I feel like I’ve been gone a long time. The reunion was great fun– our family gets along really well. After the reunion the visit to the lake was just magical. It’s a beautiful place, so soothing and relaxing. Nick didn’t get to go this time. If we do it next year I hope he’ll be able to go to.
Some of you have asked how ‘first weekend’ is going. First weekend was a rule Nick put in place where he expects me to plan an intimate event for us sometime during the first weekend of each month. He said it could be elaborate or simple, but it was my job to get things rolling. I’m doing well, we couldn’t do much this weekend (although we did find a little time for ourselves). But so far I’ve planned something every month since he mentioned it.
I even got spanked Sunday after everyone left. I know I haven’t said much about TTWD lately, or should I say TTW(don’t)D very often. I have so many things I want to say about it swirling in my head, but I feel I’ve said it all. Nick doesn’t read here any more so it wouldn’t do any good anyway. And although the thoughts swirl I honestly don’t know what I really want any more. You can’t keep wishing and hoping for something that won’t happen – eventually you have to start convincing yourself you don’t really want it or that you can live without it. I think I’ve reached that point.