The one thing I wanted to avoid

I wanted to tell you a little more of what Nick and I discussed. I know there will never be real discipline in our relationship and I think I’m mostly come to terms with that. Nick doesn’t want it in a big way and I have to respect his wishes. To make me happy he will from time to time mention something he would really like me to do, and I do try, at least for a while. But as I’ve said if there are no consequences for not following through I tend to let even these things slide.

He did mention the other night, as he was spanking, that he wanted me to work on some things. Sounded good to me, I figured he wanted the towels folded and put away in a timelier manner. Maybe he wanted me to be better at getting my clothes hung up and not thrown at the foot of the bed. Maybe a little more house work in general. Maybe he wanted me in bed earlier or my car to stay cleaner. All these are things I would like to work on, but I have little in the way of self-motivation to get them done.

Nope, he didn’t mention any of these. He honed in on the one thing I just want to completely avoid. He wants me to begin working again to reach a healthy weight. YUCK! I mean if you have a magic pill I could take to get it done then hey, I’m all for it. It’s not like I’m unwilling, I’ll do anything I can to get healthier except

• Exercise
• Give up junk food
• Go to bed earlier
• Get out of my recliner and off the computer

I think you can see that I’m not being unreasonable. I mean, I’m a grown-up. Can’t grown-ups do whatever they want to do? Wasn’t that the point of growing up in the first place??

What I want to do is:

• Sleep late
• Blog
• Read
• Write fiction
• Eat what I like
• Be spanked whenever I’m in the mood (he will need to read my mind, please)
• And in general, be waited on hand and foot

What’s wrong with that?

Sigh… I know, I know. The world doesn’t work that way (although I know I’m closer to this lifestyle than many.) I don’t think Nick is worried about the way I look. I’m no raving beauty but I’m not too hideous to go out in public. I don’t think having me reach fashion model weight is something he is trying to get me to work toward. What he does want is a healthy wife. One who could come off the blood pressure medication, one whose knees and ankles don’t hurt, one who has more energy, one who isn’t in danger of diabetes, and one who will be around for a long time so that we can enjoy these empty nest years.

I know I have to decide to get off my sorry ass and do something to make this healthy lifestyle and weight loss a reality. It’s not like I’m saying "Well he won’t spank me when I don’t do these thing, so I just won’t." I’m really not that stupid. But I admit some outside (maybe that should be ‘backside’) motivation wouldn’t hurt. When he is engaged in being the ‘enforce’ the weight loss thing becomes a mind game for me. I can say to myself ‘If I don’t do _____, the Nick is going to wear me out’. That may or may not be true, but it’s something to keep my mind engaged instead of just the drudgery of exercise and dieting. I know a few hard swats anytime during the week, I mean 5 to 10 hard swats, as he ask me what I accomplished that day would be helpful. It would be like 'There, I got your attention. Show some progress or there will be more swats than you want in your future!"

I guess we’ll see what happens. I did get an interesting email from Nick the other day. You’ll remember I’m not the fastest at getting clean clothes put away. The email was short and to the point.

You have clothes and a brush on the bed, you choose

Would he have followed through? Don’t know, but I did manage to get my clothes put away!