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Tuesday, October 04, 2022

One Bad Night

I’m just about tired of medial test. Again, I feel great. If you go by how I feel then there’s nothing wrong. My BP is a little high. We’re changing my meds to see what works best. My doctor thinks that there is something wrong with my breathing. She keeps talking about a c-pap machine as a strong possibility. 


But I don’t think I have sleep apnea. I don’t snore, I don’t wake up with a sudden jerk like I’d stopped breathing all I do is wheeze a little. But still she insisted on a sleep study. I was happy to hear I could do it at home. 

But that was a horrible night. It was time to go to bed. I had something strapped around my chest. I had something attached to my finger and I had tubes up my nose. And the lights on the chest strap kept blinking. And honestly none of that really bothered me. What bothered me was that I could not go to sleep. All the apparatus was a little annoying, but it was my brain continuously telling me I had to go to sleep that was driving me nuts. It was a long and horrible night. But evidently, I slept enough for them to get some reading. I have a telephone visit with them on the tenth to tell me the results. The other tests have hinted that I’m not getting enough oxygen at night.

I feel like my heart rate is low at night. According to my watch, it often goes down to thirty-seven beats per minute during the time I’m asleep. I want some answers, but I feel like it’s just going to lead to more tests. I’m about ready for results. 


  1. Hi PK, I don't blame you being fed up and now wanting answers. At least the sleep test is now done. I honestly don't know how anyone is supposed to sleep attached to all that apparatus! I can just imagine too, your brain going into overdrive "you must sleep, you must sleep..."

    I hope the results bring you some answers.


    1. My brain was my biggest problem that night. But I'll be talking with the doctor Monday.

  2. Anonymous5:20 PM

    long time PK!

    I hope the tests are done and they come back saying you are fine. tests aren't fun!

    My heart rate dips to the 40s when I sleep too, apparently a thing in my family (high 30s etc). Works for me. As long as I wake up!

    I hope all is well otherwise!

    1. Something is not working right. I answered my comments but they didn't publish. Sorry to be so late in answering. I agree with you - as long as I wake up I'm okay with everything. There is just that slight fear that I won't!

    2. Anonymous4:39 PM

      Well, I don't think I would recommend not waking up! that would be bad.

      I hope the answers are that you are fine!


  3. It's good that you are getting the tests. Hope all come back fine.
    I don't sleep very well at the best of times, so I know I wouldn't sleep at all with one of those devices strapped to me.


    1. I'm usually such a good sleeper. This was a really rough night for me. I hope they can give me some good results.

  4. I hope you get answers soon and that all is well. Hugs to you