I have been a wife and mother for over twenty years. Now I am becoming my husband's lover, too.
We owe it all to my fellow bloggers who gave me the courage to come out to my husband as a spanko.
I do feel like this is a New Beginning for us.

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Sunday, March 04, 2012

A week of lows and highs

I’ve had an interesting week. Good or bad, I’m not completely sure. I’ve been feeling pretty bad about the weight loss program lately. I hadn’t been recording my point for WW, I hadn’t been exercising, and I’d started overeating just a little. I was very down about it and although it’s not usually something I’d do, I sent Nick an email telling him all this. I knew I needed his help and I was hoping that he would spank me to help snap me back into a better frame of mind. This was last Wednesday. He answered my email, thanking me for letting him know and telling me we’d talk about it.

I had a workshop after school that day and, as usual, when I finally escaped after five, there was steam coming out of my ears. I didn’t want to bring the feelings home with me. I tried to mostly put it out of my mind, but deep down I was really hoping Nick would be there ready to spank me hard enough to pull my thoughts back to ‘us’ where they belong. Around eight that evening I was in the kitchen when Nick came in and picked up a wooden spoon. I got a few light swats on the bottom and a suggestion to go to the gym more. I couldn’t help it, I was hurt, I was angry and I was beyond frustrated! Do you think I let Nick know what I was feeling - of course not!

I spent the evening acting pleasant while mentally composing scathing posts and emails in my mind. I was still upset when I went to bed, I didn’t want to cuddle and I stayed on my edge of the bed. I’m happy to say that age has brought me some wisdom; I’m working on letting Nick do things in his own time. His time frame and mine aren’t always the same. By the next morning I had calmed down. Decided to stop ranting in my head and do as Nick had said before – don’t be so impatient. I did start recording my WW points again and I even decided to walk the next afternoon. Nick joined me and I knew I wasn’t mad any more.

On my Friday weigh in I was down just over half a pound, better than I had thought. When I got home from school, before I could get on the computer, Nick came into the living room carrying the leather strap. He said he hadn’t said much about my not following through on the WW, but he did not want me to let it go again. He was saying all this while strapping my bottom hard! He might not have known it, but he was getting a happier wife with each stroke.

He really does want me to exercise at least a little each day and he said I’d need to do that Saturday. I swear it would be easier to give up eating completely. We were busy Saturday morning and then I was dying to get to some writing and we were going out with friends for supper. I hadn’t exactly gotten around to the exercise part of the day. I stepped next door to give something to one of our neighbors and, of course, we ended up chatting for a good while. When I came back home I came in deliberately panting. Nick looked at me curiously and I said “I’ve been talking with neighbor and we did jumping Jacks the whole time!” Hmmmm… I don’t think he believed me.

It was about that time I noticed he had never taken the strap back to the bedroom. Nick said “You know that there are penalties for lying to your husband, don’t you?” And I got a few good swats to make sure I did know. Again… happy wife! I suppose we’ll never be on exactly the same page at the same time. I doubt I’ll ever be spanked as often or as hard as I’d sometimes like to be. But we’ve been doing this a while now and Nick has never given up on me. I drug him into this, into the role of spanker when it was never something he asked for and yet he has not stopped trying to give me what I want and need. I think that makes him pretty special.

Although I don’t believe he ever read the post about what I bought, at least he never said anything about it, and I haven’t had the nerve to bring it up. I guess we have another dust collector.


  1. PK, so what did you buy.
    Good to hear that Nick is coming through for you.
    Love and warm hugs,

  2. Yes, he is pretty special. He is so special that you should mention the hot creams to him. What is the worst thing that could happen? Even if he did nothing, you'd be where you are right now. And if he did do something, you'd be happier. So why don't you go for it. Tell him FD was bugging you to tell him.


  3. Good for you. Glad Nick stepped up. I know I am always happy when hubby steps up without me asking. It is amazing how much happier we are with our bottoms warmed.

  4. Sorry you had such an up and down week. Hope next week is better for you :)

    Maybe if you left the "something" you bought somewhere Nick will see it and will ask about it, then you can tell him about it or direct him to your post.

    Or you could hit him over the head with it, lol.

  5. Good for Nick and good for you:)

    So now are you going to tell us what you bought?


  6. I'm new to receiving spankings and wasn't sure how I would feel about them. But I'm still amazed at how I feel happier after every spanking! I think a lot of women out there are shocked at the idea and would feel just the opposite. But a good spanking can pull me out of any foul mood!

  7. ohh sorry to read about your week....glad that Nick stepped up though.....hope it continues...funny how it makes us so much more happy content and settled isnt it? The Weight Watchers journey can get like that at times and i find sometimes having to break it down even as small as one meal at a time helps....:) good luck, im about finished my first week (im scared of weigh in tomorrow - ive made a few mistakes in my pointing :(

    OK what was it that you bought????

  8. Awww Paul,
    I’ll get around to that eventually.

    He knows about the creams, at least I’ve told him. It’s my new idea I haven’t mentioned to him.

    You’re right those times are always the best – when it come without our asking.

    I could leave it where he’d trip over it, LOL! (sorry private joke) I know I should just ask him to read, but honestly – if Musicman wrote a blog telling you exactly how he felt about life and telling your exactly what he needed, could wild animals keep you from reading it? It hurts my feelings when he doesn’t.

    Yeah, I’ll probably get around to it.

    I’m so glad you’re here as part of our community. I remember wondering if the real think would live up to my fantasies or would a spanking just hurt. I found out both things were true it hurt and it was wonderful. I hope you’ll be by often.

    I wish you the best of luck! Let us know how you do.

  9. I was waiting for an email about that thing you bought....

    Also, I'm working on a mind-reading device....I'm sure I'll have it ready any day now. I'll let Nick be the first to try it!


  10. Grace,
    I'm so excited about your invention! I'd like to pre-order two. I don't want to read his mind, but I want him to have a spare in case the first one breaks.

  11. No wild animals would not keep me from reading it. It would hurt my feelings if Musicman stopped reading my blog, I've already told him that. He assures me he will keep reading even though he never comments about anything I write.

  12. I am glad you got some of what you needed. I am relatively new to getting spanked but I already get cranky when I am not getting them as often as I would like....which is about everyday.

  13. I'm glad Nick is following through for you and trying so hard, how wonderful for you two!

    Good luck with WW! It's great you have him to help you with it.