The very beginning

I just came across a true blast from the past and I thought you guys enjoy reading it. Some of you that have been reading here for a long time might remember that I began my blog in July of 2006. That was shortly after I had found blogs but we had actually dabbled in spanking just a little before that. We had been married for 17 years and our kids were 12 and 8.

We had just gotten a new computer and put it in the basement. I finally had a tiny bit of privacy for looking around and I typed in spanking. I didn’t find any blogs at that time but I found some stories and a few pictures – enough to really push my spanko mind into over drive. Was this really me? Fairly suddenly I went from zero interest in sex to … let me put this delicately – horny!

So with a good mixture of fear and longing I wrote the following email to Nick. Picture as you read what must have been going through Nick’s mind. This poor man whose wife generally ignored him, whose lack of interest in sex meant ‘good ‘ol man on top, woman on bottom get it over with quick’ sex maybe once a month. NO experimenting, no kink, nothing. Then out of the blue he gets the following email

August 14, 2000

I cannot believe that I am sending this E-mail; at least I'm writing it I'm not sure I'll ever send it. Don't worry I think you'll like it but its taken me 17 years to be able to write it. It may take another 20 before I could say it face to face. Would you be interested in hearing about and perhaps indulging me in some sexual games that keep roaming around in my brain? Nothing elaborate but it would involve a bit of role playing and I'm not sure that that is really your style. But if you're willing to try once we don't have to do any more if you don't like it.

I just want to be sure that these games stay completely out of our real life, at least for now. In other words when we play I want to be someone else. An alter-ego so to speak someone who is no ones mother, teacher or daughter. In other words you won't be acting these things out with me, your wife. Instead this man (you get to pick your alter-ego’s name) and a women we'll call Liz, will be doing all this. If you think that I have gone off the deep end -- you may be right. If you want me to stop this silliness and get back to normal just e-mail me back and tell me to forget it. I promise I won't bring it up again. But if you are interested the only thing you have to do at this time is to e-mail me to send you more information and sign it with your made up name. Then just check your mail once in a while. Remember anticipation is part of the game!

Your loving wife.

Well do you think that would have gotten his attention? And did you notice, I still hadn't even gotten up the nerve to mention spanking!

LOL! It did get his attention,but he hardly knew what to say. This was his entire return email (trust me they got much better soon)

Remember that my mail is not password protected when you're sending additional info.

I found my next email too. I’ll post it soon. But this was the very, very beginning. It didn’t completely last at that time. Too much going on in real life, kids to care for, parents to care for, two careers to deal with and no internet friends to share it all with – to talk with me, to encourage me, to help me feel normal. But it did show me that we really did love each other and when life presented the opportunity again a few years later we grabbed it and the rest is history!