I have been a wife and mother for over twenty years. Now I am becoming my husband's lover, too.
We owe it all to my fellow bloggers who gave me the courage to come out to my husband as a spanko.
I do feel like this is a New Beginning for us.

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Sunday, February 03, 2013

I'm gonna hush

I like to post on Sunday.  I can usually write a post on Saturday and get it ready for the next day.  That’s what I did yesterday.  I spent a lot of time on it and I think it pretty much said what I’ve been feeling.  But I’m not posting it.  Not right now.  I’m tired of talking about what I need. Tired of wondering how to explain.  Tired of feeling like a whiny bitch.  I don’t know what I want to say any more so I’ll shut up for a while.  I’m not going anywhere, this is my home, but I need to hush until I’m in a better place.


  1. (((Hugs))) PK. I hope you are feeling in a better place soon.


  2. PK, you have to do what is best for you so if you want to hush for a while, that is OK.

    But never think of yourself as a whiny bitch. The point of blogging is to give people a chance to express their thoughts without fear of being judged. Your feelings are your feelings and expressing them doesn't make you a whiny bitch. Anyway, like Roz, I hope you are in a better place very soon and we'd all like to give you hugs.


  3. PK,
    the tail end of Winter can get anyone down.
    I hope that things look up for you soon.
    Love and warm hugs,

  4. Echoing what everyone has said above...and adding another hug. Thinking of you, Terps

  5. Take all the time you need. We will be here when you get ready. Lots of hugs coming your way.


  6. FD is right.

    Don't hush up for too long.

    Love and hugs,

  7. I hope you get to a better place soon, and please don't hush for too long. We need your voice contributing to the conversation.

  8. Hugs, dear PK.

    Sometimes when we are overwhelmed with what we need and what we want...

    If we let it go and forgive ourselves for having needs...

    We are better able to forgive others for not being able to fulfill them.

    Much love.

  9. Anonymous4:46 PM

    I hope things get better hugs

  10. Ahh, sending you a hug. You are rock and staple. I understand about not wanting to whine too much, but this is also your outlet. Trust your heart and we are here.

  11. Hugs...if quiet is what you want or need, that is fine. But if you need to whine...we are here for that also. Sometimes letting it out is better than letting it eat you up...

  12. Anonymous6:05 PM

    :( So sorry you are having a rough time right now, PK.

    Silence can be good, sometimes. It's a time for both partners to contemplate.

    Hang in there!

    Elisa Xo

  13. Anonymous7:44 PM

    You aren't whiny, PK - you express yourself very well - we love that. Don't stay quiet too long, sweetie.

  14. PK -

    You are definitely not whiny, but if you feel it is better for you to pull back for a bit, that is totally understandable.

    Sending positive energy your way that you find you better place soon. Sending lots of warm hugs also.


  15. Thanks guys - love you all. I'm fine, just need to think.

  16. Anonymous6:07 AM

    I love your blog! I'm glad you share what you're feeling. Hope you don't feel like you have to be quite for too long.

  17. How else are we going to know hy you feel if you don't express yourself?
    Sit back a bit and reflect on what you want and then come back here and then tell us what you think.
    We may not have an answer for you but we do make good sounding boards. :)


  18. Sometimes we have to do what is right for ourselves - just don't hush for too long, okay. The community is here for you when you're ready to talk! (HUGS)

  19. Anonymous10:45 AM

    ((hugs)) PK!