I don’t know what is wrong with me. Usually when I am down I know why. The reasons might be silly to anyone but me but at least I know what they are. Things are very well with Nick and me. LJ was cast for a play for next semester and he is very happy. Mollie is doing well in high school and is on the track team. Work is going fine. All is well yet I have been fighting depression for several days now. I have been close to tears several times over absolute nothing. Then today I had a kid tell me to ‘F*** off’ but that didn’t even faze me. We have a new boss and I knew he wouldn’t do anything about it so I just wouldn’t let myself get worked up over it.
But about the time I got off work today I just felt awful, depressed, out of it, not myself. I hate feeling this way. I came home crawled under a blanket and went to sleep. When I woke up I went to the gym out of habit and I went through the motions but I really wasn’t into it. I am not really complaining this doesn’t happen often and it usually doesn’t last long but I really wish I knew what caused it.