What I Need!

I’ve got an idea. Now that I have got Nick’s attention let me explain. Think back to the 6th grade. The rowdy kid always got sent outside to stand in the hall. I don’t do that because rowdy or not it’s my job to teach the little buggers. But sometimes when a child has been out for a day I will let them work on the assignment in the hall while we are checking it in the room. To prevent them from being fussed at in case the principal walks down the hall I give them a bright pink card that says “I am not in trouble”. This morning as I was coming awake, through the cobwebs, I thought to myself, I need a sign that says “You are in trouble!” Then I thought, why not?

I’ve told you I am no good at being bratty. It is not in my nature (although in my mind I have my moments). Nick and I don’t fight and I don’t want to. I know it’s not what I do that annoys Nick it all the stuff I don’t do. And here he has tons to choose from! Friday evening I was deep into blogland while Nick was cleaning in the kitchen. He asked if there was anything in the family room to go in the dishwasher. I said yeah, there was a glass. But did I get up and take in to him –no, I was blogging. I could tell when he came to get the glass that he was a bit pissed but I didn’t pay a lot of attention. Later that night when I got a short, mild spanking he mentioned it, but there was nothing to make me take too much notice.

I don’t think Nick has any idea the power I am trying to give him. Our son was home so he couldn’t have done anything at the time, but if we had been alone I would have liked him to tell me to put the computer down (I would have) and bring the glass to the kitchen then use what ever was available to bust my ass for not bringing it in the first place. I guess this is my way of being bratty. I do whatever I want to do and ignore everything else because I know he won’t do anything about it anyway.

Since Nick has an extremely forgiving nature he just doesn’t stay mad or hold all these things that I don’t do in his mind, so back to the ‘you’re in trouble’ cards. With Mollie living at home we can’t take care of things as they happen (unless we were to get lucky like Grace and Bossman did). But if some things really annoys him, or he has asked me to take care of something that I just don’t get around to he can hand me a little card (we can put a few at various places in the house). A short note can quietly let me know what he is finally bugged about. When I get a card I would need to take it and put it somewhere in the bedroom. Then when we get time and have our privacy we could take care of – whatever. Too much topping? I don’t know. Nick is pretty good at taking an idea and putting his own twist on things. I don’t want him mad or upset. That’s not his way or what I need. But I need … something.

I find myself envying Grace, Eva, Patty and Suzy(Todd). Reading their post hasn’t caused this yearning but they state it very well. I’ve asked him to read these and he is so good to read what I suggest. That does wonders for me. I am always afraid that one day he is going to say he’s not interested in reading any more. I liked what Todd said, this type of spanking may be rare but the option is there when he feel it is necessary.

And in case Nick is wondering how this will improve things if I like spankings,well... 0ne, I would hope the spanking itself would be something to avoid in the extremely near future. Two, the after effects make me want to do better. To let him know I appreciate what he is dong and that he is willing to follow through. I have tried to tell him before, I am willing to do whatever he asks. I can say this with confidence because I know him and he will be completely reasonable in his requests.

We are still working on the weight and I want to continue that and truly keep losing. But some weeks you can really try hard and still not lose. He can tell each week if I have really been trying and so far in 3 months I have only missed goal once. I don’t want to fool around with the weight thing. That is important to both of us. The household stuff, well that’s different. Will I try to test him? Probably! I just want him to remember that the spankings are what got us to this good place. My body was always here, the spankings assure that my mind is here too and we all know that that is the most powerful sexual organ.