Has there ever been a time in your marriage when you contemplated divorce? I don’t know if I ever contemplated it as much as I saw it coming and knew it would be my fault. I felt if I didn’t stop what I was doing it would be inevitable.
I had begun what I was doing intentionally. It felt like the right thing to do at the time. Nick had even been in agreement, but … but… Now you have to realize this was way before TTWD. It was way before we had the kids. I guess if I’d been determined to continue, there would have been no kids.
But I was young and stupid. So barely two years into our marriage, I did it. I signed up for a calculus course in college. I’d done well in all my previous math courses and Nick – who is a math wizard - would be there to help. I soon realized that trying to learn calculus was like trying to learn math in a completely foreign language. In total confusion and despair I turned to Nick for help.
We worked together on it for several days. Him explaining the problems and me nodding like he was actually making sense. He wasn’t. I believe it was near the end of the third day – after a long explanation, none of which I followed after he said, “You see…” that he said the word that broke the camel’s back. It went something like this “… blah, blah, blah… so obviously the answer is…”
Obviously. He said that to me while working to explain calculus. The only thing obvious was that I had three choices: Butcher knife, divorce or drop the course.
I guess you know what my choice was. I never regretted it for one minute and never in my life have I needed to use calculus. Had a calculus situation ever come up, I would have turned to Nick in a heartbeat.
There you have my story of the closest we’ve ever come to divorce. Have any of you come as close?