I am turning 51 today!! Good for me! But before you read my thought on my 50th year go check out this weeks Fantasy Friday, vote and leave a comment letting the author know what you thing of the story.
I don’t know what I though it would be like to turn 50. I am sure I gave it some thought during my 40’s but I can say that the reality far exceeded anything I would have expected.
I know that Nick and I have had more sex this year than any year of my life – including the honeymoon years. And it has been FUN!! I have been spanked often (well not often enough, but you know). I have been spanked lovingly, romantically, erotically and on rare occasions (diet lapses) quite sternly and seriously. Yes, it’s been a wonderful year!
But there have been real changes in me. I don’t worry about what other people think. If I don’t want to do something I say no. I have been more opened with Nick about my feelings and I think I am finally realizing what is important in life.
I have always known that the kids were important but as they were growing up I think I forgot how important Nick was. Now I really do know and I hope he knows how important he is to me. The place where Nick used to work shut down and he has been out of work for a while. He has been looking hard and one job finally opened that it looked like he was going to be able to get. He really wants a job. There was a snag. The hours were from 3:00 in the afternoon until 9:00 at night and most of the day Saturday. What horrible hours!! I knew I would never, ever get to see him and for me our having time to be together is the most important thing I can think of. I told him I really did not want him to take it and he didn’t. I really hope he is as happy with that decision as I am.
Whether she knows it or not Eva triggered another big change. You know how much we talk – more than a dozen times a day. We farble along, silly – serious it doesn’t matter, and somewhere as we were talking she said I should plan on coming and staying with her when she had surgery. I didn’t pay much attention; I mean who wants guest right after surgery? But then it began to sound like they really wanted me to come.
It was beginning to play around in my mind and then Eva got the surgery date and I realized that if I went I would miss the first two day of work. In the past that would have decided for me – you can’t miss work! But gradually (I’m slow) it dawned on me that going and being with Eva at that time was way more important than a work day or two. No contest. Nick understood and I went with his blessing. I don’t know how much help I really was – Adam could probably have gotten the laundry in without me but I loved being there. I swear I would not have been smart enough to go a few years ago.
My 50th year was full of wonderful people – Nick, my kids, my twin, my friends in RL and in blog land and wonderful activities – travel, sex, and spanking. All and all an incredible year and I can’t wait to see what this next year will bring.