I have been a wife and mother for over twenty years. Now I am becoming my husband's lover, too.
We owe it all to my fellow bloggers who gave me the courage to come out to my husband as a spanko.
I do feel like this is a New Beginning for us.

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Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Song for LJ

I am really looking forward to my boy coming home for Christmas. I think I do well when he is gone but I sure do miss him!! I have been trying to decide on a good ring tone for him when he calls on my cell. I was listening to the CD he made for me last mother’s day with many of his favorite songs. One of them caught my attention. The song is So Long Sweet Summer by Dashboard Confessional. The lyrics in part are…

So long sweet summer
I stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rays
So long sweet summer
I fell into you
Now you're gracefully falling away

Hey thanks
Thanks for that summer
It's cold where you're going
I hope that your heart's always warm
I gave you the best
Gave you the best that I have

So, so long sweet summer
I stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rays
So long sweet summer
I fell into you
Now you're gracefully falling away

For LJ this song was a reminder of the first summer he met Colin. Neither of them thought the friendship would out last the run of the summer play where they met.

But as I listened to the song more and more in the car it took on a special meaning for me. I told LJ I had chosen it for his ring tone he ask me why I chose it. I told him I would tell him later and here is what I told him.

Hey Baby, I told you I would tell you what the song “So long Sweet Summer” means to me. Then I realized if I tried to tell you I would cry – even thought it is not sad, just emotional. So I’m writing it.

You see I am changing into a new season of life. You are completing your spring – your childhood, school, choosing a career. I am beginning the fall of my life. That is not sad at all. Fall is a beautiful time – refreshing, a time to look around at the hard work of the summer and enjoy the bounty of your harvest.

You and Mollie are my harvest and I could not be happier with the results of my ‘summer’s work’. But that is what got me thinking of the song and the summer of my life, becoming an adult, beginning a career, a marriage and the most important raising children.

So ‘Thanks, thanks for that summer’ is what I what to say to you. My ‘summer’ that I got to watch your grow from birth to an adult (and it did seem like only months) was wonderful.

Several other lines from the song hit home too. “I gave you the best, gave you the best that I had”. I did try, that was what I wanted for you.

“I fell in to you now you’re gracefully falling away.” How true that seems. It’s hard on a mom, but knowing the wonderful man you have become makes it easier to watch you go.

And lastly “It’s cold where you’re going I hope that your hearts always warm”. New York City wouldn’t be my choice but I know it’s yours and I do hope your hearts always warm.

So thank you for sharing with me, your life, your dreams, your hopes and your songs. I hope that you will always do that no matter where you live.

Love you baby



Monday, December 03, 2007

The Beginning - reveal


So who wrote ‘The Beginning’? Was it me because I can get so few of my friends to send in stories? Was it Sally, a commenter without a blog, who wants to make her voice heard? Was it Maggie telling us what she hopes will happen – or has it? Or was it Dove who started spanking not too long ago and we know writes about it at times.

This is what I asked at the end of the Fantasy Friday story. All choices were a possibility. Even though I got the most votes I will have to admit I did not write this wonderful story. Sounded like me didn’t it? I believe even my Twin was leaning in that direction.

Dove got the fewest votes. I hope she writes one soon but it wasn’t this one.

I would love to tell you that this was Maggie and that it was a true story but I don’t think she has taken the complete plunge – or MrC is not totally on board and this particular story is not from her.

This wonderful story was written by Sally! An reader of blogs and a sometimes commenter. I hope she starts commenting more I really feel like she has a lot to add out here. I think this is the first story she has posted anywhere so I asked her to give us some background and this is want she sent –

I am a wife, mother and me. I have assorted children who have now either become or will become "adults" within the next few years. I have the great pleasure of being married to the love of my life. My children are my top priority and everything else will have to wait if one of them needs me, which may be why my husband and I have only been at this spanking thing for the last one and half years. I live on the west coast of the U.S. and love being close to nature; fortunately I live where there are many opportunities for outdoor adventures.

I think this shows that many of you reading out there do have a story in you. Go ahead and write it, revise it, play with it then send it in and I’ll post it for Fantasy Friday. Ask Sally, its fun to hear what people think your story. Everyone let Sally know how much we appreciate her for jumping into the playground!! And if anyone else has a story sent it to elisspeaks@yahoo.com

Saturday, December 01, 2007

CHRISTMAS MEME


I found this at Eva's so here we go, lets get ready for the season!! I hope everyone will do this one.


1. Wrapping paper or gift bags?
I use some of both but I like to wrap packages if I possible can.

2. Real tree or artificial? Artificial, for a long time. But I do miss the smell of a real tree.

3. When do you put up the tree? Later than most folks sometime next week probably.

4. When do you take the tree down? New Year’s Day

5. Do you like eggnog? Yes, but I am the only one in the family that does so I usually don’t buy it.

6. Favorite gift received as a child? One year I got a baby doll and a toy machine gun. I loved both equally!

7. Do you have a nativity scene? Yes I do.

8. Hardest person to buy for? My father-in-law

9. Easiest person to buy for? Mollie, she wants everything and she will be happy to give anyone a list if they would like.

10. Worst Christmas gift you ever received? As a kid I didn’t like clothes.

11. Mail or email Christmas cards? I rarely send Christmas cards anymore. Only to a few special people.

12. Favorite Christmas movie? Miracle on 34th Street and It’s a Wonderful like. Not original in my choices but I love these movies.

13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? Usually in October

14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? No, but Mollie love the gifts I receive at work and she usually takes them.

15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? Sausage balls, cake, cookies, pies, turkey, gravy, candy, sweet potatoes, mashed potatoes, cheese balls, pumpkin bread, banana bread, shrimp trays…

16. Clear lights or colored on the tree? I like all lights but we have clear.

17. Favorite Christmas song? I love the all old standard

18. Travel for Christmas or stay home? We take turns, this year we will be going to my sisters who lives two hours away. Next year she will come to our house. We both do Christmas morning at our own houses before one of us travels.

19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer? Well I sat here and tried it and yes I can!

20. Angel on the treetop or a star? Angel

21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? We do Nick’s family at his parents house on Christmas Eve. And then Santa comes to our house that night and we open presents Christmas morning. I usually get my kid an ornament each Christmas and I let them open them Christmas Eve morning.

22. Most annoying thing about this time of year? Things seem to get real busy and rushed if you aren’t careful.

23. What I love most about Christmas. Being off work and having time with the family. LJ comes home.

If you haven’t read the Fantasy Friday this week go here and read and don’t forget to vote!

Friday, November 30, 2007

Fantasy Friday -- The Beginning


I love this story because we all had to have (or will have) a beginning point in our spanking live. Whether or not you and your partner are both rabid spanko or one of you is vanilla, someone had to bring it up the first time. So read and enjoy!


The Beginning

Dawn had been spending a lot of time lately thinking about how to best approach the subject. She really wanted to share this private part of herself with the man she loved so much and had shared the last 24 years of her life with. They had raised children together. Bought houses, cars and made many other important life choices together, yet to share this part of her would be difficult. Of course she knew he loved her and would do whatever he could to make her happy.

This was just a little off the norm. It could be normal for many people but not the norm for her or Brad. She and Brad had met in college and went together for several years before they decided to marry. They pretty much stayed in the same area where they met. They attended the same church, lived in the same community and neither of them every traveled more than 10 miles to work. The thought of what she wanted just wasn’t an everyday occurrence in their world. Yet she knew it was what she wanted. Dawn promised herself she would find a way and tell him soon, perhaps tonight.

It was Friday night Brad’s favorite day of the week and the beginning of what he hoped would be great weekend. Brad thought to himself as he walked in the door, a whole weekend alone with his beautiful wife and sweetheart. When he came into the house he found Dawn in the kitchen getting ready to make dinner. “Hi Baby Girl I am so looking forward to this weekend”! He came up to her as he always did and immediately kissed her on the back of the neck and then on her soft lips.

Dawn loved his touch it always made her tingle all the way to her toes. Brad then gave her a hug and a playful swat on the bottom and went about feeding the dogs and talking about his day. Dawn tried to pay attention but was wondering about the swat and if maybe he, had any hidden desires. This was a rare occasion for Dawn and Brad to be alone in their own home without any children. They had 3 children. The oldest daughter had married about a year ago. Their son had gone away to college last month. The youngest daughter was still in high school but was away on a class biology trip for the weekend and wouldn’t be back until Sunday evening. It was the best chance Dawn would have to introduce Brad to her inner desire. She returned to reality with Brad standing in front of her asking why she was going to boil the dish rag. They both laughed but Brad could sense Dawn had something on her mind. Dawn proceeded to make a quite edible meal for the just the two of them.

After dinner was done and cleaned up they sat at the table together for a few minutes discussing what they might do with their time alone this weekend. Perhaps a movie, a concert or a visit to some location they had wanted to check out. They finally decided on a hike up to a waterfall in a nearby canyon. For the Saturday night they were thinking about going out to dinner and maybe a movie at home.

After deciding what they would do this weekend Dawn became quiet and a little withdrawn. Brad again got the feeling that she wanted to talk about something but was having a hard time deciding how to share it with him. Finally he just asked “what is it baby girl, what’s on your mind?” Dawn became very shy and took a deep breath and decided she would just be out with it and see how he would react. After all she had only gone over the expected conversation in her own mind at least a hundred times. She might as well be out with it and see how he took the news that his precious “baby girl” was a spanko.

Brad sat quietly waiting for her answer, he could tell she was nervous and he began to wonder what would cause her to be so upset. He just wanted to hold her and help her share with him whatever was on her mind. He took her in his arms and told her “baby girl you know you can tell me anything I’m always here for you”. Dawn gained strength as he held her and finally asked if they could sit on the couch together and she promised him she would try to tell him what was on her mind.

As they moved to the couch Dawn sat as close to Brad as was possible she wanted to feel his love for her as she tried to explain what it was she wanted to share with him. Finally she spoke “Brad I’ve been thinking about something for a long time and I don’t want you to laugh or comment until I say all of it, I’ve had these feelings just about as long as I can remember, since I was a child. Dawn took a deep breathe “I want for you to spank me”.

The expression on Brad’s face spoke volumes but he said nothing and waited for Dawn to continue. Seeing that Brad didn’t fall apart and that his face even showed signs of pleasure with what she was saying, she continued at a breathless pace. “Not like for punishment all the time but for fun and for real. I want a real spanking that would hurt and maybe even sometimes make me cry. You could even tell me to take down my pants and even my panties and spank my bare bottom if you wanted too, it could be erotic sometimes. You could tell me to undress completely and watch. Think of the possibilities you would have my bare willing bottom on your lap and easy access to other fun locals. You would also have a happy submissive partner willing to do what ever they were told. I have often dreamed of you taking me over your knee and giving me a spanking. I know this is a little off the norm for folks like us but, I have been doing a little research on the internet and it is not as uncommon as you might think, spanking is the most common of sex kinks”.

Brad was a little taken back at his wife’s request but the thought of her willing vulnerable bare bottom over his lap was far from unappealing. In fact he had considered the thought of spanking her cute little bottom on more than one occasion but had always limited himself to an occasional swat or two, sometimes just for fun, sometimes during sex or other times when Dawn was starting on a rampage. It did seem to curtail her rampage for a bit but it didn’t always keep it from coming. Now her she was asking him to spank her, giving her consent to one of his fondest dreams! He considered how best to respond and put Dawn at ease.

Carefully he spoke “Baby Girl you know I would do anything to make you happy. I too have thought about spanking your adorable little bottom more than once or twice. Now that you bring it up you have never really objected to any of the swats I’ve giving you over the years, sometimes I even got the feeling that you liked them and wanted more but I thought it must be my imagination, how could a sweet beautiful competent young women want some Neanderthal spanking her bottom”. Dawn just had to interrupt “it wouldn’t be like that you just taking me by the hair and dragging me back to your cave against my will, although that might make a fun role play sometime. It would always be with my consent and participation. It would always be done with our love for one another at the center of the spanking bringing us closer together. The how to spank websites even advise that we have a safe word that if I said the safe word you would stop immediately and make sure I was OK”.

Now Brad became quiet for a bit and then told Dawn he had a few questions. “What if I came home from work and told you to go to our room pull down your pants and panties and bend over the bed and wait for me would you do it? Dawn’s answer was quick “In a heart beat honey so long as no one else especially the kids would know what was going on”. Brad continued “so this would be just between you and me then, no one else is to know?” Dawn answered “definitely, no one else is to know just our little secret. You could whisper in my ear if I were behaving badly that you would spank me later if I didn’t change my attitude or that I would be spanked later for my behavior. You know how sometimes I get all cranky and mean I’m usually very stressed at that point and if you could find a way to take me some place private and spank my bottom it could help me release that stress and help me return to my normal happy self. You could even use an implement like a belt or a paddle if you thought it was needed. Your spanking might even make me cry sometimes but, don’t worry too much about hurting me, we’ll have a safe word and I promise to use it if it is more than I can stand.

Brad thought for a minute “you seriously mean if you got into one of those rampage modes I could just take you away to a private place and spank you, even with my belt or if I couldn’t do right then I could let you know it would happen later. “Yes” Dawn answered. Brad smiled at the thought of finally finding a way to help his wife stop the occasional rampage that wasn’t consistent with the rest of his beautiful wife’s temperament.

Dawn also shared with Brad that she liked being submissive to him and having him take care of her. Spanking could provide another way of expressing their love for one another. Brad smiled a big grin “well you’ve convinced me and like I said I would do anything for your happiness and if it brings us closer together, all the better, I think it will make me happy too”! Brad then pulled Dawn up and into his arms and gave her the biggest strongest hug he then unbuttoned and lowered her jeans took her hands in his and said to her “Baby girl I want you to go put these precious little hands on that wall over there and stick out that beautiful bottom of yours”. He then began spanking her sassy little bottom that she stuck out further with each swat. After about 20 of these he lowered her pretty little pink panties and she shook them to the floor. He then applied another 20 or so well placed spanks unto her pretty pink little behind and very much enjoyed turning it a bright red. He then took her in his arms and held her tight until her breathing slowed and she caught her breathe. Dawn had the sweetest content smile on her face.

Brad then undressed himself and picked Dawn up and carried her back to the couch where he helped her over his knee. She began moaning for his touch. Brad didn’t disappoint as he quickly removed that rest of her clothes and began exploring her most private girl parts. He then alternated between touching and spanking. She quickly came in his hands with more force than ever before. He continued touching, exploring, spanking and causing this now wild girl to cum repeatedly. He then commanded her to get on her hands and knees on the floor, she quickly obeyed and he was within her in a split second. They both orgasamed together so hard they shook, something that had not happened in years. They fell to the floor wrapped in each others arms both of them spent yet feeling fully satisfied, fulfilled and completely loved. Both Brad and Dawn were very much looking forward to their time alone together this weekend and were already feeling the closeness and love spanking can bring.


So who wrote ‘The Beginning’? Was it me because I can get so few of my friends to send in stories? Was it Sally, a commenter without a blog, who wants to make her voice heard? Was it Maggie telling us what she hopes will happen – or has it? Or was it Dove who started spanking not too long ago and we know writes about it at times. Vote, and come back Monday to see if you were right.









Fantasy Friday Surey

Who wrote "The Begining"?

PK
Sally
Maggie
Dove




Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Pain!


What a day. In case we are taking a vote I am 100% against kidney stones! I started getting that ‘uh-oh’ feeling last night just before I went to bed. I had little twinges all night but nothing major and I tried to convince myself that it was just something I ate. Morning rolled around and I got up and came to the living room. When I sat down and realized I was hurting too much to pick up the computer I knew it was bad! Nick had to call work for me and that was a first. I did manage to call Eva who would have wondered if I had fallen off the face of the Earth if she hadn’t heard from me. And I know she would have done the same for me. We don’t like to be out of touch.

It has been a fuzzy day. When I could keep the pain med down I just felt loopy and sleepy (which is way better than pain) but I really hate that ‘out of it’ feeling too. I am feeling much better this evening and hopefully I will be able to go to work tomorrow. And a very special thanks you to my wonderful husband. Just knowing Nick was here always makes me feel better! He called the doctor for me and got all the advice they could give. He went to the drug store and grocery store for me. I would tell you he has really petted and pampered me because I felt so bad but in truth you guys know he does that every day anyway. But, bless his heart, he also let me skip the gym today! What a guy!
Sick or not I have a brand new Fantasy Friday story going up this week so don't forget to come back for that!

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Ho Ho Ho!

I am feeling better today. The world keep turning and I will just spin along with it until everything feels better again. I should have said yesterday that the children that over heard the rude boy were much more upset than I was and they all were very indignant for me. Most of the kids are really wonderful.

I sent many of you this video yesterday because I didn't know how to post it but the smart twin did know how and she fixed it for me so here it is for everyone else. It was sent to me by my RL sister. I guess she was really listening when I came out to her! Enjoy...

Monday, November 26, 2007

Is this menopause?

I don’t know what is wrong with me. Usually when I am down I know why. The reasons might be silly to anyone but me but at least I know what they are. Things are very well with Nick and me. LJ was cast for a play for next semester and he is very happy. Mollie is doing well in high school and is on the track team. Work is going fine. All is well yet I have been fighting depression for several days now. I have been close to tears several times over absolute nothing. Then today I had a kid tell me to ‘F*** off’ but that didn’t even faze me. We have a new boss and I knew he wouldn’t do anything about it so I just wouldn’t let myself get worked up over it.

But about the time I got off work today I just felt awful, depressed, out of it, not myself. I hate feeling this way. I came home crawled under a blanket and went to sleep. When I woke up I went to the gym out of habit and I went through the motions but I really wasn’t into it. I am not really complaining this doesn’t happen often and it usually doesn’t last long but I really wish I knew what caused it.

Friday, November 23, 2007

Outing myself

I wanted to tell you all about outing myself to my sister. It wasn’t something I was really planning to do and it came about gradually. She is an excellent writer. She writes fan fiction on the internet and has for years. She’s good, and has won many awards out here. She also has her own group of internet friends that she gets together with twice every year.


So I would talk about my internet friends some. I eventually used the word blog, and talked about writing stories. She wanted to read some but I declined telling her that she was the writer and not me. While that was true I just didn’t plan on sharing the fact that Nick spanked me and that I loved it.

But the more I thought about it the more I just didn’t care. I was a grown up and spanking is a wonderful thing in our lives. I am not ready to take out an ad in our local paper but I am not embarrassed about revealing something that has had such a positive effect on my life, at least not to my sister.

So the next time she pestered me I explained to her that I would tell her and share some stories but that I did not want to talk about what she will be learning about me in front of other.

I sent her several stories from different authors. It didn't take a genius to realize what my secret was! She asked how long I had felt this way and I told her since I could remember but that I had only shared with Nick after 23 years of marriage.

Her response to the first stories was cute. First she did ask if I was only into receiving or did I spank too. I told her I was definately the one who got spanked I am not a spanker. She ended the email with --

"May I have another?"

So I sent her Bonnie's Reunion and Nick's The Road trip. This was what she had to say about them.

I really enjoyed the story - Reunion - more fleshed out than the others and I liked that. Also this one seems like he was a nice guy and she was curious as opposed to punished. The first one, Road Trip, bothered me and I read it again to find out why. It's that he feels like he can punish her like a child and she takes it, even thinks she deserves it. You know I'm a feminist from way back - even arguing with the preacher about it when I was twelve, so that rankles a bit. The writing is good, it just trips my trigger.

That's when I was able to tell her a lot more.

Ahhhh... now you are getting to the very core of it. We (spankos) only believe in 100% consensual adult spanking! Now many of us have gotten to the point in our lives where we want to give up some control. We know we can take care of ourselves and everyone around us but sometimes is SUCKS and we like the idea of giving up some of this control to the men who love us. We want to just relax sometimes and be taken care of. Even be bossed around sometimes. Most of us did not get to this level of comfort with releasing control until our 40's or later.

Here is how my friend Lilly put it –

If someone says "you really shouldn't...." or “I wish you wouldn’t…” to a spanko - it's like saying - I care, but really you are on your own with this...

When they say" No!...." well to a spanko - that really says he loves me enough to put his foot down and follow up - hold me accountable - to insure I do what I need to do take care of myself" It's like they truly have your back (or hmmm... bottom!)

This is called D/d Domestic discipline. It’s kind of interesting to be able to try to explain this to someone who is vanilla (that’s you). We often write on the blogs trying to better understand ourselves but we are usually preaching to the choir.

It runs the gambit. I know folks out here who live a slave/master lifestyle complete with collar and everything. Where that is not our style they seem very happy and so I am happy for them. Many out here are into spanking just for the erotic fun of it. That is were Nick is, I wouldn’t mind more discipline – we only go there about the diet. But some of my friends can count on a spanking for a variety of things. Being general bitchy is one common reason, for this reason I don’t think you would want your honey to try this! LOL!!

It's a lifestyle that we enjoy very much. Most spankos I talk with have had these longing since pre-puberty. Every one of my friends has willingly given this gift (of submission, in some degree or another) to her husband or significant other.

And have you notice the change in me – not just the weight loss - but in how happy I am? Nick and I are closer than I ever imagined we could be. And I never expected to be so happy.


Well that was what I told her and in telling her I discovered something. She saw it as no big deal. I am not suggesting anyone out themselves I am just saying that if you are over heard or leave a paddle on the couch and it is discovered by a friend. Laugh it off, they will get a giggle out of it but even after I gave this explanation to my sister she has no clue. She thinks it just a little somthing we do as foreplay occassionally. No one other than a fellow spanko is going to understand the depth of what spanking means to us and if they are already spankos there is no problem!

A few of my favorite things

I have always loved Julie Andrews and I know most of us grew up with The Sound of Music. Someone sent me this email the other day and I really liked it. I thought you might like it although none of us are really old enough to understand what in the world she is talking about!


To commemorate her 69th birthday on October 1, actress/vocalist, Julie Andrews made a special appearance at
Manhattan's Radio City Music Hall for the benefit of the AARP. One of the musical numbers she performed was "My Favorite Things" from the legendary movie "Sound Of Music."


Here are

the actual lyrics she used:


Maalox and nose drops and needles for knitting, Walkers and handrails and new dental fittings, Bundles of magazines tied up in string, These are a few of my favorite things.

Cadillac's and cataracts, and hearing aids and glasses, Polident and Fixodent and false teeth in glasses, Pacemakers, golf carts and porches with swings, these are a few of my favorite things.

When the pipes leak,
When the bones creak,
When the knees go bad,
I simply remember my favorite things,
And then I don't feel so bad.

Hot tea and crumpets and corn pads for bunions, No spicy hot food or food cooked with onions, Bathrobes and heating pads and hot meals they bring, These are a few of my favorite things.

Back pains, confused brains, and no need for sinnin', Thin bones and fractures and hair that is thinnin', And we won't mention our short, shrunken frames, When we remember our favorite things.

When the joints ache,
When the hips break,
When the eyes grow dim,
Then I remember the great life I've had, And then I don't feel so bad.


Don't forget to come back next Friday for another great Fantasy Friday story!!

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Well I can cook -- if I have to!


Eva implied the other day that I did not cook. Well not so much implied as stated it implicitly. Well actually she is right, I don’t. But I can. I just don’t like to. We will be at my in-laws for our Thanksgiving meal tomorrow. Although my MIL is perfectly capable of doing the meal herself we all try to bring something. Usually somewhere between those volunteering for breads, desserts, sweet potato casseroles and stuffing I will volunteer to bring the plates and cups.

But this year I am actually bring food and so I am giving you my recipe. Well it’s not my recipe; it’s something my mom used to make.

Curried Fruit

¾ stick butter or margarine

1 Cup packed light brown sugar

1 tsp curry powder

1 can of the following fruits

peaches

pears

pineapple (sliced or chunk)

1jar spiced apples

Maraschino cherries

Mix butter, sugar and curry powder and bring to boil. Drain fruit and arrange in a baking dish. Pour hot sauce over fruit. Bake at 350 until it bubbles (about 30 to 40 minutes). Serve hot.

Not exactly diet food but it smells fantastic and it is also pretty dish. I think it’s best if you are cooking at home. It can be a little messy to transport. But I usually do it anyway.

I am not going to put up a Fantasy Friday this week. Sorry folks but some very good stories have been submitted and I don’t want these stories to get lost in the hustle and bustle of traveling and holidaying! But come by I will post something for those of you out and about in blog land over the Thanksgiving holiday. Nothing spectacular but since I won’t have to spend a lot of time cooking I will see who is here. Everyone have a wonderful weekend!!

Monday, November 19, 2007

HACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Hack!!

Hack!!!


Guess who??

Eva, of course.

I can't take it.

I want back in the public eye so here's what I've done.... I'm removing all references to my occupation from my blog. If I'm wrong, then I'm wrong but honestly, my site is pretty mild anyhow, don't you think?


So I had to hack in here to let you know that I'm back in the public eye but won't talk about my occupation there anymore.

And there's a reason..... my twin here... Bless her heart but she's being evil to me and it's time you all knew about it so go on... click on the picture of the laptops up there with our hands and hop on over to my site. I'll tell you there what's going on. And you know if I said it, it's true. My twin is the one who claims to be a liar, not me!!!!

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Of course you do realize this is all in fun and I love my twin more than my own sister. Wait. I don't have a sister. But you know what I mean, right??

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I added my answer to this nonsense at Eva's site. And while I don't want anyone to think I am completive or anything I have now posted more than Eva has!

Fantasy Friday Reveal

I told a few of my friends already but yesterday morning was very traumatic for me. My computer cord quit working! I knew the cord had been damaged and I had ordered a new one but it was back ordered! I really thought I was screwed until my wonderful, intelligent, all knowing husband was able to splice the wire and get it working for me for the time being. I love you Nick!! Now everyone keep your fingers crossed.

Nick came up with the best line last night and I just had to share with you all. I had been reading aloud some of Eva’s emails erroneously stating that she was going to win the weigh loss challenge. Mollie kept asking “Well what happens if you win and what happens if you lose?” I was pretty much ignoring her. But Nick gave me the best line and when she started up again I said “Well Mollie, if I get beat I just get beat!” Boy it feel go good to be totally honest with her!


Now for the important part of this post! Didn’t you just love Fantasy Friday this week?? As one of the comments said I want this doctor’s number! Most of you seemed to think it was Eve – 59%! This was a good guess since most of you would think my own twin would write a FF for me. Yeah, you would thing so wouldn’t you? But anyway it wasn’t her. Eva thought it was Nick who got 11% of the vote. Wasn’t him. Todd got the second highest percent at 22. But once again wrong, wrong, wrong!!

It was Scout!!! She doesn’t have a blog but as you can see by her writing she should!! I got to know her through her comments and her participation in the spanking diet group at Todd and Suzy’s. So congratulations to Scout!! Feel free to leave her a comment here and encourage her to keep on writing!! Thanks Scout!!!!

Saturday, November 17, 2007

A word from my twin

The following is what Eva posted on her blog today with my corrections in red. There is a contest in the works and we wanted everyone to know about it. Help us out here with any ideas you might have. If you haven’t read the Fantasy Friday this week go here and don’t forget to vote!

The ticker's down 3 1/2 pounds this week and my twin?

Get this
!!!!

You won't believe what she has asked of me now!!

First off, we were talking back and forth in email at work the other day and she was whining.

Yes
.

Whining.

She is lying I was not whining one bit. I was just stating a simple fact!

My twin was whining big time about how no one posts details anymore.. that even she and I don't tell each other stuff like we used to.

I do believe there's a good reason for that. I guess I feel like she's heard it all from me before so why repeat the same old stuff? I figure if there's ever anything new then I'll tell her. I think many of us are in that mindset.
I like hearing that my friends are being spanked and having hot monkey sex! For all I can tell most of you have become nuns!

If there's something new to tell, I'll tell it. Why repeat it? Because I want to hear it, that’s why!

Ahhhh.... but I've been thinking... maybe there are readers out there who this is new to and it's NOT the same old thing to them. Like my twin says, these blogs are helpful to newbies to the spanko life. That of course tears me up when I think of being private. I don't like being private after all but feel like my back is against the wall and I have no choice.

Anyhow, back to my twin..... post some details of your own for her, would you??
(thanks Grace) But not only was she whining about details and such she also CHANGED OUR CHALLENGE on me!!!

I had told her in October that my weight would catch hers by Christmas. I factored in that she's losing but I'm losing faster because of my gastric bypass. Now all of a sudden she wants a BIG challenge in a BIG way!!

And - get this - she's blaming it on Nick.
It was Nick so help me! I was telling him about the challenge and he said that mathematically that date leaned heavily in your favor and that if we changed it to the 15 that it would make us both have to really work to keep up our weekly average or lose in the other sense!

She said he did the math. He figured our averages and that we should weigh the same by her birthday which is - in case you forgot - December 15th.

C.C, you're on it, right?

Good!!

Spread the word everyone. We'll have a party that day at PK's site.

Anyhow, she wants to take 10 days ... ten WHOLE DAYS off the initial challenge.

Sheesh.

I think we can see here who the whiner is!

She's killing me!!!

And - get this... the weights have to be verified by Nick and Adam because she admits that she's a liar!!!!!
I’m not really a liar, but when I panic I sometimes become creative, that’s it I’m creative!

Wait.


There's more.


The winner gets a good girl while the loser has to pay by being spanked with the implement of the winner’s choice.
(And the loser must post in detail about the spanking. The winner is encouraged to write about her good girl too!)

Sounds good except for that ten day thingy!!!
(Whiner)

Can I do it in less than a month?

Well guess what?
I do believe I can....

So, PK - my twin - my best friend - I have just one thing to say to you....
Bring it on, babe.

It's on.

My weight will be below yours by December 15th or you will get to pick the implement for me.... How about this... want to up the ante a bit? How about THREE implements of the winner’s choice??

You up for it??

Up for it?? Am I up for it?! You better believe it!! I am already mentally going over your toys and deciding which one I want him to use on you! And although I am sure you will tell me the truth you can’t cheat!! Adam, don’t let her. She is supposed to eat when she is supposed to. No skipping meal, she has to stay healthy!

Now if any of you have suggestions as to how to make this more interesting just let us know. I also want to encourage our friends to make their own side bets with your spanker to see which of us will win. Let spread the spankings around! We will be sure to post all information on both sites to keep everyone updated.

Oh yeah and Nick did say that the picture above must be from after Dec. 15!


Friday, November 16, 2007

Fantasy Friday - The Therapy Session



I am so happy to bring you another Fantasy Friday story. I really like this one so today you get to relax and read. After you enjoy the story make your best guess as to who wrote it. Leave a comment with your thoughts on the story but don’t give away your vote!


Therapy Session

Jan and Ted Coles sat in separate wingback chairs, across the desk from Dr. Baird Winslow. They were nervous as they watched the bespectacled psychologist, a noted marriage counselor and therapist, shuffle his notes. Ted glanced at his wife, whose gaze was in her lap. He reached over the arms of the chairs, and picked up her hand. He smiled at her as he gave her a reassuring squeeze.

Dr. Winslow smiled, too, as he looked up at them. “There’s very good news for you,” he began, “the tests, questionnaires, surveys and interviews all indicate that you will be just fine – better than you ever believed, in fact.”

Jan and Ted exhaled.

The doctor continued, “You are, as individuals, well grounded, robust and resilient people. You both can be characterized as practical and hard working. You have a genuine affection, admiration and deep love for the other. You are going to be just fine.”

There was a pause, and finally Ted spoke. “I’m – we’re – relieved to hear that, Dr. Winslow. We don’t doubt that we love each other, as we told you a month ago when we came here. But there’s no denying we’ve had problems over the last few years. We’re not intimate like we used to be – and I don’t just mean sexually. We’ve been going through the motions, but we haven’t shared life as a couple in a long while.”

Jan spoke up, too. “Is it unrealistic to expect it to be as close as it was in the beginning? Do all married couples lose intensity in their relationship over time? I mean, we’ve had kids, and jobs, and stress over the years. Is the problem that we’re not adjusting to something that happens inevitably?” She looked distressed.

Dr. Winslow looked at her steadily, and then spoke. “There is no inevitable anything in marriage,” he said. “Mrs. Coles, come with me. I’m going to show you something that is going to change your marriage forever, and will restore all intensity and emotional connection that you’ve been missing.”

The doctor rose and Jan followed his lead. They walked together to a small table against the far wall. It was covered with a white cloth, but there were obviously objects underneath the covering. The doctor lifted the cloth by its hem and withdrew it with a flourish, exposing a small collection of paddles and straps. Jan Coles gasped, and immediately colored. Dr. Winslow could see her neck, face and ears blushing red, and he nodded to himself. Ted Coles, still seated in his chair, couldn’t see what his wife beheld, but was curious to know what provoked her reaction.

Dr. Winslow spoke, in a firm voice: “Mrs. Coles, you will take this – “he handed her a small, oval-shaped leather paddle – “and you will hold it behind your back as you stand in this corner –“he indicated the corner to the left behind his desk –“and you will not move or make a sound as I talk with your husband. If you do, I will come over to the corner and I will paddle you with this (he held up a rectangular piece of wood four times the size of the paddle that Jan now held). Do you understand?”

“Now hold on . . .” Ted rose from his chair, unsure what the doctor was doing, and even more uncertain what he would do to stop it.

Dr. Winslow turned to him. “Mr. Coles, I know this is unusual and unexpected for you. Please let Mrs. Coles decide if she’ll proceed, and then I assure you that you and I will have an illuminating conversation.”

Ted looked at Jan. To his astonishment, she turned to the doctor, said, “I understand,” and crossed the floor to the designated corner, where she stood with the small paddle held at her tailbone. The two men watched her in silence for a moment; Dr. Winslow indicated the two wing chairs, and they sat down.

“Mr. Coles,” Dr. Winslow began, “your wife loves you deeply and yearns for a deeper emotional connection with you. She wants to tell you her most innermost feelings, fears, desires and hopes. But she’s inhibited by a fear you’ll reject her on some level, so she keeps things inside.”

“Your own tests show you to be a highly self-confident leader. You are analytical and rational, yet also visionary and of an “expansive” mind. You have proven yourself in business, where you are well respected and successful. In your relationship with your wife, your tests reveal a certain frustration with things, and a desire to be the recognized leader of your relationship.”

“In sum, Mr. Coles, you have the natural makings of a dominant in your relationship, and Mrs. Coles is, organically, in regards to her feelings to you, at least, a submissive. You two are made for each other.”

Ted was silent, taking in the information. He looked at his wife, standing with her back to him, her fingers wrapped around the handle of the paddle. “So you’re telling me to dominate my wife physically? I could never hurt Jan – the idea is repugnant to me!” Ted spoke with his fists clenched.

Dr. Winslow nodded at him. “I’m advising you, with your wife’s consent, to spank her. I can tell you from years of working with couples whose profiles are similar to yours that spanking will bring you closer, will open lines of communication, will lead to more frequent and fulfilling sexual intimacy, and will satisfy your conscious and subconscious desires to assume the natural role in your relationship. One of my mentors told me early on, ‘The couples that spanks, stays together.’ I’ve seen it myself, and he’s right.”

“As far as hurting Mrs. Coles goes, you have to learn how to administer a spanking the correct way. `You should put her over your lap, well supported, and spank her on the meat of her bottom – not up too high. Start slowly and build up, and that’s all there is to it. You’ll get the hang of it pretty quickly. In fact, I think it’s time you saw the demonstration.” The doctor rose and addressed Jan, “Mrs. Coles, come over here now, please.” He moved to the couch.

Jan gulped, and turned slowly. She saw the doctor, sitting on the couch and lightly patting his thigh. She began to walk toward him, and then changed course and approached her husband. Standing in front of him, she held out the paddle to him and said softly, “There is only one person I can ever imagine spanking me, and that’s Ted. Will you do it, darling?”

Ted rose, took his wife’s hand in his left and relieved her of the paddle with his right. He led her to the couch, where Dr. Winslow relinquished his seat with a sigh. “Would you like me to advise you? Give you some pointers as you go along?” There was a hint of wistfulness in his voice.

“Just some privacy, please,” Jan responded. As Ted took the doctor’s place on the couch, Jan put herself across his lap. Dr. Winslow, on his way out the door, caught a glimpse of Jan’s pantyhose-covered bottom as Ted lifted her skirt and slip and began to spank her tentatively with his hand.

At first he said nothing, embarrassed to be doing what he found himself doing at all. After a few minutes, though, when Jan hadn’t protested, he spanked harder and faster, and began to talk. “Jan, you’ve had this coming for quite some time. You’ve been moody, evasive and sullen. From now on, you’re going to talk to me, and not retreat from me, do you understand?”

“Yes, Ted, I do,” Jan was breathing fast as her husband rained down spanks on her behind. The smacks grew in number, severity and rapidity. “I wish I had been more open with you; I’m sorry I wasn’t.”

“You’re going to be a lot more sorry before I’m finished with you,” Ted assured her. He stopped spanking for a moment to rub his hand, then pulled Jan’s pantyhose and panties down to her mid-thighs. He could make out handprints – his handprints – on her faintly blushing bottom. It wasn’t as red as he thought it would be. He picked up the paddle, and brought it down smartly on each cheek, raising an immediate red spot on each side and an exclamation from Jan.

“There are going to be some changes, young lady, and they’re going to start right now.” Ted used the paddle as though a metronome were dictating its cadence. Rhythmically he brought it down first on the right side, then the left. He avoided skin that had already turned bright red, and in that way worked on painting her entire backside crimson.

“You’re going to meet your responsibilities to me and to our family,” he continued, “and you’re going to lose the short temper and snippy attitude you’ve been copping.” Ted paddled some more, and Jan squirmed and twisted and kicked her heels. Her bottom stung like fury, and the blows that landed on the sides of her buttocks and the tops of her thighs caused her particular distress. “Yes, Ted,” she agreed, “I will. Please stop for a minute – can I get my breath? It’s really hurting!”

“I do believe it’s supposed to hurt,” Ted answered her. “I’m almost finished here, but know this – I will not hesitate (three particularly hard spanks landed as he spoke these words) to spank you from now on if I feel you’ve earned it. Understood?”

“Yes! Please stop!”

“Yes, sir, you mean?” Ted delivered another round of hard, rapid spanks.

“Yes, sir! I understand!”

To Jan’s relief the spanking stopped. She felt her husband’s gentle touch again; he lightly ran his fingers over her reddened bottom, and then rubbed more firmly. He rubbed her back with his left hand. Jan, though she was still bare-bottomed across her husband’s lap, in a doctor’s office, felt calm and also incredibly aroused. She thrust her pelvis into Ted’s thigh and rubbed against the fabric of his suit trousers. She waited to hear from him that she was permitted to get up and restore order to her clothing.

Ted looked into her eyes. “My bride has another wifely duty to conduct at home,” he said with a wry smile. He put her hand on the front of his pants, and she smiled at the stiffness she encountered there. They scurried from the doctor’s office like newlyweds bound for the honeymoon suite.






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Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Sad



I found myself feeling sad all day today and I could put my finger on why. I talked to Eva about it (as usual) but 'why' would not surface. I got emails from Mthc and Carye too. But it wasn’t until I got home and read Cassie comments that the reason for my sadness hit me. I had talked to Eva about this but I didn’t know it was still bothering me.
I am sad that so many of my friends have gone private. I am not saying that they shouldn’t have! I know these women very well and the reasons they have are extremely valid and I think each of them did exactly the right thing. I am not saying one word against them but I am remembering when I first began reading and commenting our here. I got hooked hard and fast when I found blogs. I was getting up early and going to bed late as I cruised around reading blogs, comments, responses to comments – everything (now remember it was summer and I had a lot of time on my hands!)
I remember early on, I think I had only had my blog for a week or two, when Bonnie posted that she was taking a break for a short time. I was devastated! I mean poor Bonnie was only taking a vacation for a few weeks but I was so upset that she wasn’t going to be there daily for me. Okay, granted I was too obsessed but I can just imagine how I would have felt if 3 or 4 of my favorite blogs had gone private at that time. I would have been crushed, and if I had only started reading a few months ago what wonderful friends I would have missed.
So I am sad, not for me, I am one of the lucky ones. I can read the blogs that have gone private, I can email these friends. I am sad for Denise and all the other lurkers that had come to know them through their blogs but now are shut out. Not because of anything they have done but just because of how things are.
There is one thing I can say to lurkers – come out and talk to us. Those folks that have to go private for various reasons couldn't invite you if they didn't know you were here. As close as I feel to my friends here – and these are some of my best friends in the world now I did not know any of them existed 18 months age. It took commenting and ‘talking’ and I have loved every minute of it.
At this time I am not planning to go private. If I should run into any of the problems my friends have I guess I will. But you know, if someone I know finds my blog all they will really ‘discover’ is that I love my husband, we enjoy a happy, active sex life, and I like being spanked. The first two I hope people assume the latter might give them a giggle but I just don’t think that is so out of the main stream to be really shocking.
I guess the real reason I am here is to make friends with folks who are interested in spanking, I want folks to know that there are a lot of us out here and there is nothing strange about it. I guess I have ranted enough for one day. But if you are reading please let me know.