I have been a wife and mother for over twenty years. Now I am becoming my husband's lover, too.
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Thursday, February 04, 2016

Warning: Pity party ahead

Please feel free to skip me today- I’m going to whine a bit and you’re the friends I whine to, aren’t you lucky?

I’m sick of not feeling good. I first began feeling bad in Nov. I was having muscle cramps all over, night sweats, coughing, so tired all the time and when I finally went to the doctor. She managed to fix the cough, but told me about the diabetes.

I’ve done pretty well with that. I’m doing really well about staying away from the things I should avoid, not quite so well at eating the
things I should. Veggies and I still aren’t good friends, but at least we nod and speak once and a while. I was even beginning to do a little more exercising. And then I get slammed with another cold – and it was a doozie. Thankfully, when I felt the worst I out for the snow storm and I stayed home and rested.

Then, as I was beginning to feel better I started wheezing – I’ve never wheezed, but it was driving me nuts. I didn’t feel that bad, and I didn’t feel out of breath at all, but the sound of it made me crazy! I have a good ear and a bad ear, falling asleep at night I just bury my good ear in the pillow and I never heard a thing – however, it amplifies the wheezing!

Ugg! Back to the doctor and she gives me an inhaler. Great. But it has seemed to help, unfortunately I have the cough back. I’m sore from coughing and annoyed with all the problems that accompany coughing at my age. I’ve even managed to give this cold to Nick. I’m sure he’s thrilled with me. We’re both feeling pretty draggy.

Because of all this there has been no spanking at our house and no sex either – and worst of all I haven’t even missed it. I would at least like the desire back. (I told you this was a pity party and you should have gone elsewhere to read.)


All right some good news, my sugar is staying between 105 and 120 and I’ve lost about nine pounds in the last six weeks. Slow and steady they say. I know the cold has to go away some time and once Nick and I are feeling better I’m sure other things will pick up. Until then – I miss you. This is all I have to write about, so I haven’t been posting much. You’ll hear more from me here and in comments as I start feeling better. You know me I can’t keep my mouth shut long.

22 comments:

  1. Aww PK, I'm so sorry you are feeling poorly and that you got another cold. I can relate to the wheezing, I have an inhaler.

    I can relate to being over feeling like crap too. My neck and back muscles have seized up tight and I've had a constant headache for some time. Back to physio, sigh. I'm hoping he will relieve the headache fast!

    Sorry, didn't mean to come here and vent. I love the positivity in your last sentence and that is wonderful news about the eating and weight loss. Go you! Keep up the good work :)

    I hope you and Nick are both feeling much better soon. I'm sure the desire will then return, along with other things :)

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. You are most welcomed to vent here. We need venting at times to release pressure. I hope physio helps you better. I think one more weekend to rest will help here.

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  2. Hi Pk, I am sorry you are feeling so rough, I think you may have sent me the cold both times! I can't seem to get better either. Is it the time of year maybe? You are doing amazing to lose weight at the same time though so keep on going . don't let the diabetes get worse. I hope the desire comes back soon , that is the most depressing part I imagine.
    Can you swing some sick days off school, that might help ;)
    lots of love and sympathy to you both
    Jan,xx

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    1. I promise I washed my hand before I posted this! I'm happy with the weight loss so far. I hope I can keep it up. Hope you feel better too.

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  3. This is definitely a bad case of the winter blues! Besides feeling like crap, there are short, gray days with not enough sun. You and Nick need to plan a long weekend somewhere nice.

    I know you say you are not much of a drinker, but Dr. Ella says a hot toddy would do you a world of good.

    Besides, 9 pounds in 6 weeks is amazing. For goodness sake, you should feel so proud of yourself, PK!

    Hugs From Ella

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    1. You're right, a hot toddy might help, if I knew exactly how to make it. I am happy with my weight loss and I'll be thrilled when the days get longer.

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  4. Whine away my friend,,,and your health woes will get better, I i wll concentrate on the good...no the great news. Nine pounds!!! And good sugar readings!! Major accomplishments...proud of you. Keep that up...and the rest will get better...
    hugs abby

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    1. I know the cold has to leave sometime and hopefully by then I'll really feel lots better.

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  5. If whining helps, then do it. We must have the same cough, it seems to be going on forever and it makes me wheeze too, which is unusual for me. I almost borrowed P's inhaler. Great news on the sugar levels. P has T2 and his isn't good and the doc has called him in today. So keep up the good work on the weight
    hugs
    DF

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    1. This cough is rough - I think it's getting better, but at least once a day it seems to grab me and I hate it. I hope yours goes away soon and I hope P's sugar goes down.

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  6. Those sugars are fantastic!!!! Remember losing weight and eating this way is perfect for getting rid of Type II!
    I on the other hand am not doing well! Doc is not pleased. I've gained weight and my sugars will be off. Therefore I am back on a strict regime of basic veg and protein!
    I'm so happy for you!
    I'm sorry about the cold, however I bet as you get healthier you won't get as many colds!

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    1. I'm happy about my numbers right now. I hope I can keep them that way. I haven't been exercising much these last two weeks but maybe I can start again. I hope you get your sugar under control soon.

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  7. So very proud of you friend. Great news on the weight and on the sugar #'s. They're great and don't go letting them

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  8. I should do this stuff in the dark. Sorry about the abrupt end. Anyway, don't let the cold get you down. It seems to be prevalent everywhere and just when you think it's gone for good - it's back. Glad the inhaler helps.

    Ray has a cold now and I'm staying far away from him. Maybe I'll send him to your house.

    Anyway, good news friends and don't let anything else get you down. Just think spring is just around the corner.

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    1. Spring can't get here soon enough! Send Ray on - we can all sneeze and cough together. The cold is bound to go soon, doesn't it?

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  9. Okay, try again, I shouldn't do this stuff in the dark.

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  10. Oh PK I am so happy for you that your sugar levels are good. Keep it up. Sorry about your cold, don't let it get you down.

    Love,
    Ronnie
    xx

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    1. I hope my cold is on it way out. Now I can concentrate on the sugar problems.

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  11. Congratulations on the sugar #s and weight loss PK...you are doing great! Sorry you have been sick for so long...sending prayers and healing energy your way.

    Hugs and blessings...Cat

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    1. Thanks Cat! I'll be better soon and I'm going to keep working on the weight loss and let that work on the sugar numbers.

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  12. congratulations on your weight loss and sugar readings. Keep up the good work. Will send some positive healing vibes your way to help you get over your cold.
    L

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  13. I hope you are feeling better soon. I have asthma and know how aggravating wheezing and coughing can be...and I imagine even more difficult when it is not something you are used to. Sending healing energy your way. And, congratulations on the weight loss and blood sugar levels - that is great. I wish I could say the same for myself with regards to my weight but hopefully I will be inspired by your success... :-) Hugs

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