What the doctor said

I can’t imagine anyone enjoying their vacation more than I did. I saw my children, I played, I relaxed and I came to terms with what the doctor said. What she said was diabetes. Life changing, but not earth shattering. I felt pretty shattered when I first heard. I have always been against real life changes that don’t involve spanking. But this is what was dumped into my lap and the changes must be made.

When I first heard I was upset and scared and I only told a few friends here and a few in real life.  People in both places help me gain a little perspective. One dear friend from blogland told me of a health crisis she’d faced a few years back. She went though some serious stuff with little reason at first to expect a good outcome, yet she made a wonderful recovery and is as close to normal as the rest of us – what ever that might mean. Other good friend here is also dealing with diabetes and she’s given me some good ideas and suggestion. 

All these friends helped me put things is perspective. I wish I didn’t have diabetes – it sucks. Okay, enough of that – on to what to do. I feel I no longer have the decision of whether or not to lose weight. I simple have to do it, period. My beloved Sundrop – the greatest soft drink in the world is now but a lovely memory. My days of mostly junk food – chips, donuts, cakes and cookies have been turned upside down. It’s not that I can never have these things again, but my days of mindless grazing are over.

Lastly – and I take a deep breath as I say this – I must learn to eat vegetables. In the past ‘eating vegetables’ meant eating my corn, lima beans (yes, I like them), potatoes, and rice. Can anyone say starches? It’s hard to change lifetime dislikes and there are just so

few vegetables I like. I’m working on it. I don’t find it nearly as difficult to stay away from what I shouldn't eat as I do making myself eat the things I should. So I’m taking small steps – trying new things. Looking for recipes. The meanest things the doctor said was that I was going to have to learn how to cook – now she gone to meddling. I guess it's true what one of my friends here said,  "You have delayed adulthood for an impressive span of years." I guess it time to grow up.

I’m on no medication at the moment. She wanted me to keep a record of my blood sugar for a month and then we’ll decide what will be best for me. So the only real changes I’ve made is to begin exercising and to eat sensibly.  Just those changes have improved the way I feel. I was having a lot of blurry vision and that has cleared up completely.

The most important thing!

This is not going to turn into a health blog. This is a spanko blog and it will continue to be so! Hopefully even more so. I haven’t felt good for a while – spanking didn’t interest me, I didn’t enjoy the ones I got and I was worried about my lack of interest. As I’ve begun to feel better my spanking thoughts have started to returned. The desire isn’t strong yet, but then again we’ve had company and I’ve been in mom-mode for nearly a month, that could be a factor. We’re going to work on it.

If you have great receipts for low carb dishes and want to share, please feel free! If you have questions I should be asking the doctor that I might not have thought of yet, send them on – you can always email elisspeaks@yahoo.com  But mostly I hope you’ll be around for encouragement. I’m good now, I feel strong and ready to do what needs to be done, but in six months, eight, ten – I’m going to be tired of being good and I’m scared bad habits of the last fifty or so year are going to try to rear their ugly head. Hopefully I’ll feel so much better that won’t be a problem.  After all I plan to be around a long time, Nick and the kids (who aren’t really kids) still need me, I have future grandchildren to spoil, there are many places I want to go, things I want to do and definitely books I want to write. Being healthy is the way to get all these things done!

Thanks to all of you who have been concerned and ask about what was really wrong. I found out, I know what I need to do, and now let’s all get back to spanking!