Gratitude Tuesday

Friends – My friends mean so much to me.
I can’t really express how much.


Food – I love it and I love eating and
I’ll finish this in the diet up date below.

Feelings – Well let’s say good feelings.
I still hate feeling the bad ones,
almost to the point wanting my walls back.

Fantasy – I have had fantasies since before they were sexual fantasies for me.
I started at 5 or 6.
They have always been a part of my life
and have all ways felt safe in them.

Fridays – I love finishing up the week
and having the weekend for myself, Nick and Mollie.

Fantasy Friday – I do love it. I love reading it
and I love getting to know the people that write it for us.


Fingers – For feeling, touching, scratching,
flipping someone off, typing!! Gotta have our fingers.

Fun – The news in the world is serious these days.
We can’t forget fun and if you work on it
you can have a barrel of fun without spending a dime.

Fools – If there weren't some fools in the world
I wouldn’t ever have those rare moments of feeling intelligent!

Fall – I know every one had spring on the brain right now
but we can forget the amazing beauty of fall with the
leaves, and that deep blue sky
and the first nip in the air. Now that special!

Okay on to the diet update. I’ve got good news and maybe some not so good. I lost 1.6 pounds this week but I cheated. I went to the doctor for some diet pills. They really do kill your appetite but they can cause your blood pressure to rise. Mine went up pretty high so I am playing with the dose to see if it will still work and not mess with my BP.

I’m not sure this is the best way to go but I’ve been working to lose weight for almost 3 year. First year I lose 20 pounds, second year I lost 20 pounds. Then this last year – nada! I played with the same 4 or 5 pounds all year long! I understand a lengthy plateau but good grief – a year!!?? I just need something to jump start the weight loss again.

I work at the gym, elliptical machine for 15 minutes to get my heart rate up. I work out on different weight machines for about 20 minutes, not the same ones every day. Then I walk the track for about 15 minutes. And that is 4 days every week and often 5 days. I gave up my beloved soft drinks except on rare occasions and I eat very light. I didn’t know what else to try! I still feel like I’m cheating. But I want to try for a month I feel like if I can just get a few more pounds off I can maintain there.

If you have any other suggestions I will be glad to hear them.