Fantasy Friday - One Step Forward into a Dream

I was so happy to receive a brand new Fantasy Friday story this past week. I think it was one of the few good things about this week. Grace has written for us before - here is one of her earlier stories. Grace has her own unique style and I love it. I hope everyone enjoys…

One Step Forward into a Dream

“I think you may save me! You would think me damaged if I told this story to you, I would think me damaged! How can I express to you, I don’t know, would you think me wrong?” I continue to stumble through my words “I doubt if my language is sufficient, to try to grasp this, it perplexes me, it’s a contradiction, inside my head is my private place and I only want people in who are invited.” My words drift away meekly as I stare, willing her with my femininity to like me or, hopefully, even more.

She looks at me from the other end of the room, silent. Outside the tall water reeds sway stiffly and ripple in the wind that blows in across the estuary marshes, its travel from the North Sea undisturbed by trees or buildings. The eco house with its glass fronted expanse stands firm against the buffeting of the elements.

I think of the letter I received from my friend in the west, he told me of this person who now stands before me and her strangeness and beauty but his words could never fully explain her to me.

I wait for a reply, a reaction, just an acknowledgement that my emotions are received, my heart pounding as I wait for a connection, will there be one?

The log burner crackles as once again the building shudders from the gale, the soft furniture adding to the feel of the house and the rug covered wooden floors cozy under my bare feet as I stand waiting to see if my journey will continue with this person, so strange, her hair like silk, her dark skin stunning against her white cotton dress, the slenderness of her waist and the curve of her bottom.

I glance down unable to return her gaze any longer in case the answer I think I seek is not returned, not that I am sure what the question is but I will know if this is the answer to my dreams soon enough. Unable to keep myself from gazing at her I look up and she looks at me, her lips curling slightly at the edges, I panic, does she see me as a joke, pathetic in my quest? Finally she speaks to me in a soft warm gentle voice.

“It would be my pleasure” She finishes this statement with a mock courtesy “But I have some questions for you, would you let me in, would you let me get close to you, would you trust me, could you love me?”

I take one step forward as I reply “I am torn apart, I will love you, I think I may have already fallen under your spell” I look down embarrassed “trust I give to none, but maybe you?” I look at her quizzically.

She is staring at me again with her large brown eyes, “What would you say if I said I will do whatever I like, when I like!”

“Is that a question?” I ask?

The silence descends again and I shift my weight slightly and fold my arms.

“No it’s a challenge!”

I take one step forward.

I have to smile, “you read me like a book”

“No” she replies innocently “I am panning for gold, you know what that’s like!”

“Then I will accept the challenge, if you accept me, as I am, slightly damaged but still hanging on in there!”

I take one step forward.

She is looking at me once again with a wicked edge to her lips “We shall see if you are that different from the rest of us shan’t we, we are all a little touched you know! Now what are you going to do about me? Life’s what you make it! Now what do you make of me, can you make me, make me a good girl?”

“Do I want to make you a good girl? I suspect it will be a hell of a lot of fun if you are not!”

“Who says I’m not on my best behaviour anyway” she says with a pout “you see that’s your first lesson, what is good or bad? Its very subjective you know.” She holds me in her unblinking gaze and I am mesmerized. “You know that Venus is in Taurus and in opposition to Jupiter and what that means?”

He warned me of her strangeness and I feel myself dreamily falling under her spell,

“No, not a clue” I reply

“Oh,” she looks surprised and not a little disappointed “Well” she says looking coy and as cute as hell “It means I can do whatever I like and you cant make me so there!” She pokes her tongue out and spins around with her back to me holding her hands behind her against her bottom. She looks over her shoulder at me “So what do you think about that?”

I take one step forward.

Her silhouette is back lit by the sun that momentarily breaks through the grey cloud cover and I am briefly blinded by warm rays, all I can see is the edge of her hair as it scatters the photons and gives her a golden halo of yellow white light. She continues to look straight ahead at the empty landscape with nobody to witness our steps.

I take one step forward.

I am close now, can smell her perfume and long to have it permeate my own skin, to feel her touch, to caress the soft warm skin to feel the mutual sting as my hand makes contact with her soft bottom.

“I cannot dominate you,” I blurt out suddenly without really understanding why except for an overwhelming desire to open myself up to her.

She is looking over her shoulder at me whilst gently swaying her shoulders, “Who said you should, I have already told you I will do whatever I like.”

“What do I have to do, show me please, how do I meet with your sensuality.”

She leans her head to one side as she peeks over her shoulder as if hiding, “I want to share this with you, I want to wriggle the heat away from my bottom, I want you to spank me as I deserve to be, to punish me, I want you to make me, I want you to make me do as I’m told, but I have already said I will do as I want!” She smiles sweetly and looks away.

I take one step forward until I am close enough to grasp her wrist and I pull her around to face me, she is looking up at me with large eyes.

 “Will you trust me, will you let me in?”

I cannot reply, she has me frozen in her eyes, I simply nod.

She tries to move away but I continue to hold her and she obediently bends forward grasping the arm of a chair to steady herself, she straightens her legs which accentuates the gentle curve of her bottom inviting her punishment. She looks at me once again, “and that is the first of many lessons” she says with a reassuring smile which confirms that I have permission to make her a good girl once again.

~o~

Grace, thank you so much for coming through for us this week. You are a wonderful writer and I hope you'll send even more. It's been the week from hell around here, I'll catch you up on Sunday. Now if you have a story to share, please send it to elisspeaks@yahoo.com

A Gamble

I should have know going to Vegas would come back to bite me in the ass. This was first weekend and Nick told me fine if I had something in mind or if I liked I could turn the planning over to him. That sounded interesting – I was curious as to want he’d come up with. Seems it was a bit of a gamble.

He said he’d meet me in the bedroom at three; I walked in to find nearly all our weapons of ass destruction spread out on our bed. Each weapon was numbered from the lightest right up to the damn cane. He picked five cards from one deck and I picked five from another, his was the implement and mine was how many strokes. He said since I was a big gamble from Vegas it should all turn out in my favor. And then I drew a damn nine for the cane. Nick claims it was karma for giving the other one away. I hate everything about the horrible, horrible cane except the after effect. What a quandary.

After the implement and number were decided on we really got down to playing – cuffs, ropes, blindfold – a truly wonderful afternoon! I guess some gambles to pay off. I sure home Sunny is enjoying hers.

Sex life survey

Faerie, Terpsichore, Blondie, and Sunny had this up and I'm sure a few more.  I thought it was very interesting and I wanted to try it too.
  

A. Have you ever had sex in three or more positions in one session?  I have the urge to answer these questions both before and after I came out to Nick as a spanko. But in the effort not to put you to sleep I’ll just answer for since I’ve been out – so YES, many positions in one session.

B. Have you ever had sex continuously for more than an hour? If you count foreplay, sure.

C. Have you ever devoted an entire day to sex and sexual activity (with time out for eating, etc.)? No, probably not the whole day.

D. Have you ever been so loud having sex that housemates/neighbors commented or complained? No, I’m grateful to have plenty of space between the houses around here and except for the spanking itself, we're not that loud. 

E. Have you ever had your sexual technique/style/skill openly praised by someone?  Yep! When I came out Nick wondered who the hell I was and was very complementary.

F. Have you ever written an explicitly erotic story? I have.

G. Have you ever brought your partner to orgasm using only your hands? I’ve been married thirty years, of course I have.

H. Have you ever licked or sucked on someone else’s feet and/or toes? Yes, I’ve done this too.

I. Have you ever had sex with someone you’re not in a relationship with? No, I haven’t done that.

J. Have you ever had sex simultaneously with two or more people? No, I haven’t done this either.

K. Have you ever had anal sex? I have, but not until I was fifty. It was surprisingly satisfying. 

L. Have you ever gone out in public while wearing an anal plug? I have at Nick command/request/suggestion it was a very interesting experience.

M. Have you ever gotten really turned on by saying or hearing dirty talk? Nope, that really doesn’t do that much for me.

N. Have you ever realized that you are much more sexually open-minded/kinky than most of your previous partners and/or friends? I don’t have any previous partners, but I think I’m more open-minded and kinky than most of my real life friends. Now my blogging friends, that may be different.

O. Have you ever been part of an S/M role play (master/mistress/slave), domination (as the dominant/submissive part), or being victim of pain (such as whipping, caning, hot wax on genitals, nipple clamps/genital clamps etc.)?  Well, of course, I wouldn’t be here otherwise.

P. Have you ever-fantasized about or practiced orgasm control/denial? Yes it’s one of my long time fantasies (wouldn’t care for it in real life). Being denied permission, but unable to control myself and being punished – like I said, fun in fantasy only.

Q. Have you ever tried scissoring? Nope, that one I haven’t tried.

R. Have you ever performed or received oral sex from a man?  Yes, thank you very much.

S. Have you ever performed or received oral sex from a woman? Nope, never tried that either.

T. How old were you the first time you had sex?  Twenty-four, I was a late bloomer.

U. How many sexual partners have you had? One.

V. Have you ever practiced BDSM on yourself (bondage, nipple clamps, hot wax, et cetera)? I have, but totally lost interest in that once Nick was on board to play.

W. Have you ever had sex in front of other people? Just the cats, and that never bothered me. The dog watching, however, made me uncomfortable.

X. Have you ever had a crush on a fellow blogger? Not a crush but I just love the guys that have been part of my life out here, Paul, FD, Bas and some other great guys.

Y. Have you ever had an orgasm without any direct stimulation (not counting dreams)? I don’t think so.

Z. Do you like being called dirty names during sex? No, not my thing.

Fantasy Friday

No, I didn’t forget what day it is and no, I don’t have a story for you. I just wanted to give you the background of Fantasy Friday for those of you who were not around for the beginning. Fantasy Friday was originally begun by Tiggr of A Spanking Good Time back in 2006. When Tiggr decided to take a break from full time blogging she asked me if I would like to host the series. At first I said no – I just couldn’t imagine that people would send me stories but after giving it some thought I decided I would like to see it continue so on September 28, 2007 I began hosting. Looking back over the time I’ve had it I was stunned at the number of stories I’ve received.

There have been over 260 new stories since I've been hosting! The only thing I can say to that is THANK YOU!! I’ve written two or three stories, but you readers are the ones that have kept Fantasy Friday alive so long. Originally bloggers were asked to submit stories and then we voted to see if we could spot the author. When many of us knew each other and our writing styles that was a lot of fun. I don’t have the voting part any more. Fewer of us were really familiar with the work of others and I wanted to take Fantasy Friday in a different direction.

I love it when my blogging friends send in stories but I also wanted Fantasy Friday to be a place for people without blogs to be able to share their work and get feedback on it. I feel that every spanko out here reading has a story in them. I mean we wouldn’t know we’re spanko if there wasn’t a story or fantasy going around in our minds – something we may have thought or dreamed about for years. Many of my readers have no desire to start their own blogs but thank goodness many are willing to share a story or two with the rest of us. And I know of three blogs that were started by authors that shared their stories first on Fantasy Friday.

I wanted to share this history and as always ask for anyone who is willing to share a story with us to please send it in. But at the same time I want everyone to realize that many Fantasy Friday stories are the writer’s first attempts at writing and many times their first time letting this part of themselves out at all. If you read a story and like it please try to leave them a word of encouragement. I remember the first few stories I ever posted I almost couldn’t sleep the night before I was so anxious to know what people thought of it. Shoot, if truth be known I’m still pretty much that way when I post any fiction! So I want to encourage you to comment when you can on Fantasy Friday. It can really make the writers day!

I want to say one word about privacy. When I first realized you could comment on a site it scared me. I couldn’t help believing that if I left a comment – even as anonymous – that my real name, age, address, picture, workplace and yearly salary would pop up on every computer screen in the free world. It didn’t. I got a new email account just for commenting so that it wouldn’t spill over into my real life and I haven’t looked back since.

I want to let everyone know that the same goes for any stories you may send. I’ll include any information you may want to share or I will just put that the author wished to remain anonymous. By sending it to me I will have your email address but you can check with the authors of the 260 stories I’ve posted so far and they’ll tell you I have never passed on one of their email addresses to another soul. Well actually you can’t check with them because I won’t give you their addresses but you get my point.

When I don’t have any new stories to post I do go back and repost the older ones. I figure that if the story is more than two year old it will be new for most of you and the ones that have been reading all along – well chances are you’ll still enjoy it. Now if there is anyone who has submitted a Fantasy Friday over the years and doesn’t want me to use it as a repost sometime in the future you need to email me and let me know. I’m assuming that most folks that were willing to share at one time are still willing. But if not, drop me a line.

So one last plea as always, if there is a spanking story in your head – write it down! That goes for everyone. Honestly it will do you good just to capture it in writing but once it’s down if you are by chance willing to share it with us out here please send it in and let me use it for a Fantasy Friday. And for everyone else, remember to leave a comment any time you can to encourage these writers. It really helps. Send your stories to elisspeaks@yahoo.com

Visiting in Vegas!

Everyone wants to know about our trip. I’m a little lost at what to say. I will say that if Sunny is a serial killer she’s not very good at it. I got clean away and I’m back home with Nick. If she didn’t kill me for the gift of the cane, I think I’m in the clear.

This trip originated as a reward for working on losing weight. We reported to each other as well as a few others. Sometimes it was tough going, but we didn’t do so badly.  Sunny said I could post her picture as long as I didn’t identify which one she was – so I’m not telling.

We did the usual Las Vegas stuff, gambling, drinking, picking up prostitute – no, wait that wasn’t us. We got tattoos, lay out by the pool in our bikinis, and soaked in the hot tub. But don’t worry, before the trip was over we saw the error of our ways and got religion.

Come on, really want did you all expect? We’re two simi-respectable middle-aged women – we talked, and talked, and talked. We talked about writing, we talked about our families, we talked about blogging, about bloggers, about our childhood, our husbands, and many of the same things we all talk about on blogs. How spanking works in our lives, what we want, need, you name it.  In between all this conversation we went to the strip and walked, and walked and walked – finally giving up and grabbing a cab back to the hotel. It was after that that we hit the hot tub and boy did it feel good. (Some probably wouldn’t describe our bathing suits as bikinis – but I’m telling this story.)

We ate well, but we didn’t really over eat, as Nick had warned against, we found a great place when we went downtown. Sunny and the waiter hit it off for sure, I had to watch her the next night when we went back again for soup and dessert.  I loved the down town area – so very tacky and fun! That’s where we got our tattoos.

It really was a great trip – two people who had met on line knowing at first that we had only one interest in common and not one you’d mention to your neighbor. But we had a ball, sharing a room with ease. We never even turned on the TV while we were there. I think, for the most part, neither of us was shocked by the other. I will have to say that when we get old and begin reminiscing about our live and all we’ve done, Sunny’s going to have better stories to tell than I will. Not to worry – I can make up stories at the drop of a hat. 

Sunny is the sixth person I've met from the blogs. With this sampling I want to say that we have some of the nicest people in the world blogging in out little corner. Spanko's must be nice people in general. I know the ones I've met are the best!

Soon, soon, I promise and that no April Fool!

I really want to get a post written, but I haven't had a minute today to write one. Teaching, Nick and I visiting this afternoon, three phone calls, lesson plans for tomorrow and I HAVE to get to bed! I have not forgotten you guys. Hopefully I'll be able to post tomorrow and then Sunny can fill in the details.

And while you're waiting on me, go by Donna Steele's blog, wish her a happy birthday and put your name in to win some books - who can't use more books?