As I handed out candy to my students in each of my three periods I just ate some myself. I was discouraged and I started thinking about how I lose weight. I have needed to lose for nearly 20 years. I wasn’t big back then but I kept putting it on steadily a little more each year. Nick never pushed, he never mentioned my weight but he worried a little about my health. When I went through spells of trying to lose he was always supportive and encouraging. It never worked.
Then finally I opened up to Nick about my desire for spanking and some aspect of discipline. He really came through for me. But I realize now there was more to my ability to lose weight that the threat of spanking. I would say 95% of the time when I over eat it is because of boredom. But once Nick and I introduced spanking into the mix I always had something to think about! Had I gained? What would he do? What would happen if I ate that big old candy bar? It really takes very little to keep my mind whirling for days. In other words I was able to keep from over feeding my face by feeding my imagination.
An Ah-ha moment! To keep me from over eating I need to feed my imagination. Or rather Nick does! And this weekend he did! Once Mollie left he explained that her birthday was the reason, not an excuse! He headed me to the bedroom and told me to lose the clothes. We then discussed how he diet was going. I fessed up to eating candy several times during the day and he decided to lay down some new rules. First off I have to write down everything I eat – everything! The next thing is that I have to lose at least one full pound this week if I don’t -- no eating in front of the TV at all! (Thanks Todd and Suzy!!)
I am sure to a vanilla person this would sound outrageous, who does he thing he is?? But for me as a spanko! I loved it!! It feeds my imagination!!! And it has helped me keep focused this week. Went I start to put something in my mouth I think I am going to have to write this down. It slows me down. It makes me think.
I wish Nick really knew how much power I am giving him. If he says you shouldn’t be eating so much candy my thoughts are ‘whatever’. If he were to say “No candy this week – none!” I wouldn’t eat any. Of course Nick is such a nice guy this goes completely against his nature. But we are working on things. And it’s fun and that’s what I need to focus on the diet! I hope he checks the food log sometimes; if he sees something that shouldn’t be there I wish he would give a quick spanking. He is wonderful on making good use of Mollie’s absences and being sure we have time to make love after he spanks – no complaints about that, but I would love some quickie spankings sometimes for focus.
Anyway finally back to us in the bedroom! The warm up was excellent but for the life of me I cannot remember what he used! I was feeling happy and comfy on the bed, mind racing and my bottom stinging! But then he made me stand for the spanking for gaining this week! I hate standing with my hands on the bed!! I guess that is part of the experiences! Anyway he used the big, mean wooded paddle he made when we first started spanking. WOW!! That thing stings like hell! And he wasn’t shy about swinging it either, many times!!