When I began this blog ten years ago I was terrified that someone in my real life would find out about it. I think anyone who has a spanking blog certainly began with the same feeling. I was worried that my family would find out – that Nick’s family would find out. But mostly I was worried that someone at school would find out. I felt that there was a real chance that I could lose my job. So though I love blogging and writing I kept it totally secret in my real life.
Little by little, I’ve relaxed. I realized that no one is looking for spanking blogs except for spankos. And I know that the real life friends and family I’ve told are slightly amused, but basically could care less.
I no longer worry about losing my job, obviously because I’m about ready to give it up voluntarily. But I think that point really hit home when, at a concert last night, I gave one of my cards with all the Cassie books on it to an old friend – someone I used to teach with… someone who’s grandson is in my room this year… some one who is now on the school board. Yep, times have changed.
I’ve loved letting go of the fear and simply being proud of my Cassie books. It’s a combination of aging, having friends with the same interest, the realization that there is nothing wrong with adult consensual spanking and the fact that no one else cares! Maybe it’s like my dad used to say, you wouldn’t worry about what people thought of you if you realized how seldom they do.