I have been a wife and mother for over twenty years. Now I am becoming my husband's lover, too.
We owe it all to my fellow bloggers who gave me the courage to come out to my husband as a spanko.
I do feel like this is a New Beginning for us.

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Friday, March 24, 2017

You gotta read this

When I started blogging here the first friend I made was Eva. I knew way back then what a great writer she was. She was writing Fantasy Friday stories before I was even hosting it. She's not around all the time these days, but we've remained friends and with a tiny bit of badgering  from me that she should write again, and her basic love of writing finally got to her and this past summer she wrote her first book, Ami's Courage. It's now been published by Blushing Books, under her pen name, Taylor Evans. And I really love the cover!


After ten years of refusing Jay's proposal for marriage Ami works up the courage to tell him what is holding her back. Ami loves Jay and she knows Jay loves her, that’s not the problem. Ami's struggle to accept her deep-rooted sexuality and desire to be dominated is proving difficult and, at times, she wonders if she really needs it or if life would be easier if she just ignored her needs.

After finally sharing her desires with Jay, he finds it puzzling to say the least. Some of what Ami is asking him for, he may be unable to accommodate. He turns to his friend Michael who convinces him that what Ami is asking shouldn't be a road which Jay should travel. Jay begins to question himself, his relationship with Ami, and their possible marriage.

Meanwhile, Michael decides to make Ami his in ways which no one could see coming. The night he decides to make her his own is a night Ami will never forget. Eventually, Jay comes to the realization that what Ami is asking of him might work for him, too. But he realizes it might be too late. He may have already lost her to Michael, in a very traumatic way.

Is Ami strong enough to pursue her needs and desires?  Is Jay strong enough to put aside his fears and give Ami what she needs?  Are they strong enough together to grow, heal, and find happiness together?

Publishers note:  This book contains elements of domestic discipline, sexual scenes, and some elements of unlawful, life threatening events. 

And here's a little excerpt:

“I have told youI love you. You’re perfect the way you are. There’s just this little bit more I need in our relationship.”
“A little bit? This is hardly a small thing, Ami. This is huge!” exclaims Jay. 
“I know.”
“Let me see if I understand. You want me to spank you?” 
Jay questions. 
“Why? Help me understand why 
you need this?” Jay pleads.
“I need a man with a strong hand who will keep me in line, who will discipline me... punish me... not just spanking... it can be anything you want it to bebecause I want you to be in charge.”
“Is this for real? Or just a playful fantasy? What? What is it you want?”
“Would you think I’m out of my mind if I said it’s both?” Ami giggles.
“Yes. You’re out of your mind,” Jay laughs.

Here's the buy link: Amazon

Here's Taylor Evans Blog:http://taylorevans623.blogspot.com

Tuesday, March 21, 2017

Good-bye to my friend

I know not many here now will be as affected by this post as I am, but blogland lost a dear friend this past weekend. For those of you who might remember, Paul passed away in his sleep Sunday night. He was a sweet man and I will always remember him with love.

Paul was here when I began blogging eleven years ago. He commented on every single post I ever wrote, here and at Cassie's Space, until problems drove him away from blogging and then we kept up with one another by email. As his health faded, I kept up with him through his niece. He was Cassie’s ‘big brother’ and I think he loved her as much as I do.

His passing make me go back in my mind to some hard times out here. Most of you weren’t here and have no memory of Paul. He and I weathered those very hard times together. I stayed and kept blogging, sadly he quietly went away. His on-line family meant so much to him and he missed that family when he left.

Paul wasn't perfect – who is? Regardless of truth or fiction or lies or good stories I simply hope that Paul is with his beloved Mel, because I love a happy ending.

Friday, March 17, 2017

My view

I know several of you have already see this, 
but I took a picture from my writing room the 
other day when we had a little snow. 

I love where we live 
and I love my view when I sit by my fire and write.

Tuesday, March 14, 2017

A trip and a meme

I’m heading to a writing conference this Friday and Saturday. These conferences aren’t really my thing, but I have a friend who enjoys them and she invited me along. I’ve turned her down several times. But this one is being held in Cassie’s town, where I have relatives I usually only get to see once a year. It gives me a chance to walk along Cassie’s river and sit on her deck. My cousin even looks a lot like Cassie – I believe that’s all they have in common, but still.

I thought I’d put up Abby’s meme this week because they are just fun to do.

1. Early bird or night person? 
Definitely a night owl. I hate to give up the day for some reason. But I love sleeping late.

2. Vanilla, chocolate or strawberry? 
Chocolate cake, strawberry ice-cream and the fragrance of vanilla.

3. Summer or Winter?
I have always said Summer, because I was off in the summer. Now I like it all. 

4. Hearty breakfast or just coffee? 
I love to go out for a hearty breakfast when we’re on vacation, I usually just have a light breakfast at home. Coffee is only for sitting down writing!

5. Bright or muted colors?
I had my classroom filled with bright colors in my home and want I wear it’s more muted. 

6. Pie or cake? 
Few things in the world are better than a delicious moist cake! Devil’s Food with a white frosting  is at the top of my list!

7. Seaside vacation or fun in a big resort or city? 
I think I’d prefer a seaside vacation with a few restaurants you could walk to and maybe a few shops. I’d never pick a city for a vacation. I go to NYC to see LJ at times, but I don’t like cities.

8. Dog or cat lover?
I do love them both, but for us right now cats are my favorite. We can leave food and water and down and be gone for a few days. I also like them cause they are softer when they walk on you and when they sleep in our bed. 

9. Short or long hair?
Pretty short. 

10. Leather or wood?
I don’t hate wood, but leather is always better. 

11. Baseball or football fan? 
Baseball/football – there’s a difference?

12. Spa day or a day shopping with a friend? 
I’ve never had a spa day, don’t know if I would like it or not. The only people I can really shop with are my sister and Mollie. I like being with them!

13. Live concert or movie?
I’ll take the movie – I do all I can to avoid crowds. 

I don't mind a few folks

14. Wrap a gift with paper and bow or use a gift bag? 
I use both, but if I’m getting a gift, I always like tearing off paper.
15. Help build a snowman or stay inside and make the hot chocolate? 
I’ll probably make the hot chocolate while I watch it snow.

16. Four seasons or California climate?
Four seasons for sure. 

17. Driver or passenger? 
I don’t like driving. I see cars as a place to sleep. That’s really frowned on when you’re the driver.

18. Pajamas or a night gown?
I don’t wear either – I started sleeping in the nude the day I came out to Nick. 

19. Bake a cake or go to your favorite bakery? 
Bake? Me? But I know a great bakery!

20. Theater night...musical or drama
I rarely go to the theater I think I’d like them both.