Is it time to panic yet?

I think it may be. Wednesday, when the book comes out, I will pretty much have outted myself to most of my friends. My best friend in real life knows, as does my sister. They were both highly amused when I told them. I’ve told a few others and no one has been ugly or negative about it. But I realize now that many of my friends know I write and that my book is coming out, but they don’t know what it’s about. Not everyone at works knows, of course, only those I trust. But I have to wonder are they really going to be shocked? They probably think I’m just writing about hot, steamy sex – that everyone considers normal, but spanking? That may be too much for some of them.

I’m so very comfortable with what I write; I know I’ve become complacent.  I’ve had the joy of talking with so many of you out here for seven years about spanking, domestic discipline, the works. It all seems so totally and completely normal, that I’m afraid I’ve put out of my mind how very shocked some of my friends might be.

I’m not really worried, I mean, so they’re shocked – so what? That’s a feeling that has come about slowly over these seven years. If my mom were still alive, I don’t know if I’d have felt comfortable publishing. I know I wouldn’t, didn’t, feel comfortable when my children were teenagers. But since both of them are adults, they’ve told me they’re adults, and I agree with them, so they're going to have to deal with the fact that I’m an adult too.

I’ve been careful when telling my friends, as well as family members, that the book is not for everyone. I’ve told them that they might find it amusing, some might find it sexy, and others will be offended. I’ve told them, “I’m not recommending the book, I’m merely telling you it’s there if you’re interested.  My feeling won’t be hurt if you don’t want to read it.”  That ought to get them to try it, don’t you think? LOL! I am curious about their reaction! I know what spankos like to read. I know many out here really do like Cassie – but what will a vanilla think?

You can trust me; I’ll let you know what these people says for sure. My publisher at Lazy Day asked me before she put the book up on NetGalley. It’s a site you can join and review books before they even come out. She said it might give the book more exposure, but that I might need a thick skin – I sometimes forget not everyone who reads is one of us.

I keep taking deep breaths, one minute I’m strong and confident and the next I’m a towering mass of jelly. Oh well, it keeps life exciting.