I have been a wife and mother for over twenty years. Now I am becoming my husband's lover, too.
We owe it all to my fellow bloggers who gave me the courage to come out to my husband as a spanko.
I do feel like this is a New Beginning for us.

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Monday, February 11, 2019

Good News, Bad News

*A quick note first. I'm beginning a story over at Cassie's Space tomorrow. I'd really appreciate you coming by. This story has never appeared in any of the books and should be brand new to 99% of you. Should you be willing to leave a comment, remember - you're talking to Cassie and she'll be the one to answer you.





Good News, Bad News

Let’s get the bad news out of the way first. I’m not taking the best care of myself. I’ve not been awful. I go to the gym – and actually work out, at least three days a week. My weight has stayed nearly the same for several months, a little loss, but not much. I take my meds religiously, never miss a day. But I’m afraid I’ve been slipping more and more on what I eat. And let’s just say it’s not been health food. 

I’m afraid if you made a list of the most unhealthy foods out there you would me making a list of my favorites. Cakes, cookies, pies and pastries. I also love any starch pretending to be a vegetable – potatoes, rice, lima beans, corn. I love potato chips and popcorn. I love most meats too. There are a few veggies I’ll tolerate – spinach, onions, peas, green beans, yellow squash, zucchini. I’ll eat these, but I sure don’t ever crave them.



Basically my eating habits resemble that of a ten year old allowed to eat exactly what they want and nothing else. When I was first diagnosed with diabetes I was scared to death and I really tried to straighten up. I did stop soft drinks and that was hard! I watched my carbs and even tried to find some healthy recipe. But gradually with NO symptoms I let most of the bad stuff creep back into what I was eating.

I have a million excuses – there are just so many ‘good’ foods that I seriously don’t like. And preparation is another problem. I hate cooking! I don’t like to take the time to cook and clean up after meal I really like. You can see my reluctance to take the time to make stuff I really don’t want to eat in the first place.

Grrrr… my A1C had gone up so much that the doctor wants me to take my meds twice a day. I don’t want to. So I told her I’m going to work on bringing it down the right way – diet and exercise first. Then we can recheck it in May.

Okay, enough bad news. Now for the good news. I’ve finally found something Nick does seem to care about. I told him all about this in the letter I’m to send him each week.  He wasn’t happy that I’d let things get this bad. It didn’t happen overnight so he knew I’d ‘been bad’ for quite a while. He told me we’d talk about it in the bedroom at 2:30.

I went about my day. I took care of several errands, but several took longer than expected. I got home around 2:40 and told Nick, “I’m so sorry we missed our appointed time. Maybe we can try again next week.” I felt it was worth a try.

It didn't work. He told me he completely understood me being late, but he felt we’d still be able to squeeze our ‘talk’ in. We did. The general talk going on was about my letting my health slip and not paying closer attention to my blood sugar. I pretty much knew what he was saying but my attention wasn't centered on my listening skills, but somewhere else.

A note here to Sunny –  that damn, fricking, devil paddle you
gave me should burn in hell! I could swear I’d hidden… I mean lost that thing. It’s the most evil implement we own and that’s taking in my hatred of the cane – a gift from another friend! Gee, thanks, Ronnie.

Gratefully he only used it for the first three swats and let me keep my clothes on. But Nick doesn’t like clothes in the way when he spanks. The longer we do this I become more in favor of spanking with my jeans on.

So the spanking continued. And I promised I’d do better, I had already decided that. And I mean it. But Nick had one more way to assure that my thought would stay focused for a little longer. He decided I should wear a plug for a time to assure I knew he was serious. 

Plugs are in interesting. I don’t hate them, but wearing one while dressed and going about your usual business is … different. Your mind never strays far from the intrusion nor the one who placed it there. It’s a form of discipline that intimate and is bound up with trust in the one insisting on it, much like spanking. Plugs are silent, somewhat uncomfortable but not painful, and wearing one shows submission. 

There is my news, both bad and good. I’ll work on the health issues and it seems like Nick will be standing by, paddle in hand, to see that I do. Works for me.

21 comments:

  1. Hi PK, I can so relate to bad eating habits. My eating habits have been bad for a while now too and it's starting to show. Why is it everything bad for you taste so good and vice vrrsa. Argh! Good on Nick for stepping up to help.

    Wonderful news on the new Cassie story:)

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. I don't know why, but it sure seems that way. I do appreciate Nick's help... I think.

      I think you'll like Cassie's story.

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  2. I can relate to those eating habits you describe, as I sit here munching on choclate at 830 in the morning.

    I am glad Nick will protect you from yourself! I hope it helps bring things back under control for you.

    Boo

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    1. It's going to be a rough road. I've NEVER eaten a healthy diet. This is late in life to make a major change.

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  3. I can relate to all you say. I'm constatntly on the up/down AIC scale.
    As for the paddle, it was a game - checkers one side, backgammon the other - it came with chips. I don't know how you can blame me for Nick's misuse of it.

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    1. Game my ass! Which is exactly where it landed, as you KNEW it would!

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  4. At the risk of sounding insensitive -- I'm so happy for you! Okay, not for the health issues obviously. But keeping up with your post, you've been aching for Nick to step up to the bat -- and it sounds like he is! For that (and only that) I'm happy for you. That settling, he's-got-me feeling sounds like it's pretty anchored right now. Of course, the paddle does look fierce, but it sounds like it did it's job. ;) So despite the recent health issues -- right now, I'm still smiling for you. Now, just make sure you don't get it again!

    Hugs -- Shell

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    1. LOL, it's not being insensitive - it's what we all want, well at least sorta want, most of the time...
      But yeah, having an anchor is always a good feeling.

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  5. Augh, bad food tastes soooo good and is soooo easy. It's not fair, really. Starting to think we should make all our men cook for us if they want us to eat better. :P

    Love this! "The longer we do this I become more in favor of spanking with my jeans on." LOL You know it wouldn't really work though, right? ;) But, still, the idea is great. :)

    I hope you can get your sugars back under control, and sorry that they're so high. I wrestle with low sugars, and that puts me at risk for diabetes too, and I know how horrible it is to eat right... which I do... for some seasons, and not at all for others. lol I don't like veggies either, they never call my name. Okay, some squashes I love, but other than that. :P My friend adds maple syrup and stuff like that to hers... for some reason, I think that might counteract the health benefits. LOL

    Hugs, EsMay

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    1. My problem is that Nick does most of the cooking - but I still only eat the things I like. And I'm a snacker - it's hard to find good healthy snacks, both sweet and salty.

      I guess you and I are both going to have to work on this.

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  6. I hope you take better care of yourself, PK! Glad you are happy with how ttwd things are going with Nick! Leigh just gave you an "innocent little game to play," huh? Laughing! Hugs! Windy

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    1. That girl knew EXACTLY what she was doing. When I got it I had no idea how potentially deadly it was.

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  7. Yay! .. that Nick continues to step up to the plate! ... boo! ... that you are dealing with health issues and trying to resolve it all via changing your eating habits. It is tough ... we've had to do this a couple of times over the years. I find if you can keep yourself away from the 'junk' for a period of time, it gets easier to leave it alone ... however, sometimes there is the seemingly inevitable slippage that happens and before you know it has you again. We are trying to get back on track here ... our house is a no go zone for junk food of any kind these days ... except wine :>)) ... and yes it is a more intensive cooking scenario but if you do a Sunday (maybe with Nick's help ... or you helping Nick :>)) prep day where everything is cut up and prepared for the week, you might find it a bit easier ... hugs! ... you'll get there and it sounds like if you need 'help' Nick will be there ... nj

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    1. Meals are a real mess around here. Nick has gained three pounds since we married. Three!! He should be able to have junk food if he wants it. And several nights a week he is taking dinner to his Dad and often eats with him so I'm on my own. Sadly brownies and chips are not on the good menu list.

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  8. First, yay Nick! Second, loved Sunny's comments! Third, most important really, please take better care of YOU!

    I've been diabetic for over thirty years and I was doing damage that showed no symptoms for a long time. It just felt like a diet that I couldn't stick with. I had to have eye surgeries (thousands of lasers) to prevent little bleeders from blinding me. Not fun. And my peripheral vision is extremely limited because of the surgeries. I had an early heart attack and double bypass surgery. I also have some neuropathy in my hands and feet.

    My A1c has been great for several years now, but I did 'silent' damage for a long time. PLEASE, take care of yourself now and if you need more meds in May, PLEASE TAKE THEM!!! They will help you. Controlling this disease is so very hard. Sometimes we have to get help. If Nick's 'motivation' works it will be great. You will probably always need it because it will always be a battle.

    I paid for my years of fooling around. I don't want that for you.

    Rosie Dee

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    1. Well, I sure as hell didn't want to hear that. But honestly, thank you for saying it. I realize that 'no symptoms' doesn't mean no damage is being done. I do want and need Nick's help - but I'm also going to have to act like a grown-up on my own too.

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  9. Yay Nick! I am so glad that he is taking care of you. Hopefully, between the two of you, you will get your diet under control. I am totally with you on the dinner preparation. I am no cook either. But diet is really important.
    I will be checking out Cassie's space tomorrow, it's been awhile since I have been over there and visited.
    Good luck with your diet and exercise. And I am glad that it isn't my paddle that you hate the most, lol.

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    1. We're both going to work on it. But learning to cook will be a challenge.

      I'm so glad you'll be visiting with Cassie. It's a real joy to write her.

      I love your paddle! Not exactly at the moment it connects with my butt, but all the other times.

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  10. Ouch on that paddle. It's down to you, so do it. I know you can. Good for Nick helping.

    I'll be over to read Cassie.

    Love,
    Ronnie
    xx

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    1. I know I have to do it. I just HATE doing it. I do appreciate Nick's help.

      Glad to have you at Cassie's.

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  11. I will probably always be struggling and striving to eat healthier and take better care of myself. It is not easy - it takes so much effort, but is important. Please do take care of your health. I am glad your husband is there to support you with this. Hugs

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