I found myself feeling sad all day today and I could put my finger on why. I talked to Eva about it (as usual) but 'why' would not surface. I got emails from Mthc and Carye too. But it wasn’t until I got home and read Cassie comments that the reason for my sadness hit me. I had talked to Eva about this but I didn’t know it was still bothering me.
I am sad that so many of my friends have gone private. I am not saying that they shouldn’t have! I know these women very well and the reasons they have are extremely valid and I think each of them did exactly the right thing. I am not saying one word against them but I am remembering when I first began reading and commenting our here. I got hooked hard and fast when I found blogs. I was getting up early and going to bed late as I cruised around reading blogs, comments, responses to comments – everything (now remember it was summer and I had a lot of time on my hands!)
I remember early on, I think I had only had my blog for a week or two, when Bonnie posted that she was taking a break for a short time. I was devastated! I mean poor Bonnie was only taking a vacation for a few weeks but I was so upset that she wasn’t going to be there daily for me. Okay, granted I was too obsessed but I can just imagine how I would have felt if 3 or 4 of my favorite blogs had gone private at that time. I would have been crushed, and if I had only started reading a few months ago what wonderful friends I would have missed.
So I am sad, not for me, I am one of the lucky ones. I can read the blogs that have gone private, I can email these friends. I am sad for Denise and all the other lurkers that had come to know them through their blogs but now are shut out. Not because of anything they have done but just because of how things are.
There is one thing I can say to lurkers – come out and talk to us. Those folks that have to go private for various reasons couldn't invite you if they didn't know you were here. As close as I feel to my friends here – and these are some of my best friends in the world now I did not know any of them existed 18 months age. It took commenting and ‘talking’ and I have loved every minute of it.
At this time I am not planning to go private. If I should run into any of the problems my friends have I guess I will. But you know, if someone I know finds my blog all they will really ‘discover’ is that I love my husband, we enjoy a happy, active sex life, and I like being spanked. The first two I hope people assume the latter might give them a giggle but I just don’t think that is so out of the main stream to be really shocking.
I guess the real reason I am here is to make friends with folks who are interested in spanking, I want folks to know that there are a lot of us out here and there is nothing strange about it. I guess I have ranted enough for one day. But if you are reading please let me know.