good these days, Paul. We have a huge back yard that goes into the woods. If only the cats would just go that way but for some reason they must check out the front yard and the street.

    I do feel pretty content these days. Not looking for everything to be perfect, just trying to go with the flow.

    The SNI seems to get easier as I near retirement. I have one more sign hidden in my desk at work it says “Proud member of LUFA” – Leave Us the F**k Alone.

    LOL Ronnie,
    If I don’t get to writing for Cassie soon I’m afraid she’s going to pitch a fit.

    Hank will truly be missed. I thing you’re right everyone can use some SNI to get through their day in many situations.

    He had a great life here. I'm looking forward to getting some writing done soon.

  8. Hi! I am so glad that you are having a good start to the school year. I am very sorry to hear about your cat. He was lucky to have found you and you him so you could enjoy each other for a time. Hugs, Terps