You can’t mean you are not going to be naked at your own wedding!!

Do you ever worry about someone finding out about your spanko side? I know most of us worry at least a little. And I know for some the idea is extremely frightening. I know it was for me at first. I have changed a lot over the years I’ve been here. In real life I have told one close friend and my sister. Both of them had the same reaction – surprise, amusement, total acceptance and underlying it all a complete lack of understanding of what spanking really means in my life. And that’s fine. I don’t care if they understand all the underlying thought on submission and dominance. They just know I enjoy being spanked and that the ability to open up to Nick and have him accepting my kink has made us a much happier couple.

I’m never planning to share with my kids – at least while they are kids. Of course LJ is 21. I have no reason or plans to tell him but if he found out I believe that for the 30 seconds or less he actually thought about it (that’s about as long as he thinks about anything unless I write it up as a play) he would be amused. Now Mollie on the other hand would probably be mortified, about the spanking and equally about the fact we still have sex at all. No one on my side of the family would care and where Nick’s family would probably be embarrassed if they found out I know them well enough to be sure that they would never say a word to us.

If I was found out at work I would certainly have to take the blog private and that would be sad (if that ever happens and you want in just email me – it would only be work folks I would be shutting out). I don’t think I would lose my job after all these years. And the reason I think I would keep my job is because THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH THIS THING WE DO!!!

I look back in my blog and I can’t find one thing shocking in it. I have always been proud of a post I did that first year saying that we should not have to hide our kink, you can read it here if you are interested. All I’ve ever said is that I believe in consensual adult spanking. That I think it is sexy and that it makes me feel safe and protected. I have been married to the same man for 26 years and we have an active sex life that includes spanking. Sorry I can’t see anything wrong with any of this.

So while I know we don’t want to be found out I sure hope no one is ashamed of TTWD. Letting the spanko side of me out is the best thing I have ever done. It turned a hum-drum marriage into a strong, loving bond. It changed me from dreading sex to really looking forward to the time we can get the house alone. I am a much, much happier person. Being happier make me a better teacher, a better wife and a better mother. It was the catalysis in me losing 40 pounds and it’s all tied up in my desire and goal to lose more. I wish our lifestyle could be discussed in the opened. Not to try to talk others into it but to encourage those who know that they have these tendencies to accept themselves and embrace what so many of us know works!

So what would I say if my ‘secret’ was to be discovered and I was confronted with it? Well, I remember an old episode from Star Trek, the Next Generation. In this show a woman from another planet was getting ready to marry a man from Earth, a rather conservative man. Her grow daughter had her doubts because of their differences. The final straw came when the mother showed her daughter her wedding dress. In total shock the daughter looked at her mother in and asked in an incredulous voice “Mother! You can’t mean you are not going to be naked at your own wedding!!” The actress was so good at delivering that line I found myself shocked that the bride to be would be wearing clothes.

So if anyone should ever say to me ‘You don’t mean your husband spanks you!” I’ll look at them with shock and concern and say “Of course he does! Doesn’t yours?”

Sorry, nothing too exciting

I am feeling particularly relaxed not having to go to work for two days feels delicious. I am headed out later today to do some Christmas shopping. I have no idea what I’m going to buy but looking around will be fun. Later this month I’ll be shopping with my sister but sometimes I like going alone.

Bathroom update. Unfortunately Nick got the shower working. That takes the real urgency out of the picture but it still need to be done and I don’t want to put it off. Problem is we don’t know where to start. We aren’t even sure of the colors we want to go with. Do we pick out the counter top first and work around it, or perhaps the floor. How do we decide what kind of shower we want? Tile looks great but let’s be honest. I’ll never be the best of housekeepers. Maybe just a ceramic surround would be best for us. I don’t know what I want or where to start.


The diet is okay for the moment – I lost a pound this week and it’s been a while since that has happened. I have to take 8 classes at the gym in the three month time period to qualify for the challenge and I have to get in so many hours, 37 I think, and then they took weights and measurements at the beginning so all this will be looked at in December, about the 18th I think. No one like Jonas there but I have Nick at home if I start to blow it off.

Good news, bad news, better news

First the good news – I got a brand new lap top! I got my previous laptop just a few weeks after I found blogs and became hopelessly addicted to the whole spanko playground. That was about 3 ½ years ago. It was a really good computer and we went through some fine times together but it was past time for an upgrade. I wanted to avoid Vista if possible so I waited for windows 7. So far, so good, of course I have only been working with it for about 3 hours so I will be able to tell you more later. It’s a pretty thing, a Gateway, and the plug doesn’t have to be held in by one hand while you type with the other. So far I see that as a big improvement!

The bad new – stress at work hasn’t improved much. I had a colleague who has a BP machine check me Thursday after a meeting and it was 155/89 she was a bit worried and insisted I have the nurse check it again a little later. When I did it was 160/100. Sigh… I call my doctor and went in that afternoon; they got that same high reading. Now I’m on blood pressure medicine and I’m blaming it on the job. My mom did develop high BP but not until she was in her late 70’s. This is too soon and I don’t like it! Maybe when I lose more weight I can come off it. I’ll keep you posted.

Better news – Nick had been gone over night Friday and he hadn’t been home a half hour before he had out the dogging bat, had me over a chair and was asking questions about what time I had gotten in bed the night before (late), had I taken my vitamins (no) and had I made it to the gym Saturday (again, no). But in my defense, who knew he was going to ask! LOL! We didn’t have much time before Mollie was due home but I’ll have to say we did make the most of it!

I appreciate those of you who came by to read Fantasy Friday this week. It was fun writing it and I think Nick enjoyed it too! We will have another brand new Fantasy Friday again next week. When someone sends a new story I have to tell you it really brightens my day!

And one last thing, Cassie was whispering a story in my ear Saturday and I’ll have to say she had me chuckling. I think we’ll be hearing from her soon. So for today at least, I think the good news outweighs the bad!

Fantasy Friday - The Challenge, part two

Here is the conclusion of The Challenge. I hope you enjoy it. If you haven't read the first part go here or just scroll down.

The Challenge, part two

Annie resigned herself to her fate. She just hoped he would hurry. She wasn’t too worried about the pain but the embarrassment of submitting like this was paramount in her mind. Until Jonas’ first swat – suddenly pain was right in the front of her mind again.

“Owwww!!! THAT HURT’S!! Not so hard!” The sting was way more than she was expecting.

“What makes you think you have any control of this?” Jonas asked sternly. Spanking hurt and you will be doing all you can to avoid another one.”

The paddle descended again eliciting another howl. “There will me no more skipping sessions.”

At the third swat Annie began kicking. This was way more than she was expecting. Jonas ignored her except to put his leg over hers. “You are responsible for what you eat. Snacks at school and no excuse – you are a grown woman and you decide what you eat.”

Each spank was delivered with great force and right at the top of her thighs. Ten had seemed like a low number when Jonas had started but she hadn’t counted on them being this hard. Seven more seemed like a huge number! With each spank Jonas had a piece of advice.

- get more sleep

- don’t be so easily discouraged

- ask for help if you need it

- don’t be late

- remember that you deserve to be healthy

- ALWAYS read a contract before you sign it

Jonas paused before the last one. “One more to go Annie and you need to remember this – I’m going to be here caring about how you are doing until you start careing yourself.” With that thought he delivered the hardest swat yet and Annie found herself limp and sobbing over Jonas’ lap thinking that if it has been any longer she couldn’t have stood it. That man spanked HARD! She was trying to control her tears as Jonas helped her to her feet. He hugged her as she got control of herself.

“Do you understand now that this is not a game? It’s a chance for you to get some control back. You deserve to live a long, healthy life and that starts today. Now are you ready to get started?”

Annie rubbed at her backside – “I think I’m too sore to work out tonight.” She told him with a shy smile.

“I’ll be more than happy to provide more motivation if you think it’s necessary.” Jonas offered.

NO! No, really you’ve done plenty! I’m ready to work out, but maybe not the stationary bikes , okay?”

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Ten weeks later…

Annie woke up slowly in Jonas’ arms. This morning had been the final weigh-in, total loss in three months 27.4 pounds. She wasn’t sure whether she or Jonas was prouder. He had been true to his word and had been at her side the whole way. She couldn’t help thinking back to that first time he had spanked her. She had been in shock – and pain. That day she was sure she would never give him an excuse to spank her again but there had been a few times.

The next time she had blown up during a difficult training session and stormed out. Jonas has come looking for her and found her in the ice cream shop close by. She hadn’t been able to get the first lick of her double dip cone. Jonas had taken it right out of her hand and tossed it into the trash. Annie had been livid! She had told him exactly what she thought of him – to the entertainment of everyone in the shop. When she finally ran down Jonas took her hand and led her back to the gym.

She hadn’t been able to keep her pants on that time. Shorts and panties had come down – the evil paddle out and as she had had her say in the ice cream parlor Jonas had his say with the paddle. And it still hadn’t got her out of completing her work out that night, red rimmed eyes, sore bottom and all.

But over the months she and Jonas had grown closer and closer. He invited her running (well walking at first) and soon they had begun eating dinner together most every night. Annie was so happy. She knew how much Jonas cared for her.

But even with their closeness it hadn’t kept her from getting several penalties for being late – one of her biggest problems. Annie shuddered as she remembered the strap. The first time – five on her bare butt had kept her on time for two weeks but eventually old habits won out. That last strapping – all to her thighs – had done wonders for her tardiness problem!

But this morning’s weigh in was the best. She made her goal, got her $500 back and received a delicious kiss from Jonas in front of everyone. They soon found themselves back in Jonas’ office.

“You did it honey! I’m really proud of you.” Jonas kissed her again and Annie felt herself growing damp at his touch.

“I can’t believe it!! I know I’m not through but now I can work out without worrying about your nasty paddle. I’m glad that contract is OVER!” Annie sighed.

Jonas laughed. “Yes the contract’s over – I won’t be spanking you for breaking it. But now you’re really mine – and if you back slide or don’t do everything you can to take care of yourself you’ll see those past spankings as nothing more than love pats.”

“What do you mean, you can’t spank…” Jonas’ kiss stopped her in mid-sentence. ‘Oh what the hell’ Annie thought to herself as she melted into the kiss, ‘we’ll talk about it some other time’.

~~~o0o~~~

I firmly believe more of us would be in better shape if we could find some gym programs like this! But so far I haven't come across any. Like I said this story has been playing around in my mind for a while. I have joined a challenge at my gym - so far this hasn't been mentioned but I'll be sure to let you know.

I sure would like to hear from some of you - come on everyone, just one story!! Send any you are willing to share to elisspeaks@yahoo.com

Fantasy Friday - The Challenge

Happy Friday everyone! This is the last week this whole month that I have to work all five days. November is a good month for teachers!

A new story, we finally have a new story! Not that I haven't enjoyed reposting some of the older ones but it's time for some new stories. So how 'bout it folks? Are you listening?? New stories, I need new stories! But for the moment take a break from your writing and enjoy...

The Challenge

Annie stared at the mirror in disgust. How had this happened? At 24 how had she become a fat blob? She had had to work to keep her weight down in high school but college had really gotten her. The freshman 15 had become the sophomore 20 and on and on. Taking a teaching job so far away from friends and family didn’t help. Eating and vegging in front of the TV had become her main source of comfort and relaxation. She hated the weight, hated the feeling of lethargy, and she hate the feeling of sadness that overcame her when she passed a mirror. But try as she might nothing seemed to motivate herself to get started.

Until she saw the ad in the paper several days later. It was from the gym she passed on the way to work.

Three month weight loss challenge
No membership required
Improve your health and lose weight

Money back guarantee!

Hmmmm…. That could work, only 3 months, didn’t have to join for a year and your money back if it didn’t work. Now maybe this was worth a try. Annie called for an appointment.

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The appointment was for an information meeting in a group of about 15. An instructor walked in precisely at 6:00PM and began the program introduction. Annie hid a small smile at the sight of him. If this was the eye candy available she was pretty sure she would like this program. At 6:05 two women entered chatting quietly and the instructor turned to them.

“Excuse me ladies were you coming to the information meeting on the weight loss challange?”

“Yes” one answered smiling, “Are we in the right place.”

“No you aren’t. The meeting began at 6 and you weren’t here. This program only accepts serious applicant. Being late tells me you are not serious. Good day.”

Every mouth in the room fell open at the man’s rudeness. The two women stared at him nonplus before coloring slightly and leaving with out another word. The instructor began again.

“My name is Jonas. I have an excellent program to offer but as you just heard me explain I will only be working with people that are committed to what they are doing. Not all of you will be accepted but those that are will reach their goal.”

“Who decided on what that goal is?” a woman from the back asked the question Annie was wondering about.

“At your private assessment we will decide on that goal together. We want to push you but the goal has to be realistic and obtainable. Only when we come to a mutual decision will you be able to sign a contract.”

“Contract?” another woman asked. “What kind of contract?”

“This is a strict program” Jonas explained, “You will be required to come to the gym for a minimum of one hour a day, 6 days a week for the duration. It you can’t make it call to let us know and plan on staying an extra hour the next day. You will have some required classes, access to a private trainer and a nutritionist. There will be required weekly weigh in, motivational sessions when necessary and penalties for not complying with the contract.”
‘Geeze’, Annie thought to herself ‘this sounds more like boot camp that a gym program’. But at the same time she was excited. This could work!

“You haven’t told us how much this is going to cost.” Came another inquiry.

“That’s right I haven’t” he agreed “before I tell you the cost I want you to know that this program works. It’s not cheap and it’s not easy – but it works. The cost for the three months is $500.”

Five hundred dollars??

Was he out of his friggin mind? Annie heard muttering and chair scraping all around her as 7 women got up and left. ‘I might as well go with them’ Annie thought. Her entire fortune at this point consisted of $575 in savings and her $85 in checking. But she was hooked now and she had to know what he was going to say next.

Jonas made no effort to stop any of the women from leaving. He waited quietly for the room to settle and then continued. “Well now I know who is serious.”

Annie couldn’t keep her mouth shut any longer. “I can’t afford this program but I have to know one thing, you said a money back guarantee. Are you saying that if we follow all your rules and still don’t lose all the weight we get that money back?”

“No ma’am our money back guarantee is a little different. The challenge is only with yourself and at the end of three months if you have met or exceeded your goal then you get your money back – all of it.”

~~0~~

Her assessment had been a trial. One hundred eighty-five pounds! She was horrified. Jonas himself had been taking her measurements with an assistant writing down one horrible number after another.

“You need to lose around 55 pounds. Not” he stressed “in 3 months but that should be your over all goal. Based on what you have told me about your current eating habits and your lack of any physically activity, with work on your part you can lose 25 pounds or more during this program. You will be required to lose two pounds every week. Even if you lose 3 one week, you will still have two pound goal for the next week.”

“What if I mess up one week and don’t lose that much. Does that mean I blow my chance to get my money back?”

“Annie” he said looking intently at her. (Damn he had beautiful eyes!) “My goal is to have you improve your health and lose some weight. I also want you to get your money back. If you don’t make goal one week or miss a day at the gym you will have penalties and you may have to come to motivational sessions, but if you lose 25 pounds in 3 weeks you get your money back.”

“Now here is your contract. Read it all and read it carefully. If you decide you can live with the terms and conditions it spells out be here at or before 5 PM Monday with the signed contract and $500 in cash ands we’ll get started. Don’t be late.”

Annie had debated with herself all weekend but by Monday the decision was made. She left school at 3:30 – to the bank for the money and on to the gym. She hadn’t read the entire contract but she felt she could trust Jonas and she knew she HAD to get that money back. What better motivation could their possible be? Grabbing contract and cash she headed into the gym.

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Annie loved her first two weeks at the gym! Sore! Sore wasn’t the word for it!! She was so sore she couldn’t move but it felt wonderful. It was new, it was exciting, she was meeting new people and best of all Jonas had seemed to take a special interest in her. He worked with her, pushed her, and encouraged her. And everything paid off. Saturday morning of the first week – 9:00AM weigh in and a loss of 3.2 pounds!!

“Fantastic!” was Jonas’ response as she stepped off the scale. “I knew you could do it! I’m proud of you.” He told her with a smile and a hug. But remember – another 2 pounds next week. You can’t slack off any. And she hadn’t! Saturday morning of the second week showed her down another 2.4!! Jonas’ smile was again a thing of beauty and his hugs were addictive! You know what works now Annie. But keep at it, week three comes hard.

And it did. Everything seemed to conspire against her. Three birthday parties at school – true she could have refused the cupcake but they were home made and delicious. Her parents came by to take her to supper Wednesday and she didn’t even make it to the gym.

Thursday afternoon Jonas was waiting on her, he didn’t look happy.

“Where were you yesterday?”

For a split second Annie was flattered that he had even noticed her absence but the look on his face didn’t keep her flattered for long.

“You’ll be staying an extra hour to make up for it tonight and you’ll be working with me.” he stated shortly.

Annie’s temper faired suddenly. “Who died and left you boss!” she shouted. “I don’t have to stay here and be treated like this!” Annie felt tears of anger coming as she turned quickly to leave the gym.

Jonas was right behind her as she reached the door and he grabbed her hand. “Is this temper tantrum really worth $500? Annie the middle of week three is early for a motivational session but I know you need it. Come with me please.”

Annie let herself be lead to Jonas’ office. “Now what’s going on?” he asked kindly.

The kindness in his voice took her by surprise and took the edge off her anger. “I’m blowing it” she told him truthfully. “I did so well the last two weeks but this week we have had snacks all over school. My folks took me out to eat and ordered dessert and everything. I missed a day exercising and I know I’m not going to make the two pound goal this week.” Annie was felt herself tearing up as she continued. “I know I won’t be able to do this. Nothing ever works! I’m going to be fat forever!”

Jonas closed the door and turned to her. He looked very stern this time. “I’m not listening to this. I think we need to address this right now.”

With no explanation or warning Jonas took Annie’s hand and led her to the couch. With one firm tug Annie found herself over his lap.

“What are you doing?!” Annie shouted. “Let me go! What’s wrong with you, you jerk! Get your hands off me.”

Jonas acted as though he hasn’t heard a work. Annie’s protests were ignored as he began a hard warm-up spanking with his hand. “You need to be quiet” Jonas said in a quite firm voice “you had to know this was coming. Three weeks into a three month program and you’re ready to give up. I think I am beginning to see your problem. You give up on yourself. That’s not going to happen any more.”

“Know it was coming … are you crazy! Let me go, what gives you the right to do this to me?” she demanded.

Jonas continued to spank hard – Annie tried to stay quiet, not wanting to give him the satisfaction of knowing how badly he was hurting her but she couldn’t help crying out at the hard pops. Finally Jonas helped her to her feel and stepped over to his desk. Annie nearly headed for the door but she wanted an explanation! Her bottom hurt from the impromptu spanking and she rubbed it vigorously. “Who the hell do you think you are?”

“First let me tell you who you are.” Jonas said as he held a paper out for her to take, “you are a young woman who signs a contract without reading it. Would you care to read the clause I just circled in red?”

Annie took the paper and read it swiftly. Good grief! Right there between the gym hours and the rules for proper attire:

• Motivational sessions will be given at the discretion of the instructor. A motivational session will use corporal punishment to encourage the participant to work harder and to maintain a good attitude. A wooded paddle will be used with a minimum of 10 swats and not to exceed 50 in one motivational session. (Not including a warm-up) Corporal punishment may be given over clothing or on the bear at the discretion of the instructor.

• Penalties may be occurred for missing sessions, tardiness, bad language, rude or abusive behavior toward the instructor. Penalties will be given with a leather strap and always on the bare. Penalties will build up to 5 before they will be given. No more that 10 in a give day.

Annie continued to stare at the words and at her initials beside them.

“Did you not sign this contract?” Jonas asked.

“Yes, but I didn’t…”

“Read it?” Jonas supplied. You should be spanked for signing a contract without reading it. Very dangerous. See what it’s gotten you into?

“You can’t spank me! You can’t be serious, I won’t let you!”

“Of course that’s up to you. You can leave right now but you will be breaking your contract and you’ll be forfeiting your $500.”

Annie started at him a moment longer. She couldn’t lose that money! How had she been stupid enough to get herself in this trap?

“I can’t afford to lose the money” she said quietly, not really believing what she was agreeing to.

“I understand” Jonas told her “Let’s get started. “Please bring me the paddle in the right hand drawer.

With a shaking hand Annie opened the drawer. The paddle looked wicked. She brought it over. He handed it to Jonas who in turn handed her a small towel. “Keep both hands on the towel” he told her. “I don’t want you reaching back. I don’t want to hit your hand by mistake.”

He pulled her gently down on his lap once again. “Annie you are going to receive 10 and I am letting you keep your shorts on. But if this has to happen again it will be more swats and it will be on the bare. Do you understand?”

“Yes” Annie managed to say. She was feeling major relief. Ten, how bad could just ten be she thought. She quickly found out.



To be continued

~~oo0oo~~

So you may not want to wait until tomorrow for the rest of the story but geeze folk do you know how long I've been waiting for a new story? You might have guessed that I wrote this story. The idea has been in my head for a long time and I finally decided to get it written. I hope you will come back tomorrow for the rest of the story.

No news

Not must new today -

No spanking news.

None in the foreseeable future.

Nick is going out of town this weekend.

No spanking, no lovin'.

Mollie is taking her SAT Saturday.

I have no real plans.

I hope to have time to write.

One piece of good news - Brand new Fantasy Friday tomorrow. Hope everyone will come by.

Hope I have a better post sometime in the near future.

Real life and diet update

Real life came along and smacked us right in the face! We were hoping to do a bathroom make over next summer, however the bathroom decided it didn’t want to wait. The shower and tub are out of commission – did I mention we only have the one? I mean Grace has this problem but at least they do have another shower. I think it’s an evil plot by Nick to make sure I go to the gym every day – just so I’ll have a place to shower. This is going to be a complete gut job – do you know how long that could take. Grrrrrrrrrrr…

Not much news on the diet front. I did lose .2 according to the scales. I guess that’s pretty much staying the same. I did make it to the gym 4 times last week and I made it to one core class. I’ve been enjoying Mollie’s Wii a lot so much that Nick got me the Wii fit plus last Friday as an early birthday gift. I really hope to see loss this week – cross your fingers.

Of course Nick has his own brand of humor. We got it home Friday – I got the beginning of my spanking and then as you remember Mollie came home. Oh well, I had my new Wii to play with. I started to get it out of the box when Nick stopped me. He said “Just leave that in the box for the time being, I have a new game for you first.”

I was clueless until he pointed to the door “Before Wii fit” he said “we rake.” Nothing like a funny husband.