Not sure, but I have decided to be patient and let things move at Nick’s pace. I like the feeling, but I also know that sometimes Nick really steps up and sometimes he just kinda lets everything go. This time I really have hope – don’t know why, but I do. He gave me such a good spanking he other day, it was like a tiny light came back on in my head. I just hope it grows stronger instead of fading out.
I stayed the same on weight this week so he gave me the choice of going an extra day to the gym next week or to go walking Saturday afternoon and maintenance. I chose the walk and maintenance. We took the walk, but there was nothing else – no maintenance. So I wonder, is he waiting until today or did he forget? I am working on not over thinking – something damn near impossible for me, but I’m trying.
I thought I’d give a school update. It’s not as bad as I feared. Although it’s a 4 person team, I really only have contact with Megan. Mr. K and Ms. T seem fine together and I just stay in my room most of the time. I miss teaching math, but at the same time, teaching social studies is much more relaxing.
In math they had to understand a concept before I could move on, but it was so hard for some and I still had to move on – big test at the end of the year to see if they did ‘get it’. It felt like there was so much pressure, on them and on me. I feel like I can relax some and have more fun with the class. Right now we are talking about ancient Mesopotamia – they don’t have to get it to function in life. We can go at a slower pace, and do artwork and projects. It’s different.
Friday we (each teacher in the school) were each given an ipad. It’s ‘ours’ as long as we work at that school. It’s cool for sure, but I don’t see how it’s going to help me teach. I mean I know how much the Internet can help – but I have the compute at home and at school. The one at school is hooked up to my screen so I can project it to the class. Sooo… I’m not as excited as I could be, it does belong to the school so I’m not going to feel comfortable visiting my sites or writing on it any. We’ll see, you all can give me some ideas.