I have been a wife and mother for over twenty years. Now I am becoming my husband's lover, too.
We owe it all to my fellow bloggers who gave me the courage to come out to my husband as a spanko.
I do feel like this is a New Beginning for us.

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Saturday, June 14, 2008


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Mollie is cruising and Nick and I truly have an empty nest at the moment. We celebrated last night by going skinny dipping and playing a strip card game. I was wining up to the last hand! But at the last minute Nick pulled an upset, and I really wanted the prize! But Nick won so he got the full treatment, full body massage, BJ, a variety of toys – the works. I don’t really mind that he won because I enjoyed catering to him and if we were keeping track I get this kind of wonderful treatment much more often that he does. And it is father’s day weekend!

The celebration continued Saturday evening. After we went out with friends we stopped by the sex toy store for a little shopping. After a quick scan to see if I recognized anyone (one of LJ high school friends works there part time) we found a few nice toys. I was very disappointed in their line of spanking paraphernalia. Of course we can always order off line and we are going to some shops this week where they have some great kitchen stores. I hope Nick will shop with me for pervertibles. I really think that is so much fun – as much fun and less stressful that in a sex shop!

I am experiencing another feeling this weekend. I have always had some one to check in with or to check on. I was very close with my parents. I usually talked to mom several times a day telling her of my comings and goings. She didn’t demand it we were just friends. Then my children came along and their care consumed most of my life. As they got older I spent time caring for my parents. When they were gone I still had a 10 and 14 year old to care for.

But LJ doesn’t live here anymore. He is usually by once a week or so and we talk several times a week but I don’t check up on him nor does he check on us. But this week with Mollie actually out of the country and not planning to check in by phone or email I feel strangely adrift. It’s not a bad feeling at all but it is not exactly comfortable yet either.

Just coming home from town this evening I realized no one cared what time we got here. We came in and spread out all our toys and put batteries in them. We didn’t have to hide anything. It is a strange feeling. One I am sure we will get used to but I am not there yet. If you guys don’t mind I will keep checking in here. If I don’t show up for several days I want someone to wonder.

Now if Eva doesn’t hear from me you can assume there is a problem!! I won’t go several hours without talking to my twin!! And in about a week she and I can do that in person! Okay I have rambled enough for a Sunday post. Time to try out those new toys!


  1. that would be definitely strange. I'm not looking forward to that feeling. Right now I check in with my mom several times a day, though she is fully capable of taking care of herself and of course I always have 4 kidlets with me. We talk by internet and phone probably 2 times or more a week with my inlaws so, we keep busy. I can't imagine it any other way, but I know it will get there some day.

    Enjoy the evening! And we want to hear all about it next week! :-)



  2. It's defiantly strange when there is no one at home to check in with. My youngest is 10 but he is going away more and more and it's weird.

    Sounds like a great weekend. Call me when your twin isn't able to answer the phone. (yeah, like that will happen)

    Happy Fathers day Nick!


  3. Both my parents have been dead a long time. We see Val's parents at least once a week and will today. I do have my Cassie Mom and that is such a joy in my life the past year.

    Our toy store has very little for spanking fun so we usually order off the internet but there is good old Wally World and you can always find something there.

    Happy Fathers day to you Nick!


  4. PK, sweetheart, make the most of it.
    That is one of the major hurts of growing old.
    The friends of my life are slowly taking turnings on their path where I cannot follow, yet.
    Enjoy this Fathers day with Nick, make the most of your time together, remember to tell him that you love him, of course he knows, but it never hurts to rub it in.
    Love and warm hugs,

  5. Anonymous12:24 PM

    PK, enjoy it while you can! Before you know it they will all be back! I guess the grass is always greener but I do envy your freedom. Just remember to put those toys away because you know that just as soon as your used to your freedom someone will drop in! LOL!

  6. Carye,
    It is a hard feeling to describe. Like I said, not bad but not completely good either. Maybe it will grow on me.

    I will definately give you a call soon. I think you should come to NC so we can meet!!

    Cassie mom is a joy to all her chicks! I still do miss my parents and I am glad we still have Nick's folks.

    Like I said looking at pervertibles is such fun. Just saw something really nice over at Todd and Suzy's along those lines.

    I will tell Nick how much I love him. I remember my grandmother once commenting that there was no one left to call her by her first name, she was Mother, Grandmother, Great Mother to different generations and Mrs. to church friends but there was no one left to call her Lilly. I thought that was sad.

    You are right. I am one who usually enjoys the moment. I love having this time to ourselves and I love seeing my children. I just kinda go with the flow! I am really lucky, there would have been a time when the idea of the kids leaving home would have had me crying my eyes out. But now that Nick and I are so much closer I see great joy in our future.

  7. The empty nest has been the biggest challenge of my life. I haven't totally conquered it yet.

    We'll check in on you and you check in on us!


  8. That would be weird! A little freeing and a little bit of loss. I've go one going into his senior year, so I can guess how you feel. We took a left turn a few years ago and started having more kids, so I have two kids under 6 as well. My empty nest is a long way off!

  9. Thanks Theresa I like knowing someone expects me to check in. I wonder if it will ever feel normal to have the kids gone?

    You do have them spread out a bit! I may need to borrow the little ones sometime in the future!