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Tuesday, October 30, 2018

I miss Cassie

As the title says, I miss Cassie. I’m lonely for her. Most of you reading here know I have an ‘unusual’ relationship with Cassie. She is my oldest friend. In fact we’ve been near constant companions for over fifty years now. I think the greatest joy in my life, after Nick and the kids, is having been able to share Cassie with all of you. 

I've written ten Cassie books. I’m not sure Blushing Books will
want to publish any more. The last book, Cassie’s Life, I felt was the very best. (Although they are all stand-alone books you’d enjoy this last one more if you read a couple of the others.) But even though it’s good, it didn’t sell well. Maybe people were tired of Cassie or maybe they came across this one first and avoided it thinking they didn’t want to jump into a series that late in the game.

I’m moving on with new book so I haven’t spent as much time lately ‘visiting’ with Cassie. Occasionally, I’ll seen her at night. I’m a great sleeper and rarely have trouble but if I do find myself tossing and turning I’ll often head to the river. Cassie and sometimes some of the other are on the porch. Cassie always saves me the rocker beside her and I join her to watch her river flow by. Sometimes if I am upset about something she reaches out and puts her hand over mine and I can feel the tension leave me as I relax fully. I’ve often said a shrink would have a field day with Cassie and me.

But yesterday I had a Cassie flash. Just a scene, like a snapshot. Everyone was gathered at Cassie, the women on the right side of the deck, the men had drifted to the other end or out in the yard. I noticed particularly how Cassie was dressed. It was a casual affair. She had on tennis shoes, jeans and a crisply ironed button up shirt in a black and white check pattern. Her sleeves were turned up mid-way her forearms and I noticed that with this casual outfit she was also wearing a dazzling diamond bracelet. Lily had been speaking and it must have been funny because Cassie threw back her head in laughter. It seemed so typically Cassie – enjoying every minute of life. 

So what do I do about missing Cassie. I have stories I haven’t included in the books, although avid long time readers may have come across some of them on her blog in years past. I really doubt many of those folks are still around. If I’m not going to do another book I could let Cassie begin posting again. I don’t know how many readers that would draw. Cassie still has stories she wants to tell and since I’m not exactly in the writing business for the money it doesn’t really matter where they are published. Should I decided to do this just know – if you comment over at Cassie’s, it will be Cassie who answers your comments. She’s a hard woman to keep quiet.

I think I’ll do my ‘Throw Back Thursday’ on Wednesday this week. I’ll post Cassie’s Halloween story. Maybe that will ease my loneliness a bit.

And I'm never above a little self promotion - you can find all my books here. The first in the series is Cassie's Space.

23 comments:

  1. Hi PK, Cassie has more to say so I think she would want you to continue writing her story.

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. There are several stories of Cassie's that I want to share. Somewhere.

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  2. PK definitely continue writing Cassies words she whispers to you. All her followers would miss her. She has many more stories to share with us all.
    Hugs Lindy xx

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    1. It's true. She and Tom aren't going to stop living just because I haven't been writing.

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  3. PK, you know I will be there to read Cassie's stories! It's nice that you are posting them for free. I plan to print them out and start a book of her tales. In fact, I may put that on the cover. Cassie's Tales.

    Can't Wait Says Ella

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    1. Nick always liked that title (it's the second book and he picked it.) I'm still expecting the books to come out in paperback - at least that's what Blushing has promised.

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  4. I think you should out and out ask Blushing if they would publish another Cassie book. Once you know, then you can decide from there.

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    1. I might try that - right now I can't get anyone over there to answer any of my questions.

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  5. I do miss Cassie as well. I think SG's idea is a good one. Ask and then make a decision.

    Love,
    Ronnie
    xx

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    1. I'll ask and see what happens.

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  6. Anonymous10:47 AM

    Hi, I am a shy lurker. Have been for years. I have read all the Cassie books and I too miss her greatly. I want to know more about her and all her friends.

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    1. Thank you so much for coming by. I know the six or seven people who often comment here like Cassie and her stories but it really help to be reminded that others like her as well. Please come by any time.

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  7. I don't know Cassie, but if she is a part of you, then she must be wonderful, too!! I love the encouragement you're getting here from you readers. Go, PK and Cassie! Hugs! Windy

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    1. Sometimes I think she is the best part of me. I need you to read at least one book!

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  8. If Cassie has more to say, then we want to hear her! Leigh has the right idea, follow her suggestion and go from there.
    Rosie xx

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    1. I think I have to keep writing whether it's in a book or on her blog.

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  9. Anonymous9:40 PM

    I don't know if this post was designed to draw out your lurkers, but I see I am the second one today! Whether you write a book or Cassie resumes the blog, I will be there (I was so relieved to see some of my favorite Cassie stories from the blog make it into the last few books. Guess that means I've been lurking longer than I care to admit...). I enjoy the Cal and Jenny series, as well, but I loved the return to Cassie's POV in Cassie's Life. PLEASE don't stop sharing her stories. You're one of only 3 authors I still follow in this genre! (Finally, I have planned different "first comment" posts for years. I can't believe my actual first one involves begging. I had always intended for it to focus on gratitude and appreciation. Eh, that's what I get for waiting so long.)

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    1. I didn’t expect lurkers to come out, but you can’t know how happy it makes me! I love writing books, I love knowing that people actually read them. But my first love it sharing Cassie. So I want to continue to do that somewhere. But I have found she can’t be rushed – I have to take the time to listen to her and see which stories she wants to share.

      Your coming out comment was perfect – you told me you enjoyed my book, it doesn’t get any better than that. Please come back.

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  10. Oh PK!
    I'm so excited that you're considering writing more of Cassie's stories! I was really sad when you said there probably wouldn't be any more. I will continue to reread the others but would LOVE to have more. MORE I TELL YOU!!!
    And Windy, get reading. You have no idea what you're missing.
    Rosie Dee

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    1. Thanks, Rosie! I really want to go on with her story in some form. I just need to figure it out.

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  11. Anonymous9:05 AM

    Hi Pk this S. I love all of Cassies books and stories. I would love to read more of her stories. I also love Jenny And Cal books.

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    1. Thanks! I know there is more that Cassie has to say - I'm just not sure where that will be.

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  12. I would also love to read more of Cassie's stories.
    EL

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