I guess it’s not a secret out here that I’m a proud mama. I love my children so much. But I truly dread the next few months with Mollie. She called tonight and I’m all in knots. It’s nothing bad – all completely normal, but it’s coming onto a monumental worrying time for her and she drains off her stress and worry by giving it to me.
My baby girl is graduating Mother’s day. I find that amazing and wonderful. But the worries of real life are hitting her. Teaching is funny when you are starting out. She doesn’t know where she wants to teach. She doesn’t really want to live alone in a strange town and although she likes this area and our extended family is important to her, she doesn’t want to live in our town. And while it would be nice to have her close by, I feel she needs to spread her wings.
So how does she start? Often teachers don’t get hired until the week before school begins. That doesn’t leave much time to get an apartment and can she afford to live alone and she won’t know anyone there and will she be able to get a job at all and while we’re worrying, she still isn’t dating any one and will she ever marry and have kids and…
And these are HER questions – not mine! But she dumps them on me – as she should, I’m her mom and a good sounding board. I’ve learned to listen and keep my mouth shut for the most part. It’s pretty easy not giving advice since I have no answers to these questions and wouldn’t know which direction to push her if I wanted to.
But how do I keep the worry and stress off my mind – I’ve been down and tense since she called. I don’t want to feel like this until next August! Anyone have a job, an apartment and a man for my daughter? It sure would help.
You needn’t suggest our usual form of stress relief. I don’t think it’s on the table right now. And after graduation, when Mollie is around for the summer it’s going to be ever less likely. I think I’ll just sit here and pull my hair out.