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Thursday, September 05, 2019

Divorce anyone?

Has there ever been a time in your marriage when you contemplated divorce? I don’t know if I ever contemplated it as much as I saw it coming and knew it would be my fault. I felt if I didn’t stop what I was doing it would be inevitable. 

I had begun what I was doing intentionally. It felt like the right thing to do at the time. Nick had even been in agreement, but … but… Now you have to realize this was way before TTWD. It was way before we had the kids. I guess if I’d been determined to continue, there would have been no kids.

But I was young and stupid. So barely two years into our marriage, I did it. I signed up for a calculus course in college. I’d done well in all my previous math courses and Nick – who is a math wizard -  would be there to help. I soon realized that trying to learn calculus was like trying to learn math in a completely foreign language. In total confusion and despair I turned to Nick for help.

We worked together on it for several days. Him explaining the problems and me nodding like he was actually making sense. He wasn’t. I believe it was near the end of the third day – after a long explanation, none of which I followed after he said, “You see…” that he said the word that broke the camel’s back. It went something like this “… blah, blah, blah… so obviously the answer is…”

Obviously. He said that to me while working to explain calculus. The only thing obvious was that I had three choices: Butcher knife, divorce or drop the course.

I guess you know what my choice was. I never regretted it for one minute and never in my life have I needed to use calculus. Had a calculus situation ever come up, I would have turned to Nick in a heartbeat.

There you have my story of the closest we’ve ever come to divorce. Have any of you come as close?


  1. LoL PK, sounds like dropping the course was the best thing. Maths and I have never got on lol


    1. I taught math for 25 years - but I didn't teach or need, calculus.

  2. PK,
    Oohhh, Calculus is a tough one. I survived with Storm as my tutor and if he ever would have said, "obviously" to me during a study session, I might have mentioned the "d" word. Storm grew up hearing that he and his future wife should never utter "the d word," so that's where things stand with that one. But, me being me, well....... I may have slipped it in here and there when I was feeling unsure about the way HE felt..... no worries though. Lots of great times and some challenging times in every marriage I have ever heard of, even the really good ones. Hugs, Windy

    1. My parents were married for 55 years, Nick's for 71 years. The actual idea of divorce has never been there. It just wasn't a consideration.

  3. Lol! Calculus....the math where you toss out everything you ever learned before and discover that 2 does in fact equal 1 (I have the proof on my fridge).

    But as for the D word, I think every couple goes through stages where it is contemplated. The Sheriff and I every year on our anniversary congratulate each other on CHOOSING to be married (well, I think the words are, yay we didnt kill each other this year! LOL). However, I think ultimately, it is that we choose each other each year. Despite everything that life throws at us, we would rather have each other than face the world alone.


    1. I told Nick that once we hit 25 years all escape options were off the table and we were in it for life. I didn't mention this time limit until our 26th anniversary though!

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