You’re going to have to go way back in my post to find one about spanking. It stinks, but I made an effort about a year ago to stop pestering Nick about TTWD. There were a few stray swats and Nick’s always been willing to spank a little when he wanted sex, but other wise he seemed content that I wasn’t on his back about it.
I’ve been okay, I when back to ‘what I know’ that is living in my head. We get alone well, no fussing or fighting or hard feelings. Sometimes I get down – but not too much. But for whatever reason I sent him an email this weekend pointing out one inconsistency that had been bothering me. Nearly a year ago we talked about things we needed from one another. He wanted me to initiate sex more and I wanted him to spank more. He made a ‘rule’ that on the first weekend of each month I was in charge of planning a sex-capade, wild or simple – it didn’t matter as long as I planned it. Baring the time we were injured I’ve done it. Not always elaborate, but always fun. He, on the other hand didn’t do any more spanking.
I pointed this out to him in the email and a few other things and asked him to give it all some thought. He emailed back saying we might talk about it sometime. That was okay, there were other things in the email that needed immediate attention so his answer was appropriate, but now I’m wondering – do I bring it up again or wait on him? I could use his help, but I won’t beg. We often talk about building walls, personally I seen the necessity of walls. You can’t just leave yourself completely vulnerable if the person you want to help you just can’t do it. You need protection. I’m not sure exactly what I want to happen, but I’m keeping an open mind and I have my fingers crossed.
I'm invited to talk to Patty Devlin today, it should be up about 4 AM, EST.