I have been a wife and mother for over twenty years. Now I am becoming my husband's lover, too.
We owe it all to my fellow bloggers who gave me the courage to come out to my husband as a spanko.
I do feel like this is a New Beginning for us.

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Monday, April 26, 2010

Just don't say it!

I had a good weekend. I got to see LJ – the three of us went down for a graduation dinner given by the theater department. Collin was there too and my sister and BIL. The dinner was fine and then we all went to a play. The play – hmmmm… what can I say about the play? I didn’t know anyone in it but my niece was the stage manager, aren’t we a theatrical family? I think the stage management was fantastic but I didn’t understand one bit of the play. Mostly there were at least 4 people talking at once, usually yelling. I wasn’t too impressed with the content.

What else is going on… not much. Remember what this blog is supposed to be about. Someone remind me – connection, communication, spanking, not so much these days. Not that we aren’t friendly and all but I still wish we were clicking. Is Nick leaving me alone because my work is so stressful right now? Is his work too stressful? Are we both just tired? And please, please don’t tell me to communicate, just don't say it – as much as I love you all, if one more person tell me to communicate I’m coming through the computer and strangle them!!

I blog for pity sake – I have communicated until I’m blue in the face! Okay, not specifically in the past few weeks but nothing about what I think is best for our marriage has changed significantly in the past 4 years and I don’t know what else to say. I know, I know – Nick and I have to talk. And I’m sure we will but I’m just not up to it right now. Maybe when my job is not so stressful, or his isn’t or we’re not so tired…


  1. I am not saying anything, no worries ;-)

    I am not an expert in relationships anyway...

    Just wanted to let you know how much I enjoy your post.

  2. I'm not saying anything either! :)

    Life! Gets in the way sometimes.


    Debbie :)

  3. PK, I will only say, I hope that things work out soon.
    Love to the four of you.
    Love and warm hugs,

  4. PK: I suspected you were building up to a post like this one because you hadn't mentioned any spankings lately so I figured they weren't happening.

    But I'm not going to suggest anything. Hey, what do I know? And don't want to tempt you to leap out of the screen and grab my neck. LOL. You haven't lost your sense of humor.

    Hey, just keep blogging about whatever you want to. Your friends will be happy to read whatever you have to say on any topic.

    Just count your blessings and remember we all care about you.

    And, hey great that you got a new FF. I'm off to read it now.

    Cyberhugs, FD

  5. If...and this is hypothetical....IF I were to mention communication AND you were to reach through your computer...into mine and strangle me....

    Would that mean you could stay for awhile?

    Cuz how many times have YOU told me to email????

    I'm just saying....


  6. PK, I think you just need to comm...er... are those hands coming out of my computer screen?

    I can't answer this situation, but I do believe that you and Nick have something special, and when you two weather this storm (or calm as it is), you will both be back to your usual selves.


  7. PK life does happen. DD is definitely a rollercoaster. :)

  8. Lawyer,
    Thanks for coming by. I'm glad you enjoy my posts. Now I wish I could get back on topic for you!

    It sure the heck does!

    I really think that they will we have a 4 year record now of coming back to spanking I just feel so down when it leaves.

    Thanks I really don't want to choke you - you're too good a friend. I do like blogging even off topic. I just like visiting.

    I still think its a good idea for YOU! I'm just discourage with the whole lifestyle at the moment. But If I did come by to choke you I'd would be sure to have a nice long visit before.

    Nick IS special and I know he wants me to be happy. But I still don't think he is completely comfortable with anything but fun and erotic - and not much of that lately.

    roller-coaster is a good word for it all!

  9. Life is never easy, and neither is saying what you think you should be saying, even if it's to the person nearest and dearest to you.

    So, blog about whatever you like! Maybe TV, vegetables, crafts, the wonderful Sunday meals you get to enjoy that make the rest of us envious.... We still love coming here to visit you.


  10. I check your blog each and every day. Lulls happen in every relationship,as you said things are a bit stressful job wise for both of you. Try (I know it's hard)to be patient this to will pass,and things WILL get better. :)

  11. Hermione,
    It seems it should be easy to talk to the ones you love so much but it's really not. I wonder why that is.

    At least my job give me a long break. Maybe that will help. Thanks for coming by.

  12. uhhuh, yes, I hear you...