I have been a wife and mother for over twenty years. Now I am becoming my husband's lover, too.
We owe it all to my fellow bloggers who gave me the courage to come out to my husband as a spanko.
I do feel like this is a New Beginning for us.

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Sunday, April 19, 2009

It’s all right

This is an interesting time of year for me, a very stressful time of year for teachers. In one way time speeds up as I realize all I need to cover before big test at the end of the year. All the little extras that have to be done to finish up start coming at you. Colleagues and administers, facing the same stresses, become more short tempered and mixed with all this is the fact that the kids behavior goes all to heck!! Let’s just say my job is not pleasant and relaxing these days.

So what would help? Oh come on, we all know the answer to that! A good spanking every night at bedtime would truly relieve stress and another in the morning before I left would send me to work with a smile on my face and a loving secret in my heart to help me fight off constant annoyances nipping at my heels all day. But that is not going to be happening.

For one thing we don’t live alone. I’m not complaining, Mollie will be gone too soon for my liking as it is. But having a teen in the home in not conduce for the time needed for a long slow stress reliving spanking. Neither is it good for the fast on the spot treatment that can be so effective.

But to tell you the truth I have two conflicting feelings about all this right now. I know frequent consistent spanking would make me feel much better and I think it would be good for me. At the same time I just don’t feel like messing with it at all. I need my mind in the game for spanking to be fun and productive and my mind is not there right now!

I finally wrote Nick another assignment the other day. I hadn’t been keeping up with that lately and he hadn’t said anything so I figured not hearing anything wasn’t really bothering him either. I told him of my blah feelings. He answered the email. He seemed pleased that I had written and he agree that our lives weren’t really in a passionate ‘let’s play and jump each other’s bones’ mood at the moment. He continues to worry about finding a job, the current finical woes everywhere, and on top of all that his dad has just has surgery. Now my FIL seems to be doing well after this back surgery (if we can keep him from working in the garden and splitting wood for a while) but it has added to the overall stress these days.

Which finally brings me back to the title of this post, it’s all right. We’re in a lull (not unusual out here) and that’s all it is – a lull. Now when I first came out to Nick about all this and our sex life took off for the first time I was scared to death of a lull. I/we had been in a 23 year lull and the idea of going back to that was terrifying. But that fear has totally gone away as I see we have truly made and committed to the real life style changes. We love each other, we communicate with each other (still hard for me but I’m committed to it), we cuddle and snuggle in bed every night – a big change from the old day and overall I love this change as much as anything. And we don’t mind asking each other for what we really need or want.

I have no doubt that our sex drive and desire to play will be back in full force in the future and after that I am just as certain other lulls will follow. I think this is probably the pattern for most of us. So I am not going to let the worrying about a lull add to any other stresses and worries we have. I am looking forward to a bit of play and good old passionate love making when ever we are both in the mood and really looking forward to those times when the idea of spanking, experimenting, and hot monkey sex is foremost in both our thoughts – it will be there again and I plan to be here bragging and sharing it all with you. I hope you will all share your good times out here too. After all there is something to be said for trying to keep up with your friends.

8 comments:

  1. I always think 'lulls' in relationships can be like companionable silences...nothing wrong with them as long as you both know the fundamental relationship is strong and healthy....worrying when you know its not. There's nothing here to suggest to me that yours falls into the latter category.

    I LOVE the monkey picture!! I've got a little lazy lately when it comes to sourcing pictures....and haven't found much which 'speaks' to me to use.

    As for trying to keep up with friends....when it comes to sex/'play' I'm reminded of the saying which is something about believing most of what you see, and less of what you only hear...unless you're hearing it through the walls!!

    love and hugs xxx

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  2. I understand and can relate...you have such a wonderful relationship and you are right, there is no need to worry...as for friends absolutely it is always good to keep in touch :-)

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  3. PK, of course it's all right.
    In an ideal world you would always get what you want, in real life it ain't always so.
    Good luck for the new semester.
    Love and warm hugs,
    Paul.

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  4. M:e,
    'Companionable silence' that's a good way to think of it. I love people I can be silent with and still feel comfortable.

    That monkey picture got to me too! I just loved her!

    I don't really mind if my friends write that they are having more fun than they are - it still give me something to strive for!!

    Terps,
    Thanks. That's why I like my blog so much, keeping in touch with my friends.

    Dear Paul,
    No we don't get everything we want but I have come to feel that I am luckier than most.

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  5. I am in a lull to. Currently I have no desire to get out of the lull either. But i know in time my feelings will change and that desire will return. Try to look forward to summer break that is not to far away. I'm sure you and Nick will be able to steal a couple of quiet afternoons before then too. Hugs.

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  6. I love what you have with Nick & I think it is great that you emailed him to be in touch. Keep it up, the written word is totally hot! And remember my favorite comfort phrase when I am not completely happy... this too shall pass. Take good care of yourself. ((Hugs)) KayLynn

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  7. Hi PK, we all have been there.

    It would be wonderful if we could get what we want all the time but that just doesn't happen.

    I think you and Nick have great relationship and I love how you email one another so as you say "It's all right" this will pass.

    Keep smiling my friend.

    Ronnie
    xx

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  8. Yaya,
    I just hope you soon have a desire to get out of your lull. I remember that feeling too and I didn't like it. Nick and I will have opportunity - Mollie is working all the time these day.

    Kaylynn,
    You are right this will pass. I will keep emailing. I can say and ask for things through writting that I still could not say face to face.

    Ronnie,
    You're right but I know I get what I want more often than now so I really can't complain.

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