Driving myself crazy

There is good news in blogland today, everyone needs to go by ‘Aimless Rambling’ and get the scoop from Sunny!

As for me, I’ve come here to complain because you all will listen and might even understand. Just a note, so you’ll know I’m not crazy – I know that nothing I’m going to be complaining about rises anywhere near the level of ‘problem’, but I’m still going to complain like they are.

Reading and writing are both a true passion for me, and truly what I want to do on my summer vacation. I feel like I’m trying to read three books at once. I don’t mean one on my night stand, one on my kindle and one by my recliner, oh no, I feel like all three are sitting in front of me and I’m rotating reading one word from each and trying to keep them all straight.  Can you imagine how confusing that would be?

Only it’s not reading that’s doing this to me but writing.  I’ve been working hard to get the Cassie book edited and get it sent off to a publisher, it’s nearly there but I can’t seem to let go.  There are several good publishing houses out there that work with our genre and that makes it very hard to choose. This means all the things that happened with Cassie seven years ago are swirling in my head, meanwhile she has things going on now that she wants me to write. But my mind is so full I can’t get all of it clearly.

I also want to be posting here.  Not that there is too much happing along the TTWD lines, but I think that’s partly because I’m so preoccupied with Cassie’s life I’m not paying attention to my own.  Nick will never need to be jealous of another man, but all the people living in my head do sometimes seem to demand a lot of my attention. It’s a strange addiction, you can stay away from cigarettes, heck people even kick cocaine but how do you stop thinking?

You’ve probably realized by now that my need to keep posting isn’t because I think I have something earthshattering to say, I post for me because I know the importance of all of us talking together. This contact is very good for me.

But now I sit down to write and the book, a Cassie post, and a post for here are all pushing and shoving trying to have their say first that I get so confused, give up and go check Facebook.  Doesn’t make for a very productive day.

I wish I could get my thoughts organized. Maybe assign myself one writing task per day, and on that day I have to ignore the others.  Maybe I should stick to one thing until it’s done. I don’t know.

For those of you with real problems, forgive me. I have the summer off, my sweet Nick does the majority of the cooking and cleaning around here and all the outside work. My kids are away, busy and productive and Nick and I are healthy and happy. For those who think I need a good spanking for complaining please make an appointment to come by and bring your own implement (excluding canes).

Thanks for listening guys, it means a lot.  Brand new Fantasy Friday for tomorrow with a new twist.  I think you’ll like it.