Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Eva talked about how friendships develop out here. I know this is the thing that stunned me the most. I came here looking for spanking stories and for spanking pictures. I was not looking for friends, I was looking for anonymity. I never planned for my husband to ever know I had looked up spanking on the internet. I knew I was never going to tell him. All I really wanted from the internet was something that would partially satisfy my longing for my ultra secret desire. I knew I would never have the nerve to ask for it in real life. Reading about it, seeing some pictures was as far as my imagination could take me. I didn’t know anything else was a possibility.
Thank God, and I mean that sincerely, things didn’t work out as I had planned. I have friends in real life. I like the people I work with, we have some couples that we go out with. But close, really close, friends you can talk to about anything – well, this type of friend become very scarce as you get older. The new friendships I have found here came totally out of the blue. I never expected these new friends and I never expected to find a twin.
I think it makes me feel young. Eva and I laugh about feeling like we are in middle school again. It’s like we all run home every day and get on the computer (like we used to get on the phone when we were kids) to see what everyone has to say or what they have done all day. We talk about sex, hopefully more accurately than we did in junior high. We discuss what we are doing with our boyfriends, and what we want our boyfriends to do to us. We have pity parties and rants and celebrations. We all even have a crush on the same boy, Paul! So yes, I feel young out here making friends. I feel excited. I want to get together and have that sleep over I suggested to Grace. Now that would really be fun! Maybe someday.
But until that time I want to thank all my new friends, that includes lots of people these days, all those who’s blogs I comment on or folks I email. I have read on the internet several times that the definition of a friend is someone who will bail you out of jail, but a really good friend is someone who will bail you out, drive you home and say “Damn that was fun!” I think have made some really good friends!